And I swallow these capsules, to regain my grip. And I swallowed myself sick.

[mcbeat]

I just typed a three page letter to Robert. Wasn't hard to find his address, just called the twentynine palms base. i'm jealous of the operator girls' southern accent.

i hate myself. i didn't deserve this, he didn't deserve this... why us?! we definitely beat the odds, that's for sure. 
i haven't slept since wednesday night. who needs sleep?

i hate all the options.

Next weekend is my birthday weekend...

i'm going to go to ranchos and eat a yummy shiitake salad, then go to work unitl 9 -pick up my paycheck!, then rent knocked up.