Destiny...(1/?)
Angel, Death, Demon, Devil.
Would you be able to tell their difference?
For me, never.
Not when they are all so breathtakingly beautiful altogether.
13th August 2010, Friday, 6.39a.m.
"I'm sorry Mrs Lee, but we've tried our best to save your son. He didn't make it."
That was what my neurologist Dr Choi told my mum on the day of my death. Oh! I forgot to introduce myself. Hello there, I'm Jinki, Lee Jinki. One of the best arts student in college, well, used to.
I was there to see how she crumbled to her knees, crying in disbelief that god took her beloved son away from her on this very day.
"Why god? Why must you be so cruel to me? Taking my beloved son and husband on the exact same day! WAE!!!" she cried.
Yep, you heard that, my father died of cardiac arrest back in 2005, exactly 5 years ago, on this very day. Wicked huh?
"Jinki, it's time to go," I turned to the source of the voice, he's smiling so softly for my own good. But I know, I would be happier this way.
Now why am I here? Let's go back to 5 months ago...
*******
"Umma! Gonna skip breakfast today! I'm running late! Love ya!" maybe it would have been better if I didn't left home that day.
"Newsflash, college student Lee Jinki was found unconscious outside Seoul University's school ground after a hit-and-run with the suspect is still on the loose..."
My mother was waiting anxiously outside of the operating theatre after I was sent into the hospital.
The next time I woke up was three days after the accident. When I woke up, I heard people talking outside of my ward, "Mrs Lee, due to the concussion your son had suffered, from the CT scans that we've had for your son, we suspect that there's a blood clot forming up in his brain. We would have to go through more scans and checks to confirm this."
After hearing that, I realised it was the doctor and my mother who were talking outside.
Blood clot? So am I going to die very soon?
I could hear my mother sobbing softly outside my ward, making sure I wouldn't hear it. After a few minutes of crying, she stepped into the ward again, seeing me staring up at the ceiling. She wiped off her tears and gave me the best smile she could offer.
"When did you woke up?" she asked as she stroked my face.
"Just," and all I could do was smile weakly at her.
The next few days passed by with me undergoing all sorts of tests, scans, checks, whatever, I don't even know. Turn out, the results for all the tests were positive.
It wasn't that long until I first fainted during my math class due to said blood clot. After a few days of hospitalization, I was discharged. My neurologist, Dr Choi, whom discovered the clot was convinced that it was growing slowly.
Soon, it would obstruct the blood-flow in my brain, my nerve would get blocked, restricting my movements, then soon enough, I would be joining dead father.
I always knew I would die one day, but I've never expected it to be so soon.
I just hope that my remaining time on earth would be spent with my mother, building memories together so that she would not feel that alone after I leave, not at least with the memories I was going to leave behind with her.
I would also try my best to help people around, to fulfill their dream and wish, sounds pretty ambitious, but I would, I know I could!
As days passed by, I am more unwilling to let go of my life, my mother and the people whom I've helped. I'm still so young and I'm finally doing some meaningful things to the community and now I have to die? I want to stay alive, so that my mother would not live in grief, so that I would be able to help more people and make their life better. I don't wanna die!
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There was a stormy night which I thought I was dead for good when I started hearing voices around me in my sleep. As each of them spoke up, I counted. "1--2--3--4," four voice? Who are they?!
The first voice yelled, "I said he's mine!"
Then the next shouted, "No! He's mine! Whoever said that he's yours!"
"Shut the hell up both of you, he's gonna be mine," came a cool voice.
"Whatever, the three of you can fight all you want, but he belongs to me. He's way too kind for your good," the last voice giggled.
That was when I tried to open my eyes but I couldn't, no matter how much I tried.
"Shh....He's awake!" the last voice whispered.
"Yah! It's not like he won't hear you if you whisper!" the second voice scolded.
(Silence)
This time when I tried opening my eyes, they did.
And there stood four beautiful boys with pale skin that made them look extraordinary. Absolutely breathtaking.
Am I dreaming? Am I dead? I thought.
"Nope, you're not dreaming, and neither you're dead. Oh! You can see us?" the sweetest looking one pointed at the four of them.
"Told ya we should have took cover, now we're busted!" the feline eyed one snorted.
Before the shortest one could protest, the tallest of them all said, "It's better this way, saves us trouble from being mistaken as ghosts."
"As you can see, we are here, for you," he continued.
"You're not ghosts?" my mind's seriously screwed up. It's not that I don't believe in ghosts or beings that belong to the third dimension, but why do I have to see them!?
"Well, you can call us that if you like, but, we're really not ghosts," the shortest one shrugged, his voice sounds special.
There was another period of silence with staring war going on in my dark room, I didn't know what to say and neither would I want to jeopardize my own life with some sort of unknown creatures in the form of pretty boys. The staring war that went on only made me felt more crept out.
"So you're telling me that you guys are not ghosts when you all appeared in my room just like this? And am I supposed to believe that?" I finally snorted. I don't usually snort, but this is just insane!
"Yep," the feline eyed one crossed his arms.
"Ok, hahaha, this is wow, what a cool dream I have here, hahaha, well have fun guys, I won't be seeing you after I wake up in the morning, hahaha, night, adios!" With that I blacked out again.
a/n: alright...now i'm posting it because i have lovely people who read and comment, numbers doesn't matter anymore. and most importantly, i want to post this! ㅋㅋㅋ
so here's chap 1, i'm not sure how many chaps it will have, but we'll see where my muse takes me to(:
enjoy and comments are ♥♥♥ pardon my mistakes, my eyes don't work well in the dark, anybody wanna be my beta? i'm looking for beta!! crazy family? dongsaengs? friends? comment to let me know if you wanna be my beta too ^^
hope you like this and thanks for reading! peace out~ ^~^
Would you be able to tell their difference?
