*Sigh*

[malone73]

These past few weeks have not been going great.  I've been suffering from depression, not really sure when it started, I think it was after one of my best friends went back to her hometown.  I just don't find anything enjoyable.  Even our vacation in a few weeks isn't making me as excited as it should.  I just feel so worthless when I see all of

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[katje0711]

If you're still 22, as your profile says, you have a lot of time to accomplish many things. Don't be so hard on yourself.

It's certainly understandable you'd still be mourning the death of your grandmother. And even your dog. I still mourn the death of our kitty from time to time.

Hope you start to feel better soon. {{{{HUGS}}}}

By the way, where are you going on vacation?

[malone73]

Yeah I'm still 22. I've just always been very critical of myself.

I had a dream about Grandma on Monday night so I was probably subconsciously thinking about her all day and when that song came on I just lost it.

Thanks, we're going to Orlando, Flordia. My mom's a nurse practitioner and they're having a conference the week of the 17th.

[mamahub]

Oh honey! Sending tons of hugs! Chin up. Life is no fun sometimes and sometimes it feels like it's all we can do to keep our heads above water. But just remember that there are tons of people, including your family and friends, who are rooting for you. Including your Grandma who you know is watching out for you!

[malone73]

Aw, thanks so much for your kind words. I think she was trying to send me a sign that she is watching out for me. I had a dream about her Monday night and while I was walking my dog I saw a white butterfly that followed us for a little bit. We saw one in our garden as my sisters were getting ready to leave after her funeral and my sister said she read somewhere that white butterflies are supposed to symbolize loved ones who have passed on.

[mamahub]

Well I think she was definitely sending you a sign of her love and not to grieve for her. She is in a better place and would not want you to be so sad because of her. She and your puppy are waiting for you with joy!!

[malone73]

My dog better be waiting for me. If animals don't make into heaven than me and God are going to have a problem. I personally believe animals do go to heaven but I know some people that don't.

[ringsandcoffee]

Hope things get better soon. Also, you are accomplishing something wherever you are, it's just different from what others are doing.

[malone73]

I've never thought about it that way. Thanks for that.

[hotch_fan]

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling like that. Sometimes everything builds up inside, making us so overwhelmed we just need to let things out, and even if it's not that simple I hope it had helped you feel better :/

And there's nothing to be sorry for! Everyone needs to just let out things from time to time. Besides, this is your space and you can do whatever you want in it, just remember we are not here just to talk of good thing and fangirling about things we like, but to hear you out if you need :D

[malone73]

Thanks so much for your kind words. It kind of helped but last night things got pretty bad. I don't want to go into full details but I'm just trying to keep my head up today and hoping that it will be better.

ETA: Can I send you a PM about what happened last night? It's pretty personal and I don't know if I feel like sharing it here but I'd like to talk to someone about it. I'm sorry if this seems too forward or weird.

[hotch_fan]

:/

Of course you can! I'm honored you consider me to share something so personal. Feel free to PM me any anytime you want and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.