fears; key/jonghyun
fears; key/jonghyun
crossposted in shinee_replay as koalaspice. idea stemmed from a poweroutage. :)
He’s called “Almighty Key” by both fans and members alike; known for how he can watch choreography a few times and pick it up immediately, or how he’ll effortlessly speak in English to fans at their meeting and tell jokes with them, or how his pancakes and dumplings can rival that in most restaurants, or how he’s basically the leader of SHINee (and is mistaken as such, much to Jinki’s dismay; to which Kibum smartly responds with “Maybe you should stop singing about poultry and tripping over everything, Jinki-hyung.”), or how he’s one of the few members that can give Taemin a run for his worth at videogames, or at how when there was a raccoon sitting on Jonghyun’s bed one summer night he was the only member apart from Minho (but Jinki believes that Minho is secretly an alien sent from the future to infiltrate their boyband status and structure; this is why he always sleeps with one eye open) that didn’t have a freak-out moment, even gently telling their maknae in his soft motherly voice that they can’t keep it. (“No, Taemin, we can’t have a pet raccoon, it probably has a family in the woods that would miss it very much.")
But even the “almighty” have their fears and weaknesses and insecurities; and Kibum’s go without exception. For the starters, he’s deathly afraid of needles and scalpels and refuses to even look at one (and avoids the topic when Jinki or Jonghyun ask him how he managed to get all his earrings if he’s so afraid of needles), and if he sees them on television, he’s screaming and burying his face into pillows or Jonghyun’s chest or Minho’s thin thighs or sometimes even in the crook of Jinki’s neck; a few times it’s been right into Taemin’s arms, whimpering and saying “Tell me when it’s over”.
This fear manifested itself even worse when the Dreaded Onew Condition acted up and Jinki brought home all of the Saw series for them to watch because a fan had recommended them to him on the street corner. Kibum makes it to the part in the second one where the guy has to stick a scalpel in his own eye to get a key before he’s running out of the room screaming; and Jonghyun later finds him under his bed, shaking and covered in a cold sweat and mumbling nonsensical lyrics under his breath. He flinches when he feels Jonghyun wrap arms around him (and wonders how both of them were able to fit under such a small space), but is soothed when he hears him whispering that it’s just a movie, it’s all fake, he didn’t really stick that into his eye, I’ll stay with you if you want me to, I know Jinki-hyung has that stupid Onew Condition complete with poultry fetish going on and would honestly forget to get dressed if you didn’t write down things on post its for him, and I think Minho drew the line after that and pulled Taemin away from it, if you’re freaking out about that.
Kibum doesn’t like admitting it’s what’s wrong with him - after all; he doesn’t know of any other idols with that fear. They all smile and deal with it, and they don’t freak out when even the mere images of needles and scalpels appear on screen. He cries and cries and Jonghyun is holding him, whispering soft nonsense words into his ears and soothing his worries away from the moment. The series is permanently banned from the house when Kibum bursts into Taemin and Minho’s room sometime during the night to wake up the maknae and protectively shield him from the crazy man with the scalpels that was more than likely under his bed; Minho shakes him and tells him that he must be sleepwalking and could he please put some pants on because seeing him in one of Jonghyun’s button-up shirts was getting a little too uncomfortable.
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Surprisingly Kibum is also afraid of the dark; though this isn’t as bad as the scalpel fiasco. Jonghyun asks him about it one day while he’s making wontons for all of them out of curiosity, and Kibum almost drops the cutting board of chicken (much to Jinki’s dismay and loud protesting) onto the floor when the question catches him as he’s about to move it over. “W-what makes you ask that, hyung?”
“Bummie, it’s dark when you close your eyes…so does that make you afraid to sleep?”
“Err…no. I just don’t like the dark…I never really did, much.” Kibum shrugs and goes back to
folding wontons; and only Taemin notices his hands are trembling slightly.
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Taemin asks him about it later when all five of them are laying on the living room floor amidst blankets, pillows, sleeping bags, flashlights and gigantic bowls of popcorn with a Scrabble board between them; Kibum refuses to answer and instead spells out some words so he can tally up his score and beat Jonghyun for once at “this insanely stupid game”. Finally he speaks -
“When I was little, there was a power outage in my house. First I didn’t think anything of it, and so found some blankets and flashlights and waited for my parents to come back, since they were out at the time. Well, they’d taken a business trip for something and had forgotten to pay the bill, and so I was by myself for about two weeks without power. And because there wasn’t power, they couldn’t call me to let me know their plans and whatnot.”
