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[maychorian]

Bah, I am depressed today. And it's my brother's graduation open house and we have family from two different states and friends from all over the area and I just want to go away, just be alone. And then I feel guilty for being antisocial and unhelpful, especially with all the work that needs done but I'm just. I don't want it.

I hate this feeling.

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[wobbeltierchen]

i know that feeling *hugs*
depression is such a shitty thing to have. you want to be social, yet you don't, then you try to do something but you can't get comfortable in the process and so on.
i always sit there at the table and zone out while the other's are talking.

don't beat yourself up over it. if you're not feeling up for it then don't force yourself to do it. that doesn't help anyone, especially not you.

i hate that feeling, too. *more hugs*

[maychorian]

Thanks, hon. Yeah, afterward I just pretty much went to bed. I've come to the conclusion that I'm just not good with groups. ::shrugs:: Oh well. Somehow they'll survive without me.