The weight of my design

[majes]

This weekend, I went to the spiritual workgroup that catya runs periodically. Of particular note, we took a shamanic journey during this time, which was a first for me - as least so far as going into this kind of thing intentionally.

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[majes]

The funny thing is that I feel like I did a poor job capturing the scope of this. Even as I re-read my post, I go "Oh - that is mostly it... but not quite". Some of this stuff is hard to express.

[catya]

"Some of this stuff is hard to express."
[/vast_understatement]

[catya]

i'm glad to read this - I got the edges of it, but [insert talk on the ethics of monitoring here]. And so glad to hear you're feeling steady about it now!

(and if there are folks here who are interested who don't know about the classes/groups i run/organize, check in.)

[majes]

As noted, you're very graceful and non-intrusive in your aid. I didn't feel like you distracted from my experience at all, and I appreciated you checking in afterwards as well (even though I was feeling a lot like I didn't want attention at that point in time). Thank you!

[dancingwolfgrrl]

That's a lot for one day!

For what it's worth, I also discovered that crazy, super-huge ecstatic perception of myself and universe and whatever else it is fairly early on, along with the crash when I returned to ordinary awareness. These days -- after a lot of experience and some helpful training -- it feels less far away to me, and more like it's always hovering behind my experience, and while your mileage may vary, I find that lovely.

[catya]

That's a lovely way to put it. "more like it's always hovering behind my experience"

[majes]

Yes; I can feel that the more I come into my essense, the less distance will be between these two states of me. I'll keep working on that. That's the plan. Right now, it seems far away - but I suspect that it's much like any trip I take - with time and familiarity, the distance shrinks.