I think I screwed up...but...well I just don't know...only time will tell.

[m3noel]

I feel like I'm going to puke, and no, its not something I ate. For all of you who didn't know- The last two weeks I was dating a girl. I sort of fell into it, no I'm not gay, I'm straight and that's why I'm feeling the way I am. I love her, and yes even if I got tricked into it I still love the same person, she just turned out to be a girl. In the

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[joymarkana]

moll...so i haven't talked to you in awhile, and i apologize for that. i would have liked to have been there for you more than i have. but i've heard about your situation through journal postings and through other friends, and it sounds like things haven't been easy

[m3noel]

Joyous you have no idea how much sense that makes. Thank you. I know we haven't talked and I was feeling like we weren't really friends anymore. There was no reason we were just busy with different things! I hope we can get back into this summer. I knew from the very beginning that people wouldn't see it work because of who I am...and I felt the same way. But love is everything to me and you know that, everyone who knows me knows that. So I felt that instead of just giving up on it I had to try. And try I did, and I do love her. And the situational relationship thing you mentioned was exactly what it was. She harbors no hard feelings towards me. I don't plan to just write her out of my life, she knows everything about me and so we're going to try to be friends. We'll see how it works, she's a very understanding person and so if its too hard I know that she'll take steps to make it easier for me if its even possible. Ok I believe that's it for now...I need the attention of a boy B-A-D. But I'm hoping that I'll get some while I'm at MSU