Comments | marishna: So here's the thing

marishna

So here's the thing

Jul 05, 2017 01:11

Wrote this earlier today when I was feeling shitty, intending to post it when I got home but I went to the gym after work and actually felt pretty good. But now that it's time to go to bed my brain is doing me dirty and I know this has to be posted. No more avoiding dealing with shit, yo ( Read more... )

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same... devyn_pierce01 July 5 2017, 14:11:05 UTC

I was just recently diagnosed with bi polar and there is a LONG list of problems I have emotionally so let's just say... I get it. I'm taking medication too by the way, even though my parents think I'm "too" young to and what I came to realize, after speaking to my uncle, is that medication isn't supposed to be a long term thing. It's a crutch for you, something to balance out the chemicals while you figure out the rest. Things like exercising helps a lot, so I'm proud you are able to have an outlet. Take your time to get through your "to do list" because sometimes you really need a break in order to get things done.

RE: same... marishna July 5 2017, 15:40:34 UTC

It's likely I'll be on anti-depressants for the rest of my life. The anxiety is usually manageable and I only take them as needed but the anti-depressants are essential to my day-to-day.

I really hope you don't hold the idea that meds are just a "crutch" in the case of mental illness. Yes, sometimes people need them in the short term to help them through difficult times. My mom needed an anti-depressant after her mother passed, lthen was able to stabilize herself and get off them. But there are other cases, just like with diabetes or heart disease or any other long-term illnesses, that meds are forever. I'm just happy I have access to them so I can function even halfway normally on a daily basis.

RE: same... devyn_pierce01 July 5 2017, 19:46:42 UTC

This is true and it's very likely I will have them for the rest of my life, however, I do believe that it isn't the only thing that's going to help me and there is more I can do to make me happier. You don't feel the same?

RE: same... marishna July 6 2017, 06:43:16 UTC

Not at all, there are always other, additional options.

after speaking to my uncle, is that medication isn't supposed to be a long term thing. It's a crutch for you, something to balance out the chemicals while you figure out the rest

Based on this part of your comment I was just hoping you haven't taken someone else's opinion on something that's very personal since it does have so much to do with your own brain chemistry. Just because someone else doesn't think meds should be long-term doesn't mean it's right for you and I'd hate to see you think there's something even more wrong with you if you are on them long-term or forever. (Not that being depressed means there's something "wrong" with you, I just realized how that sentence sounded after I posted it, my bad!)

Statements like these can stigmatize people who are afraid to seek help, unfortunately.

kensmind July 5 2017, 14:50:59 UTC

You are wise to post this and confront these feelings. If you're like me, I find that just getting this stuff our on paper (even if it's cyber-paper) loosens the grip it has on me and dilutes the power it has over me. There is a line in the Desiderata that goes "many fears are born or imaginings". But many aren't too. Putting this stuff down helps me to decide which are which, and I hope it helps you in the same way ( ... )

brunettepet July 5 2017, 16:29:20 UTC

It's good that writing this out has helped.

1_rhiannon_1 July 5 2017, 17:12:55 UTC

One of the girls I work with refers to it as her world as shades of gray with no color when she was on her old anti-depressant. She got it switched and she says now that it's like having a splash of color here and there.
I'm really glad that getting all this written out helped you feel a bit better!

ragnarok_08 July 6 2017, 03:38:30 UTC

That's good that getting all this written out helped you feel better - that's helped me a lot too.