I wish so much I could offer you comfort, but I can't find any for myself right now. Each day gets worse, each service makes it more horribly real. I can't face the future beyond a couple of days because my mind refuses to face a world without him.
People keep telling me how much he loved me, it is supposed to help the pain. I hope you know how much he loved you too, and how grateful I am that he brought me into your life and that you are letting me stay there.
I do want you to hear Scott's words. They are incredibly painful, but there is so much love in them and in the reactions of the people who are listening to them. We are not alone, even though it feels very much like we are.
I can't even imagine. I haven't even been able to bring myself to play the recordings I have. It boggles the mind that such a strong person isn't here anymore.
Anyway, you shouldn't have to be giving me comfort. I should be comforting you. I just have to find a way to do that.
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People keep telling me how much he loved me, it is supposed to help the pain. I hope you know how much he loved you too, and how grateful I am that he brought me into your life and that you are letting me stay there.
I do want you to hear Scott's words. They are incredibly painful, but there is so much love in them and in the reactions of the people who are listening to them. We are not alone, even though it feels very much like we are.
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Anyway, you shouldn't have to be giving me comfort. I should be comforting you. I just have to find a way to do that.
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