Parents seem to be doing a pretty crappy job with their kids these days. Since we've been going outside to smoke I've been hearing and seeing some things that are rather disturbing. The other day there were a two boys and two girls walking down the street. These kids were about 8 years old. They were fighting and calling each other names when ( Read more... )

Robin got to have the baby by himself for two days this week and it's not going to happen again. I'm going to have a nervous breakdown if I have to give her to him again. She doesn't do well being away from me and I really don't do well being away from her for any length of time, unless I know she's sleeping or if Mom has her ( Read more... )

Friday night kicked ass!! I started out having a few drinks with Robin. It was the first time we've had any alone time since the baby was born and it was great. I think he was a little disappointed that I left to go party instead of staying there with him. I walked down to Jeff's house where I found some severely messed up people! I thought ( Read more... )

Haha!! Fuck you all! I'm getting twisted tonight and I'm going to dance my ass off. You'll all be jealous because I'll be having such a good time. Try not drinking for 9 months and see how much fun you'll have the first time you drink. It's going to be like my first time all over again! Too bad sex can't be like that! If that was the case I' ( Read more... )

Well, we're headed to Robin's again tonight. It should be interesting. Tonight he not only gets to give Laurana a bath but gets to mix up formula and feed it to her. I'm sure this will be amusing and disturbing at the same time. Hopefully she'll eat the formula because if she won't then there's no way that I'll be able to get out tomorrow ( Read more... )

Kellie, Jessica, Jared, Jeff, anyone,I'm getting a babysitter Friday night if everything goes as planned. You all damn well better be planning on getting getting drunk and going to Dooly's to dance your ass off. I was told tonight that I still look good in my more revealing clothes. Pretty good for only having the baby a month ago. I only have ( Read more... )

I really need to get away for awhile and get my head together. Mom's really not helping by forcing her opinion of Robin, his friends and what he's done down my throat. She wants me to completely fuck him over which is not cool since no matter what happens we have to deal with each other for at least another 20 years ( Read more... )

I'm soooooooo stupid. Up until last night I was pissed, and I rather liked it that way. Now I'm an emotional mess and I hate it. I don't know what I'm going to do. I can't stay here forever but I can't afford to live anywhere else. There's not even enough space in my room for both of our clothes let alone her crib. I'm sure we'll work ( Read more... )

I went to the apartment to talk tonight and get some of my stuff. Trying to get him to talk is like pulling teeth!! We sorta have something planned for his visitation we still have to work on that a bit because it's not fair for me to have her every single weekend while he gets to go out and get wasted. It'll be a few more weeks before we have ( Read more... )

Well, it turns out that I don't have to wait until this weekend to see if I'm going to be leaving Robin or not. The decision was made for me last night. Robin said that he thinks me and the baby should move back into Mom's. He said he still wants the baby but he doesn't want me. Anyways, all this happened seconds before Mom came to get me so we ( Read more... )