There's a part of me that'll always feel like it belongs to this place. All these memories, things that I tried to run away from but never really could. Landing here feels like coming home, but that doesn't mean it's a joyous occasion. I don't feel warm in my heart or any of that shit. Mostly, the place makes me feel tired. Old. Any worse, it makes me feel sad, because of all the things wasted here.
I really fuckin' wish Mom would just leave the place, go anywhere but that sad fucking house with all those bad memories.
"Yeah, I guess," I say, mouth twisting into a lopsided smile.
"You okay?" he asks, pausing as he pushes out of the pilot's seat, because Neil's smiling, sure, but there's something less simple behind it. He should know, probably, and if he had to guess what it's about he thinks he could make a good one, but part of him needs to ask anyway.
And in any case, they're just here to pick up a job. Load the cargo and go, head out for the markets on Oublie where he's been promised a good price for the ore. There doesn't have to be any lingering.
He nods. He only half gets it, but he gets enough of it. "We don't have to stay," he says, reaching down and catching Neil's wrist, half gently tugging and half just wanting to reassure. "Fuck, we don't have to do anything. Except be by the depot at the edge of town when they said, 'cause I don't got enough cred to fuel Florence up, otherwise."
He's got savings. Some. But he doesn't want to touch that. Maybe they've put off the fantasy of that perfect place together, and maybe he still has no idea what's going on with Hobbes, but he wants to keep the options open.
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I really fuckin' wish Mom would just leave the place, go anywhere but that sad fucking house with all those bad memories.
"Yeah, I guess," I say, mouth twisting into a lopsided smile.
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And in any case, they're just here to pick up a job. Load the cargo and go, head out for the markets on Oublie where he's been promised a good price for the ore. There doesn't have to be any lingering.
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"It doesn't feel the same anymore, goin' back to that house."
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He's got savings. Some. But he doesn't want to touch that. Maybe they've put off the fantasy of that perfect place together, and maybe he still has no idea what's going on with Hobbes, but he wants to keep the options open.
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