Various things have been running through my head lately, and since I promised to post at least once a week, I figured I'd infl... er, share some of them with you guys
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...I hear you pretty much spend the rest of your life getting over whatever happened to you in your childhood; after all, anything that affected you while you were constructing your identity is likely to have a lot more ramifications than something that happened afterwards.
(Also -- holy crap, I'd thought you were a lot older than I am. Now I'm really impressed by the quality of your older writing.)
But... I've spent time thinking to myself "I really should be over this by now," and it's never particularly helpful: all it seems to do, at least for me, is waste mental resources being defensive or depressed at times when I really could use all the available ones for whatever-the-situation-is. (What I really wish is that I could convince my mother of this; granted, the worst miscommunications are when she's stressed herself, but still.)
i'm 50. i'm not.
anonymous
March 15 2009, 19:43:08 UTC
i was never diagnosed with Aspergers (tho' i wouldn't be surprised; i wasn't diagnosed with childhood depression either, because the diagnosis didn't exist back then, but that self-diagnosis i'm fairly sure about [after long consideration i've finally decided that thinking, "oh, wouldn't it be *nice* to be dead!" every day -- for ten years -- was not after all just a difficult adolescence]). the rest sounds like me tho'.
you've found a life that suits you and (i'm assuming!) makes you happy. it doesn't have to be like anyone else's. (mine isn't.) as long as you don't do any harm to skinny good-looking girls (or boys) your (our) opinions are free.
most of my life has run on tracks i laid down in middle- or high-school. since my life has gone rather better than i expected (but then, i was depressed back then) i guess teenage-me was smarter than i thought.
wishing you contentment, and a placid digestion, aw (aka DarkBeta (on FF.net)
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(Also -- holy crap, I'd thought you were a lot older than I am. Now I'm really impressed by the quality of your older writing.)
But... I've spent time thinking to myself "I really should be over this by now," and it's never particularly helpful: all it seems to do, at least for me, is waste mental resources being defensive or depressed at times when I really could use all the available ones for whatever-the-situation-is. (What I really wish is that I could convince my mother of this; granted, the worst miscommunications are when she's stressed herself, but still.)
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you've found a life that suits you and (i'm assuming!) makes you happy. it doesn't have to be like anyone else's. (mine isn't.) as long as you don't do any harm to skinny good-looking girls (or boys) your (our) opinions are free.
most of my life has run on tracks i laid down in middle- or high-school. since my life has gone rather better than i expected (but then, i was depressed back then) i guess teenage-me was smarter than i thought.
wishing you contentment, and a placid digestion,
aw (aka DarkBeta (on FF.net)
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