The four listen to Kibum’s story; Taemin’s eyes are watering and Minho’s expression is softening into something of pity. Jinki and Jonghyun exchange glances, the blond speaking up -
“Bummie, though; what did you eat?”
“Dried noodles, there were some cold dumplings in the fridge that I ate almost immediately, crackers; things like that…but it got so cold after the second night. I think that was the worst part, honestly; was just how cold it got.”
And Jonghyun understands why Kibum insists on sleeping with someone every night - because he wants the warmth, he doesn’t want to be cold again. To say the truth, it makes him feel a little hurt; he wonders if that’s really all Kibum wants from him or if it’s because somewhere in that tiara-crowned heart of his he actually means something. He’s cut short when Kibum leans over the board and presses a soft kiss to his lips, tracing them with his tongue and making Jonghyun moan softly as the male is suddenly crawling into his lap, rocking their hips together lightly and murmuring “Jjong” in a soft voice. And soon Jonghyun’s dragging him off and upstairs, leaving a very baffled (partially traumatized) Jinki (“HOW LONG HAS THIS BEEN GOING ON?” “Almost two months, hyung,” Minho pipes up. “AND WHY DIDN’T I KNOW?!?!?!” “Beats me, hyung!” comes Taemin’s happy voice), a cutely flustered Taemin and a smirking Minho to clean up the mess of scattered tiles.
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Kibum’s curled up on his chest afterwards, panting as Jonghyun brushes sweat-soaked bangs off his forehead and pressing a soft kiss to the back of ear. “But with you around, Jjong,” Kibum mumbles, wrapping arms around his waist to nuzzle the crook of his neck happily, “I feel like I am the Almighty Key; not afraid of anything.”
Jonghyun just snorts and holds him tightly, mumbling something that sounds like “Quit babbling and go to sleep, you weird little diva” before drifting off himself. Kibum smiles, pressing a soft kiss to his throat, nipping it before drifting off into a warm cocoon, not even noticing when the desk lamp flickered because of the wind, and definitely not noticing when it finally went out.
crossposted in shinee_replay as koalaspice. idea stemmed from a poweroutage. :)
He’s called “Almighty Key” by both fans and members alike; known for how he can watch choreography a few times and pick it up immediately, or how he’ll effortlessly speak in English to fans at their meeting and tell jokes with them, or how his pancakes and dumplings can rival that in most restaurants, or how he’s basically the leader of SHINee (and is mistaken as such, much to Jinki’s dismay; to which Kibum smartly responds with “Maybe you should stop singing about poultry and tripping over everything, Jinki-hyung.”), or how he’s one of the few members that can give Taemin a run for his worth at videogames, or at how when there was a raccoon sitting on Jonghyun’s bed one summer night he was the only member apart from Minho (but Jinki believes that Minho is secretly an alien sent from the future to infiltrate their boyband status and structure; this is why he always sleeps with one eye open) that didn’t have a freak-out moment, even gently telling their maknae in his soft motherly voice that they can’t keep it. (“No, Taemin, we can’t have a pet raccoon, it probably has a family in the woods that would miss it very much.")
But even the “almighty” have their fears and weaknesses and insecurities; and Kibum’s go without exception. For the starters, he’s deathly afraid of needles and scalpels and refuses to even look at one (and avoids the topic when Jinki or Jonghyun ask him how he managed to get all his earrings if he’s so afraid of needles), and if he sees them on television, he’s screaming and burying his face into pillows or Jonghyun’s chest or Minho’s thin thighs or sometimes even in the crook of Jinki’s neck; a few times it’s been right into Taemin’s arms, whimpering and saying “Tell me when it’s over”.
This fear manifested itself even worse when the Dreaded Onew Condition acted up and Jinki brought home all of the Saw series for them to watch because a fan had recommended them to him on the street corner. Kibum makes it to the part in the second one where the guy has to stick a scalpel in his own eye to get a key before he’s running out of the room screaming; and Jonghyun later finds him under his bed, shaking and covered in a cold sweat and mumbling nonsensical lyrics under his breath. He flinches when he feels Jonghyun wrap arms around him (and wonders how both of them were able to fit under such a small space), but is soothed when he hears him whispering that it’s just a movie, it’s all fake, he didn’t really stick that into his eye, I’ll stay with you if you want me to, I know Jinki-hyung has that stupid Onew Condition complete with poultry fetish going on and would honestly forget to get dressed if you didn’t write down things on post its for him, and I think Minho drew the line after that and pulled Taemin away from it, if you’re freaking out about that.
