Sitting solemnly, converged deeply within a cacophonous sea of thought, I continuously find myself ruminating on the most basic facets of my consistently, inexplicably boring existence. I don't know why I fixate my mental prowess on such mundane, uninteresting issues as to why things the way they are right now, expending innumerable amounts of ( Read more... )

For some indiscernable amount of time, I've inexplicably felt an intangible lack of vulnerability both financially and emotionally. This fact has caused my mind to move along meanderingly, directionless with concern over many aspects of my life which I would normally become fervently interested in until more grey hairs appeared or my nerves were so ( Read more... )

Call me crazy, but somewhere along the timeline of life I suppose I lost my piece of mind, no longer allowing things to lie dormant -- my acquiescent sentiment toward everyday living evaporating like time into ethereal space. Somehow, things have suddenly changed, my apprehension near the precipice of palpable levels. Now, looking around there are ( Read more... )

The superflous abundance of anxiousness and hype that runs rampid during the end of each year has come and gone in what feels like mere moments. Left in the wake of such a rapid succession of events is nothing but the damp, obstinate stench of stagnation and the sudden realization that boredom the annual new year exudes is deftly upon us ( Read more... )

As the sky releases it's accrued mass of condensation downward and rain falls almost perpetually upon this damp, diminutive town enveloped by cedement reaching hundreds feet high, the past year rapidly comes to it's inevitable close. Since the commencement of 2004's first day, a compendiums worth of change has occured, yet only a modicum of it ( Read more... )

It's been so long since I've taken the time to express myself in this forum. So much has taken place over the past months that it's difficult to discern whether or not I'm thoroughly prepared to delve back into my mind, attempting -- retrospectively -- to come to conclusions concerning the disappointment I've been subjected to in light of the ( Read more... )

Life is strange. It sometimes takes turns for no apparent reason, shifting the course of your experience from one spetrum of existence to the other. Lately, things of that nature have become all too common for me ( Read more... )

Once more I find myself in a familiar situation, one brimming to the edge of overflow with dire consequences, flushes of emotion and drenched thoroughly in the unknown. It's been quite some time since I last took the time to expatiate my concerns with my new found disposition. Contrarily, I've kept my thoughts bottled up deep within hoping that ( Read more... )

Stuck in a pensive state, unable to alleviate the stress that is currently inundating my very existence, I can't but help feel lost at sea, floating along the current's path, going on where the tide leads, ending up in peculiar places, immersed in abstract things. If I were somehow able to find a medium to help reach abreaction, I am almost sure ( Read more... )

My eyes slowly close, then reopen only to slowly repeat the cycle. Unable to consciously depart for the evening my mind replays what I want to think never existed. I can't fathom that this is my reality, that what I have experienced is in all a truth, not a fallacy. Through repetition, that realization soon sets in ( Read more... )