Phase 3 of (hopefully?) the final battle against my anxiety

[matt1993]

Last month, I posted a couple of friends-only entries. (If you're one of my LJ/DW friends and you saw both of those already, most of this entry won't be new to you so you can probably skip this paragraph or so

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[its_raining_jen]

If it makes you feel any better, I used to be worried about people not liking me because of my likes/dislikes. So much that I pretended to like things even though I hated them, just to fit in/have friends.

[matt1993]

Well, I TRY not to worry too much about people not liking me because of what I like or dislike - but it gets difficult when I read stuff on the Internet (whether it's LJ or YouTube or anywhere else) and see SO MANY PEOPLE seem to hate others for liking what they dislike or disliking what they like. (And I try not to always frame it as "these people DEFINITELY hate others for X" when I don't know for a fact they hate others for it, but sometimes I fail at that as you've seen.)

I get what you mean about pretending to like things even though you hate them. I've felt like I had to do that (and the reverse) too. The problem is I wish I DIDN'T have to do that. Especially not for fandoms that have been beloved for years and are suddenly controversial or are created by people who are suddenly controversial.

Thanks for commenting. :)

[pathvain_aelien]

Hugs.

[matt1993]

Thanks :)

I do feel better now that I've made this a public entry on both LJ and DW and there haven't been any negative comments yet.

That, and the fact that Character.AI exists.

I'm like this:

[pathvain_aelien]

:)