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[matt_carroll]

I just woke up from a bad dream. I went to grab Leslie, but then quickly realized she wasn't there. I'm so incredibly sad right now that I almost feel like crying. Leslie and I were apart for so long and fought so hard to stay together. Then, by some grace of God, we were able to be around each other nearly 24/7. I moved a hell of a lot closer and

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[leslie_carter]

Brian and Nick have been friends for nearly ten years but they haven't been a couple for even close to that amount of time. They each at to go through a lot, a marriage, several realtionships... fights and periods of seperation... all kinds of things to get where they are today.

I want to be with you, but lately I wonder how much of me you see. I used to feel like you knew me inside and out even better than I knew myself. Maybe it's just because we've spent the last few weeks apart more than we've been together. But I don't feel like I see myself very well so I wonder how you can.

[matt_carroll]

I'm not so sure what to say. I'm afriad of saying the wrong thing. *Sighs*

I guess Brian and Nick weren't such a great example. I was just trying to point out the good of their relationship. Yeah, they have their ups and downs, periods of seperation but their love has brought them through and through every single time. You and I were friends before we started dating. We have our ups and we have our downs, who doesn't? Love is what makes things last. I have faith that our love will last. Do you still have that faith, Les?

When I'm not with you, I'm always thinking of you. I call every free second I get. I'm gonna have some time off this coming week and we really need to sit down and think things through. I love you and I want to be with you, but I don't want to be the only person fighting for this relationship.

[leslie_carter]

You can say whatever you think, Matt. I don't want you to bite your tongue just because you're afraid of the consequences.

I love you. Just because I'm having a hard time right now doesn't mean I'm running from you or us. I'm here, I'm still with you.

I don't think what's wrong is about us, I think it's just me. I can't feel anything lately.

I'm sorry this is hurting you.

[matt_carroll]

I'm sorry you're hurting. I wish there was something I could do for you, but I know there isn't because you don't even know what's wrong with you. I understand that feeling. I've had those feelings before. I know time is what you need and I'm willing to give it to you.

[kate_bosworth]

I know this post is dedicated to a certain someone but I just wanted to say that it was a beautiful post. You described your emotions and thoughts so well. I just hope everything turns out for the better.

[matt_carroll]

Thank you, Kate!

[keri_lynn_pratt]

Do you know John Carroll?

[leslie_carter]

Ha ha! Are you kidding? Matt's from Canada not Little Italy ;)

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[keri_lynn_pratt]

Okay. [[So maybe you can tell me who John Carroll is?]]

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[leslie_carter]

[Didn't we discussed it on the LJ faker list. I replied there, he seems to be just a guy. A guy with connections to the mob who deals drugs and has a criminal record and happens to have dated some celebs.]