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[major_west]

I've considered writing something more eloquent; however, I don't really see the point right now, so I'll simply lay it out: I don't understand how things work here. I don't understand how we are expected to undergo these floods, these ports, and now-- most recently-- this "invasion," and gain anything positive from what is, essentially, torture

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[young_idealist]

I don't know you personally, monsieur, but I assure you everyone can redeem their misdeeds and gain a better life for themselves. Even you, no matter what you've done.

[major_west]

I think I've already been punished for whichever misdeeds are in my file. More than enough.

[young_idealist]

You mistake me if you think I speak of punishment. I speak of redemption and making amends. Have you done that?

[major_west]

Punishment and amends seem to be intricately tied together here. Any changes I've made have only been in reaction to manipulation, nothing genuine.

Let's pretend Charlie heard the screaming

[i_hate_posses]

That was you?

OK

[major_west]

What was?

Probably.

[i_hate_posses]

Ain't like you to write like that. Can't you just drink somethin' to feel better?

[major_west]

I would, but Morgan's banned me from drinking.

[Private]
Unless you have some.

[buywithme]

I agree. Everything this place does is designed to ruin us.

[major_west]

It's true. Of course, the Wardens wouldn't agree.

[buywithme]

Sometimes I think Sam does. Then he makes up some reasons why he's wrong and this place is good for us after all, and when he's convinced himself of that again he forgets about it.

[major_west]

Morgan's the opposite, I suppose. She really believes in this.

Private (after reading all the public comments to this entry...)

[thatlibbychick]

Not all wardens delight in messing around with their inmates, West. And not all of us put blind faith in this place.

Some wardens are almost like...pseudo-inmates, who didn't do anything horrible enough to be actual inmates; we're they're here to redeem ourselves themselves voluntarily. We They know what it's like to feel guilt over what we're they've done. I'm not sure how many others there are, but trust me...we're they're around.

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[major_west]

It isn't just the Wardens, really. It's the entire... system here.

...I suppose. They must be as trapped as the rest of us.

I'm sorry I was a bit of a prick, by the way. During all of the... Admiral mess.

Private

[thatlibbychick]

Don't worry about it. You were a prick, I was and still sort of am mentally unhinged...none of us were exactly at our best. There's no need to apologize for that.

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[major_west]

Still, I'm sorry for what happened to you. You're one of the better people here; you didn't deserve it.

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[gimmethemap]

I really don't know what to say, Major.

I just

You know I want to help, and that I'll do what I can.

...If you want a nightcap, Major. To help with the dreams, I mean. I won't hold it against you, but I can't have you drinking yourself sick.

But it's only going to mask the problem, isn't it? Is there anything else? There are doctors, I know. People here. Head doctors -- ones that don't look like Jim.

[Private]

[major_west]

I don't need a therapist.

[Private]

[gimmethemap]

You need something other than liquor.