When I was a kid, I loved Christmas. All kids do. Around the time I turned 16, things changed. My mom was out of work and had filed bankruptcy so the days of lots of gifts ended. Being that I was always spoiled rotten, that was quite a shock to my system. When I was 18, my grandfather died 3 days before Christmas. He used to always say that he was going to die before Christmas. He always taunted us with that threat and he finally up and did it. For me, that was the end of Christmas for quite a while
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Thanks for taking the time to comment, Ed. I guess it helps to know I'm not the only one who feels torn and kind of dismantled around this time of year. I know this has been a shitty fucking year for you too.
The thing is, I love getting people gifts. I love getting people something they like and surprising them, but I just don't have much money so I've been stockpiling things all year long whenever there was a sale or I'd find something cool that I thought someone would like. I've been putting your present together since September (I think, I'm old and forget things these days). I hope you like it. Gift giving is one of the few tings I actually look forward to this time of year. The rest is just a struggle. It also doesn't help that so many people decided to be straight up fuckheads this year all at roughly the same time. Ugh. I pretty much hate everyone right now.
Yeah, you're definitely not alone on this one. If you're anything like me, working retail this time of year can't possibly help matters any. I struggle through every day trying not to snap.
I love getting gifts for people too. That's why I've decided to skip that car payment and use the extra money to get stuff for Chris and Aidan. I can't NOT do it, you know.
Personally, I think it's cool that you can skip a car payment around the holidays and use the money to buy gifts instead. Those people who were telling you not to skip a payment because it will cost you more in the long run are missing the big picture...skipping the payment will allow you to buy some cool gifts and that's more important than winding up having to pay more in the long run. At least to me it's more important, but I'm wrong all the time about everything, or so I'm told.
Working retail sucks this time of year, you're right. People are buying gifts and planning big meals with loved ones all around me, and on top of all the bullying and drama I'm having at work, I'm feeling really lonely and sad and discombobulated because everything I see reminds me of the holidays. At least I have you to talk to. It helps keep me sane (or as close as I'm ever going to get) to have someone tell me I'm not crazy about all this.
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The thing is, I love getting people gifts. I love getting people something they like and surprising them, but I just don't have much money so I've been stockpiling things all year long whenever there was a sale or I'd find something cool that I thought someone would like. I've been putting your present together since September (I think, I'm old and forget things these days). I hope you like it. Gift giving is one of the few tings I actually look forward to this time of year. The rest is just a struggle. It also doesn't help that so many people decided to be straight up fuckheads this year all at roughly the same time. Ugh. I pretty much hate everyone right now.
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I love getting gifts for people too. That's why I've decided to skip that car payment and use the extra money to get stuff for Chris and Aidan. I can't NOT do it, you know.
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Working retail sucks this time of year, you're right. People are buying gifts and planning big meals with loved ones all around me, and on top of all the bullying and drama I'm having at work, I'm feeling really lonely and sad and discombobulated because everything I see reminds me of the holidays. At least I have you to talk to. It helps keep me sane (or as close as I'm ever going to get) to have someone tell me I'm not crazy about all this.
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