For me, never.
Not when they are all so breathtakingly beautiful altogether.
13th August 2010, Friday, 6.39a.m.
"I'm sorry Mrs Lee, but we've tried our best to save your son. He didn't make it."
That was what my neurologist Dr Choi told my mum on the day of my death. Oh! I forgot to introduce myself. Hello there, I'm Jinki, Lee Jinki. One of the best arts student in college, well, used to.
I was there to see how she crumbled to her knees, crying in disbelief that god took her beloved son away from her on this very day.
"Why god? Why must you be so cruel to me? Taking my beloved son and husband on the exact same day! WAE!!!" she cried.
Yep, you heard that, my father died of cardiac arrest back in 2005, exactly 5 years ago, on this very day. Wicked huh?
"Jinki, it's time to go," I turned to the source of the voice, he's smiling so softly for my own good. But I know, I would be happier this way.
Now why am I here? Let's go back to 5 months ago...
*******
"Umma! Gonna skip breakfast today! I'm running late! Love ya!" maybe it would have been better if I didn't left home that day.
"Newsflash, college student Lee Jinki was found unconscious outside Seoul University's school ground after a hit-and-run with the suspect is still on the loose..."
My mother was waiting anxiously outside of the operating theatre after I was sent into the hospital.
The next time I woke up was three days after the accident. When I woke up, I heard people talking outside of my ward, "Mrs Lee, due to the concussion your son had suffered, from the CT scans that we've had for your son, we suspect that there's a blood clot forming up in his brain. We would have to go through more scans and checks to confirm this."
After hearing that, I realised it was the doctor and my mother who were talking outside.
Blood clot? So am I going to die very soon?
I could hear my mother sobbing softly outside my ward, making sure I wouldn't hear it. After a few minutes of crying, she stepped into the ward again, seeing me staring up at the ceiling. She wiped off her tears and gave me the best smile she could offer.
"When did you woke up?" she asked as she stroked my face.
"Just," and all I could do was smile weakly at her.
The next few days passed by with me undergoing all sorts of tests, scans, checks, whatever, I don't even know. Turn out, the results for all the tests were positive.
It wasn't that long until I first fainted during my math class due to said blood clot. After a few days of hospitalization, I was discharged. My neurologist, Dr Choi, whom discovered the clot was convinced that it was growing slowly.
Soon, it would obstruct the blood-flow in my brain, my nerve would get blocked, restricting my movements, then soon enough, I would be joining dead father.
I always knew I would die one day, but I've never expected it to be so soon.
I just hope that my remaining time on earth would be spent with my mother, building memories together so that she would not feel that alone after I leave, not at least with the memories I was going to leave behind with her.
I would also try my best to help people around, to fulfill their dream and wish, sounds pretty ambitious, but I would, I know I could!
As days passed by, I am more unwilling to let go of my life, my mother and the people whom I've helped. I'm still so young and I'm finally doing some meaningful things to the community and now I have to die? I want to stay alive, so that my mother would not live in grief, so that I would be able to help more people and make their life better. I don't wanna die!
-------
There was a stormy night which I thought I was dead for good when I started hearing voices around me in my sleep. As each of them spoke up, I counted. "1--2--3--4," four voice? Who are they?!
The first voice yelled, "I said he's mine!"
Then the next shouted, "No! He's mine! Whoever said that he's yours!"
"Shut the hell up both of you, he's gonna be mine," came a cool voice.
"Whatever, the three of you can fight all you want, but he belongs to me. He's way too kind for your good," the last voice giggled.
That was when I tried to open my eyes but I couldn't, no matter how much I tried.
"Shh....He's awake!" the last voice whispered.
"Yah! It's not like he won't hear you if you whisper!" the second voice scolded.
(Silence)
This time when I tried opening my eyes, they did.
And there stood four beautiful boys with pale skin that made them look extraordinary. Absolutely breathtaking.
Am I dreaming? Am I dead? I thought.
"Nope, you're not dreaming, and neither you're dead. Oh! You can see us?" the sweetest looking one pointed at the four of them.
"Told ya we should have took cover, now we're busted!" the feline eyed one snorted.
Before the shortest one could protest, the tallest of them all said, "It's better this way, saves us trouble from being mistaken as ghosts."
"As you can see, we are here, for you," he continued.
"You're not ghosts?" my mind's seriously screwed up. It's not that I don't believe in ghosts or beings that belong to the third dimension, but why do I have to see them!?
"Well, you can call us that if you like, but, we're really not ghosts," the shortest one shrugged, his voice sounds special.
There was another period of silence with staring war going on in my dark room, I didn't know what to say and neither would I want to jeopardize my own life with some sort of unknown creatures in the form of pretty boys. The staring war that went on only made me felt more crept out.
"So you're telling me that you guys are not ghosts when you all appeared in my room just like this? And am I supposed to believe that?" I finally snorted. I don't usually snort, but this is just insane!
"Yep," the feline eyed one crossed his arms.
"Ok, hahaha, this is wow, what a cool dream I have here, hahaha, well have fun guys, I won't be seeing you after I wake up in the morning, hahaha, night, adios!" With that I blacked out again.
a/n: alright...now i'm posting it because i have lovely people who read and comment, numbers doesn't matter anymore. and most importantly, i want to post this! ㅋㅋㅋ
so here's chap 1, i'm not sure how many chaps it will have, but we'll see where my muse takes me to(:
enjoy and comments are ♥♥♥ pardon my mistakes, my eyes don't work well in the dark, anybody wanna be my beta? i'm looking for beta!! crazy family? dongsaengs? friends? comment to let me know if you wanna be my beta too ^^
hope you like this and thanks for reading! peace out~ ^~^