the maintence men decided to blow the leaves away at seven am
the scent of gasoline crawled through the open screen window
i woke up wondering why i had the wrong dream
as time quickly ticks away
i wonder how the thoughts evolve in my mind
and why i interrogate them over and over.

when am i ever going to do what i want to do ( Read more... )

billows of smoke curled out from the cracks of his lips. i pretended not to notice, but it didnt do any good. i hope he didnt catch my changing facial expression each time he exhaled. we talked, and i asked him a question, smiled and nodded. it was one of those converstations sparked by, "hey pretty girl" the ones that usually shut him down cold ( Read more... )

remember sitting in the maroon seats of a dark auditorium crying and crying untill you run out of tears? the light grows steady, steady ( Read more... )

october was beautiful. it rained and rained and rained ( Read more... )

 there are smany things that would make me so much happier right now:

painting a picture
talking on the phone
designing clothes
fixing relationships
studying psychology
taking pictures
writing poetry.

why on earth did i ever choose biology?

that the air smelled like birthday candles right after you blow them out. 
that the sidwalks were wet and the air was cold
and we almost ran down a hill together. 
i hope you dont mind that sometimes im not there
i hope you dont notice. 
i try my best, but sometimes you're not either
and i understand. 
sometimes, i am so excited
and you can hear it in my ( Read more... )

the isnt anything i would rather be doing right now than ballet.

you have no idea how much i need you right now.

driving home, i realized how terribly lucky, and ridiculously happy i am.