poem

[malakijr]

I've been trying to write this poem for a few weeks. It's for one friend in particular, but it's for all my friends and for everyone I never told every word I never said that I should have said when I had the chance. It's not much, but all I can say is that I'll try to do better if there ever is a next time.

It's ComplicatedWhere is your boy

Comments

[nabba]

That's really good! Bravo!! *clap clap*

[malakijr]

Danke. It had better be good. I've been trying to write the damn thing for weeks. :-p

[odinkar]

If LJ had a "Like" feature, I would use it here. Nicely done! :)

[malakijr]

Thanks Matt!

[peskipiksi]

I <3 this poem.

[malakijr]

I'm glad.

I'm starting to love it, too. I kept going over it and changing something every time until I realized I needed to post it or I'd keep picking at it and picking at it for eternity.

[peskipiksi]

Also, as far as my case is concerned, you and an army could have told me what you were seeing and for YEARS I would not have believed you. I had to be ready to hear it, too. :P

[malakijr]

It's true. I stopped talking to all my friends the last three months John and I were "together" because I knew what everyone would say and I didn't want to hear it from anyone but him. :-p

In this poem, I think I'm more upset that I wallow around thinking "I'm a horrible person, I'm worthless, I'm sooo alloooonnneee" and think I'm the only one who ever feels this way and I'm the only one who ever needs reassurance and none of my friends ever need to hear good things about themselves, either, because everyone's so much stronger than I am. I could stand to say "hey, you're awesome" or "hey, that other person is wrong, you're not an idiot/evil/going to hell" more than I do, and it's something I have to keep re-learning even when there have been disastrous consequences for NOT saying these things in the past. I know it's not just my fault, and I could probably have said these things and people probably would have still lost hope because they didn't believe me, but that doesn't excuse me NOT saying the things I could have said, you

[quirkytizzy]

omg this is AMAZING. The cadence rolls EXACTLY right! You remember how I once said I wished I could write like the strong minorities? Their voices seemed to powerful through the words.

THIS IS THAT. THIS IS THAT *EXACTLY*.

Can I repost this???

[malakijr]

Yeah, sure, repost it!

To tell you the truth I was terrified to post this. I thought I'd get an angry comment asking me to please not write about my friends in my journal, or a few comments telling me it sucked. I'm overwhelmed that people actually like this. I wanted it to come out right and say what I wanted it to say.

*HUG*

[vacheestfachee]

I love you, too.

Also, thought you might find this video amusing. :)