Sending you hugs Meg. Big hugs and big love. If you could see yourself the way the rest of us see you, you wouldn't have self-esteem issues. I don't give a shit that you relapsed - you're human. It doesn't take you down in our eyes. You are still a fucking warrior. You are still MEG and MEG is beyond cool and wonderful and amazing. You are so strong. One of the strongest people that I know. Staying sober is HARD. Even ten years in, there are still days when I want to drink or smoke and I can't tell you what stops me. I have no idea what stops me. I just don't. People laugh when they ask me "How did you do it?" and my only response is "I don't drink/use." That's all I can say because that's all I know. There is no secret. There is no "do it this way" or "do it that way". There is no right or wrong way. There are days when it is literally one second at a time and then there are months when I don't even think about it. I get why your Mom is doing this. I get why your family is acting this way. But you cannot force someone
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I don't know if you have seen the movie "It's a Wonderful Life", but it's one of my favorite movies because its message is that we all are more connected then we think and we touch each others lives in meaningful ways that we are not aware of. Hang in there, Meg. We all fall down, no one is perfect or even close. You are wonderful mother and Aven needs you more than you know. Self-esteem is a crazy thing in that it fluctuates even day to day. Don't let your inner voice talk you out of how AMAZING you are. Love, love, love...
Hi Meghan
anonymous
February 20 2013, 03:09:30 UTC
Hello Meghan its your friend from San Diego here Lisa,anyhow I loved what the other commenter said about not letting them win... also Meghan remember I was telling you i also have a wretched chronic disease as well? Well it is severe rheumaqtoid Arthritis,and before you say thats nuthin too hard wait a sec... I have had it since I was 10 now im 41 and when I was 18 all of my lower body was basically all bionic well kinda,I had both hips and both knees replaced,thought i could have a normal life well... not so much unfortunately it all caught up with me and three of the lower joints had to be re done.
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i'm really glad you're in treatment.
you have to remember, whether you like it or not, you're already a fighter.
it doesn't seem that way now.
now is not a good time.
you can try. and i know you will, just because of Aven.
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also Meghan remember I was telling you i also have a wretched chronic disease as well? Well it is severe rheumaqtoid Arthritis,and before you say thats nuthin too hard wait a sec...
I have had it since I was 10 now im 41 and when I was 18 all of my lower body was basically all bionic well kinda,I had both hips and both knees replaced,thought i could have a normal life well... not so much unfortunately it all caught up with me and three of the lower joints had to be re done.
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