leftovers of what could be ( Read more... )

well i'm feeling parts are coming together. guess i'm optimistic. found a girl that i'm interested in. haven't felt really interested in any particular girl in forever. kinda gives me encouragement to get other things in order. like getting a day job, even if it's part time at fedex, i want to get out of the funk of third shift. i'm getting eager ( Read more... )

better off really ( Read more... )

lost and found, then turned around, that's the story for today...i have too much crap going on right now, i can't wait till next week when things get back to normal...bah, i have the joy of getting my wisdom teeth pulled out of my jaw tomorrow morning, not exactly looking forward to that, and i still have to look over the farm till friday or ( Read more... )

lost direction, mixed signals, not so innocent bystanders, friendship scandels, surfacing truth, hidden agendas, love, loss, living, fading feelings, wide eyes, interference, bullhorn bullshit, oblivious, intoxication, barriers, thief, happiness, regret, timing, mixing bowl

taken by surprise ( Read more... )

ok, stage one of reinvention, clean up...i'm trying to eat healthier, even forcing myself to eat some veggies, actually going to work out tomorrow, and cutting back on drinking...stage two, being more open to things and people, i rely on my judgement of people right off the back too easily, i need to give people more of a chance, i miss diversity ( Read more... )

try, try, fail...try, try, and fail again ( Read more... )

well since i don't really talk to anyone much, except for on poker nights, and then it's only conversations you have to pass the time, i think i'm going to try to write in here, i'm not even sure if people still read this..but yea, today i felt like i was in a constant panic attack, probably from thinking of the past again, that usually stems it. i ( Read more... )

Lately I've been wishing I had one desire ( Read more... )