fuck everything sucks i can't trust any one that i used to anymore >_< grrrr
i don't feel like dealing with any thing
im so stressed
i want to cut...

yeah. i watched that movie thirteen.. it rocked my fucking world. i'm so depressed right now thinking about everything that went on in the past year. its pushing me to the edge..

lacrosse started this week. i've got more bruises then i did all winter league. i'm really loving lax as of right now probably because i'm not a freshman anymore, but me and roop are all like grr. we don't have a team this year. we have like 15 girls and 5 of them are freshmen. but hey if they can't score then they can't win.

i'm really just hating everything right now. i can't take this. its too much. lacrosse season hasn't even started yet and i'm already under so much pressure as it is. i dunno if i can handle it. i really just don't feel like dealing with life anymore and i'm trying really hard to make all my friends problems go away that i haven't been dealing with ( Read more... )

i just got off the phone with menolly :-) that made me smile.
stay strong <3

i suppose i was fairly good at keeping promises.
so to you this promise i keep.
my promise of suicide.
tell me you love me before its too late.
because tomorrow morning i will not wake.
don't try and help. you can't
~alley

a guy that would teach you how to play your favorite Nirvana song on the guitar, sit with you and just hold your hand after you we're crying for 20 minutes, make car noises with you at the mental hospital, be manic with you when everyone else is depressed, say gangsta 100 times with you in one day, and just give you a huge hug after the worst panic ( Read more... )

new hair... chick dun gone went brunette


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fall out boy concert is in 45 days! who's going?

i give up.