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Stressed
Yes, money is the issue. It's just not coming in fast enough. I want to buy property ASAP. I've never felt this urgency in me grow so strong before. It's plaguing me. I need to figure out a realistic method of making money. I know there's millions of ways...I just need to sort out my options and figure out how Lyta can most efficiently meet ( Read more... ) -
Monkey meat
This break with the monkey leaves me wondering what the heck I've been doing with my time. I suddenly have hours upon hours of time to get ahead. I'm sure he feels the same. I sure do miss him though. I haven't talk to him since Sunday. Time was suppose to pass by hanging out with Debbie night after night...lots of fun!! Driving off to Cull ( Read more... ) -
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nI just had a meeting with a client, Bill. And boy, lemme tell ya. IF YOU WANT SOMETHING DONE RIGHT, YOU'VE GOT TO DO IT YOURSELF!! I'm losing a shitload of bussiness not doing things myself. Fuck. I better schedual those CCIM classes for ASAP. Dagnabbit. -
A new growing insecurity
What I fear nowadays is wasting time. Wasting other people's time, wasting my own time, wasting away my days and nights. Becoming a boning fiend. I want to call Mark, just to see if he's real. If he's really real ( Read more... ) -
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Lyta, pull urself together and go!
I'm thinking about leaving Mark. I hate how we're always putting up with eachother. It shouldn't be this way.
Retardo Girl is bugging me. And I don't want to sleep through selling my stuff time. I need the extra bucks. :-P -
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Norman called me Retardo-girl. It's cuz I'm a flake. That really hurt my feelings. *cries* Mark's not calling, cuz probably both our phones are dead. I'm almost a day late on my period...I'M SENSITIVE!!! *whines* I need hugs and snuggles. I feel so stupid. I just keep thinking of all them in that office, laughing like hiennas. :-( And not ( Read more... ) -
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I broke up with Mark...again. I know this time is permanate, because now...I feel GOOD. Really good. See, I already have my entire evening lined up, lonesome free. work, oil change, costco to buy buffy dvds, rock climb, and then go home to watch buffy. Who needs a boyfriend who won't clean your car and change your oil? -
I don't know
I don't know what I want. I made a terrible mistake again, and got my hair CUT at the azn mall. I wanted them to straighten it. They said they should cut off the dead ends. I let them. I was dizzy. I let them. Now I feel more hong-kong girl than american azn fettish. NOW HOW AM I GONNA MAKE THE TIPS ( Read more... ) -
Thinkin' about Mark
I suddenly realized that perhaps, I am my own Meat and Potatoes. I like a lot of my ways to be asian ( Read more... ) -
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I officially broke up with Monkey. I'm gonna want a commitment where we raise eachother up and lookout for one another. And I don't have enough discipline to handle raising myself up, AND him. And I think our ideas of relationships are a bit different. Yes, I DO have to be there for him. Cuz that's what love makes me do. I feel again that it' ( Read more... )