I think that the fact that you can see "the monster inside" is proof of your humanity and growth. If a person can recognize and admit there's a problem - be it in their life or in socitey - there's hope.
I had to hunt around to find the song anywhere, and this was the best one I could find; the video is kind of weird and there are a bunch of dumbass comments. Um, just ignore those
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That reminds me of something my mom used to say. If you question whether you're sane or not, that means that you are, because the crazy ones are those who are deadpan convinced that they are absolutely sane.
...and to think people make fun of my love of his writings. Nietzsche was a crazy son of a bitch, yes, but sometimes he just *got* it--as scarey as that can sometimes be.
Then again, I've always believed that's what philosophy (especially the Nihilistic and Existentialist schools of thought) is for; not asking the abtract questions like "what's the meaning of life" but rather the questions no one wants to think of, like "what if there *IS* no meaning?"
Of course, Nietzsche's thoughts on interpretation where later echoed by Winston Churchill, when he said, History is written by the victors. It's a known quote, and a very true one.
I don't make fun of people who read him (ok, well I do sometimes, but only because I'm trying to piss them off, not because I really think what he wrote has no value). I like his way with words and the way he proposed ideas. I've heard the Winston Churchill quote before, and I've heard a million times that "history is whoever's writing it" and the like, but it's not until I read the Nietzsche quote that I thought about the idea in terms of letting whatever is most strongly influencing you at the moment shape how you see things. It's all in the interpretation, and just because one interpretation has the most power and the most believers doesn't mean it's the truth. Also, just because an interpretation happens to be the most popular right now doesn't mean it will always be this way; a power shift could make people see things differently (think of how far we've come in even coming close to having gay marriage legalized, to pick the only example my addled brain can think of right now). I always rail against how stupid people are to
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I had a pretty bad day yesterday. I broke stuff. All the pain that I've been absorbing over the past few months finally reached a breaking point and it came out as rage. Just a fan and a keyboard that didn't work, but for a time, it felt nice to just fucking destroy something with my own bare hands
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I have to disagree with you on something. I always used to relapse and think, "well, I'm right back at the beginning again" but I realized awhile ago that's not true. To pretend I'm right back at square one is to pretend all the learning, growing, and experiencing of the past ten years never happened. If I were back at the beginning, I wouldn't be able to admit I have a problem, because back then I didn't think I had a problem. I wouldn't be able to admit I was abused as a child and teen, because back then I didn't think hat happened to me WAS abuse. I wouldn't be able to admit that I'm gay because back then I didn't think I was gay. I wasn't even brave enough to go to a GLBT meeting at college. I was a mess who was trying so hard to "live a righteous life" that I couldn't admit that I WAS a mess, or rather, I couldn't see the real reasons why, I was too busy chasing demons in the most asinine places (hey, this secular music is making me a sinner! Burn it!) So I one hundred percent disagree with you that you're no better off
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I know. Bad choice of words. Ten years ago, I did't just knew I had a problem. I didn't know what it was or what to do about it. At least this time I do. After a relapse like that, there is a bit of an adjustment period, where I have to figure out what all went wrong and what to do about it, and at that time, I felt like the days without incident got reduced to zero, not that I was necessarily starting over from Day Zero, even if that's the way I phrased it.
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Seriously - what jackiesjunkie said, and I hope you make it through work tonight without anyone dying in a fire. :P
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Don't remind me about work. I'm busy reading Shakesville and pretending work doesn't exist. *grabs matches*
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Then again, I've always believed that's what philosophy (especially the Nihilistic and Existentialist schools of thought) is for; not asking the abtract questions like "what's the meaning of life" but rather the questions no one wants to think of, like "what if there *IS* no meaning?"
Of course, Nietzsche's thoughts on interpretation where later echoed by Winston Churchill, when he said, History is written by the victors. It's a known quote, and a very true one.
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Dealing with the pain of life fucking sucks. But I'm glad Nietzsche is helping you find some hope. (Even if he did get syphilis.)
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