I have no idea what's going on anymore or what to do. It's all out of my hands all I can do is hope for the best really ( Read more... )

It's been such a long time...

Been a long time. Much has happened, but I think apathy is winning.

"Man and monsters both make mistakes
But for every man
who cries and begs for time enough to breath
You'll find a million more monsters like me
Who will lick our wounds and laugh when we leave."

Life always finds way to fuck me, it's getting really old. Seriously. I'm so tired of it. I'm tired of a lot of things, I just want to sleep. I'm going to sleep.

"And he charges by the tear
until I weap no more strictly out of fear."

Fuck everyone else's happiness. Fuck you if you can be happy and can't understand why I can not be happy. Fuck you. No one fucking gets it. No one fucking seems to understand. I am not happy. I do not have what I want nor can I seem to acheive it. So fuck you if you don't support me.

I may not be able to come back to school. I have no future. No hope. Nothing to look forward to. End of post.

The more I live the more angry, bitter, and jaded I become.

I think I may be a sociopath.

Considerate Thinker

It's probably best I sleep right now but I wanna at least have some sort of semblance of memory of this. This is the first time alcohol has had a depressing effect on me. It's a good thing I can't find my knife right now because I have a higher pain tolerance due to the drunkness and I'd probably cut myself really bad just so I can feel the pain. ( Read more... )