Kibum doesn’t like admitting it’s what’s wrong with him - after all; he doesn’t know of any other idols with that fear. They all smile and deal with it, and they don’t freak out when even the mere images of needles and scalpels appear on screen. He cries and cries and Jonghyun is holding him, whispering soft nonsense words into his ears and soothing his worries away from the moment. The series is permanently banned from the house when Kibum bursts into Taemin and Minho’s room sometime during the night to wake up the maknae and protectively shield him from the crazy man with the scalpels that was more than likely under his bed; Minho shakes him and tells him that he must be sleepwalking and could he please put some pants on because seeing him in one of Jonghyun’s button-up shirts was getting a little too uncomfortable.
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Surprisingly Kibum is also afraid of the dark; though this isn’t as bad as the scalpel fiasco. Jonghyun asks him about it one day while he’s making wontons for all of them out of curiosity, and Kibum almost drops the cutting board of chicken (much to Jinki’s dismay and loud protesting) onto the floor when the question catches him as he’s about to move it over. “W-what makes you ask that, hyung?”
“Bummie, it’s dark when you close your eyes…so does that make you afraid to sleep?”
“Err…no. I just don’t like the dark…I never really did, much.” Kibum shrugs and goes back to
folding wontons; and only Taemin notices his hands are trembling slightly.
----
Taemin asks him about it later when all five of them are laying on the living room floor amidst blankets, pillows, sleeping bags, flashlights and gigantic bowls of popcorn with a Scrabble board between them; Kibum refuses to answer and instead spells out some words so he can tally up his score and beat Jonghyun for once at “this insanely stupid game”. Finally he speaks -
“When I was little, there was a power outage in my house. First I didn’t think anything of it, and so found some blankets and flashlights and waited for my parents to come back, since they were out at the time. Well, they’d taken a business trip for something and had forgotten to pay the bill, and so I was by myself for about two weeks without power. And because there wasn’t power, they couldn’t call me to let me know their plans and whatnot.”
The four listen to Kibum’s story; Taemin’s eyes are watering and Minho’s expression is softening into something of pity. Jinki and Jonghyun exchange glances, the blond speaking up -
“Bummie, though; what did you eat?”
“Dried noodles, there were some cold dumplings in the fridge that I ate almost immediately, crackers; things like that…but it got so cold after the second night. I think that was the worst part, honestly; was just how cold it got.”
And Jonghyun understands why Kibum insists on sleeping with someone every night - because he wants the warmth, he doesn’t want to be cold again. To say the truth, it makes him feel a little hurt; he wonders if that’s really all Kibum wants from him or if it’s because somewhere in that tiara-crowned heart of his he actually means something. He’s cut short when Kibum leans over the board and presses a soft kiss to his lips, tracing them with his tongue and making Jonghyun moan softly as the male is suddenly crawling into his lap, rocking their hips together lightly and murmuring “Jjong” in a soft voice. And soon Jonghyun’s dragging him off and upstairs, leaving a very baffled (partially traumatized) Jinki (“HOW LONG HAS THIS BEEN GOING ON?” “Almost two months, hyung,” Minho pipes up. “AND WHY DIDN’T I KNOW?!?!?!” “Beats me, hyung!” comes Taemin’s happy voice), a cutely flustered Taemin and a smirking Minho to clean up the mess of scattered tiles.
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Kibum’s curled up on his chest afterwards, panting as Jonghyun brushes sweat-soaked bangs off his forehead and pressing a soft kiss to the back of ear. “But with you around, Jjong,” Kibum mumbles, wrapping arms around his waist to nuzzle the crook of his neck happily, “I feel like I am the Almighty Key; not afraid of anything.”
Jonghyun just snorts and holds him tightly, mumbling something that sounds like “Quit babbling and go to sleep, you weird little diva” before drifting off himself. Kibum smiles, pressing a soft kiss to his throat, nipping it before drifting off into a warm cocoon, not even noticing when the desk lamp flickered because of the wind, and definitely not noticing when it finally went out.