New experiences, new life paths:

[marius_9]

Well, Amber has gone to minniapolis.  I would tell you how this makes me feel, but we have been down this road before, you know how it makes me feel, and I don't care to rehash any statement aside from saying that it's aweful.

I called her today and she was telling me how happy she was out there, and how great it was to be back.  Where I am happy

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[pretentus_alias]

"And I just now, learned that I have never once, let myself admit to any of this." - I'm glad you mentioned that one, it's one of the big ones.

Surely you had some kind of role model though...all the people I looked up to were people I had never met. And some of them didn't even exist.

[marius_9]

You are absolutely right. I looked up to fictional characters. That's really insightful. I totally didn't realize. All my heros were people in movies and TV that I wanted to be, but knew I never could. So I took some traits from them and moved on.

Huh, that's awesome.

[jcheryl]

"...Okay, it's a mummy."

I laughed for like 10 minutes. seriously. Which is good because my grandma died this morning. so thanks for making me laugh.

[pretentus_alias]

Sorry hon...I hope you feel better soon.

[jcheryl]

thank you.

[marius_9]

I am sorry to hear that. Hey, when are we going to get together for lunch/"my best friend has left me for another state" party?

[dark_autumn6677]

matt at this moment i have just realized
that growing up we share a lot of the same bullshit
i never knew a lot of these things about you
i to never had a male role modle, ect.

just remember learning to be a man is a life long lesson
that never stops teaching nor testing

and also remember no man is truely mesured by other eyes alone
but by what he does in his life, and the greater reward
later in life will soon enough come forth
just remember to get there sometimes we must walk through hell

[marius_9]

Believe you me, I know.