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[man_bites_dog]

Over the last few days I've noticed a rather large urge to go out and do something eventful, something huge and something utterly personal. The only problem is the type of activity I want to do is one that is ultimately an enormous breaking down of myself to see what exactly my deal is. I like to think I know about myself but there's some conflict

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YMMV..

[squidb0i]

I recommend a low dose of LSD in a safe friendly environment, with plenty of water and food.
Knocked plenty of personal shizzle loose with the ole psychedelic hammer in years past.

Re: YMMV..

[man_bites_dog]

Oddly enough some of this influence came about after watching a documentary on Hunter S. Thompson. The only problem with the drugs thing is that I hallucinate off of lightweight stuff, like alcohol and pot. There's a deep fear that if I did anything harder my mind might not reset quite right.

Re: YMMV..

[man_bites_dog]

AAAAnd lastly as of 20 minutes ago my job implemented a drug/aclohol testing policy so color me too scared to chance anything.

[wednes]

So like, are you doing one of those spiritual quests where you starve yourself until you hallucinate? I bet those are cool.

In all seriousness, I applaud your attempt at self-realization.

[man_bites_dog]

It's a spirit quest. Except my quest will involve ghost/Sasquatch hunting.

[wednes]

Nice. My Uncle Vic used to hang out in the woods looking for Sasquatch. He says he's a better man for the experience.

[riversgirl_pg]

i second the use of psychedelics as effective in such a predicament..though i've done plenty of those and am presently in therapy because of a simila predicament. i feel like everyone has some self-timer that every several years alerts us to acknowledge/reinforce certain aspects of ourselves to ourselves, if that makes sense. discovery is never bad, especially the self kind. people are so complex and hard to understand, and you seem like the even more intricate type.
so much puberty, so little time!