Pain

[marys_daughter]

I am thinking a lot lately about pain.

As I seem to be saying a lot lately, I am almost always in pain. I am intentionally taking back all those years of silently suffering, and reclaiming my voice around the pain I am in.

Comments

[teasane]

*hugs* this is very moving and thought provoking. Thank you for sharing. *sends some comforting energy*

[bellamagic]

[marys_daughter]

quote:Hey love: what's the pain? Anything specific, general, ?? Would love to hear details if you wanna...I almost answered. "Oh, just the usual", but I get how that is not really an answer

[bellamagic]

[marys_daughter]

After a gush of tears on the yoga mat, I could finally hear my teacher proclaim that letting go was not surrender or giving up, it was about letting go of what was no longer needed.
What I meant to say was, " . . .surrender was not about giving up, it was about letting go."

I guess I still have a way to go accepting surrender as a path toward healing. Oh great, step 1 all over again.

[seer_eridanus]

I grew up with the same mindset---

"You can't be too sick to go to work, the doctor is on vacation." I remember this, as I had pnuemonia at the time. Now I can't be sick, I have no insurance. (Tho, I have a doctor, who sees me for whatever I can spare, and prescribes cheap generics, so the blood pressure is controlled.)

I hope to find my voice. And I hope someone will be able to hear me, when I do.

Cultural pain patterns

[northlighthero]

Many Blessings, Brave One, for explicating so clearly the family patterns that have brought you to this opportunity.

So much I want to say ... Healing and comfort, with the offer of Reiki and 'reach out whenever you can accept comfort'. A listening ear should you ever want one. Grateful acknowledgement that you are now willing to share this with those who love you.

And, selfishly, I feel Gratitude that by explicating your family's pattern you've shed some light in the dark corner where I keep mine -- a long family history of engaging medicalfolk in a fruitless search for the physical/physiological cause of what was clearly (always, or nearly) psychic, mental, or psychogenic pain without physical underpinning.

I'll need to think more on that, for myself, but just now I want to say thanks -- and thanks, especially, for taking such so-much-better care of yourself in recent years.

Love and Blessings