I am apparently just this big evil monster that never cares about anything. note to everyone: it's always been hard for me too. note for you: if you don't apply any effort, then i'm not going to either.

excuse while i go ruin some more lives.

OK. so i was wrong. the entire relationship was wrong. and that's how it goes. long distance sucks. that's just the way it is. but i'm drunk and i love grey's anatomy so it's ok. the end. *sobs*

So I realize it's much easier if you just put your energy into not caring. Then when you realize the person doesn't give a shit you can just walk away with as least pain as you can. I also realize that I'm bitter. oops.

I am so much better than this.

W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R ( Read more... )

Yes, it's been awhile, but a lot of the anger has faded to nothingness because I've witnessed a miracle and realize things like that are too stupid to waste time on ( Read more... )

oh what a night.

This weekend was excellent. Sara's party was on Friday and it was sooooooo much fun. I had a great time. Esther is my best little friend at these parties, because we understand each other when we get drunk and it's really funny. :-) Everyone was so much fun though, and I'm only sad that it ended early because of rumors of the cops. I went to the ( Read more... )

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! :-)

So here I am at home. Being at home is good and bad. I feel oddly disconnected from everyone. All of them are here for the whole summer and when I come back, somehow I just feel completely out of place sometimes. It makes me sad because I feel disconnected with these people and disconnected to the ones at school. How can I be missing everyone so ( Read more... )