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[mademychoices]

At various points in my life, I've betrayed my country, my father, my lover, my boss, my colleagues, and everyone else who's ever believed in me.

I have no idea how any of them could ever have trusted me again, but some of them did; before I ended up here the only thing that frightened me was the idea that one day I'd manage to wear out their

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[trappedbyhate]

[ Mio is still keeping tabs on Ros as a very promising potential Torchwood recruit. ]

Was it worth it?

[mademychoices]

In some instances. It was rather desperately necessary in my father's case, for one thing.

I don't feel all that thrilled about the rest of it, though.

[locked]

[trappedbyhate]

[ Mio would really rather not continue this conversation in public. ]

Betrayal is rarely thrilling--for either side, really.

[locked]

[mademychoices]

[which is so unbelievably fine by Ros]

Oh, I don't know. There's a certain je ne sais quoi to being part of the conspiracy. Sickening and exciting all at once, imagining yourself one of the secret masters of the world. It's only afterwards you realize what an absolute idiot you've made of yourself.

[blazetodefine]

Why did you do it?

[mademychoices]

It seemed like the right idea at the time. Which in one case it was, actually.

[blazetodefine]

Oh.

I feel like I betrayed my best friend.

I don't know if it was betrayed or failed. I don't know if there's that much of a difference.

[mademychoices]

Intent.

Betrayal's the result of an active decision; failure's the result of not making one. Or making the wrong one, or not making it in time.

I've failed people as well, but that doesn't keep me up at night. At some point it's always inevitable.