Don't Look Down (page 3)
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Krista was startled awake in the darkest hours after midnight, she hadn’t meant to fall asleep on Gordon and she felt quite embarrassed for having done so. His deep, even breathing indicated that he was also sleeping, but was it because he hadn’t wished to disturb her? Likewise, she was reluctant to move in fear of waking him, but they couldn’t just stay here on the sofa all night.. Could they? It was comfortable enough, his embrace was certainly warm and secure, so why not? She carefully snuggled down into his chest again and felt him draw her closer to him, even unconscious he sought to hold her tight against him and she smiled to herself. Gordon had sensed the shift of her body and while his actions were subconscious, it just made her feel more wanted and loved by him. It had happened so suddenly, it was a little scary but she felt a connection and wanted to pursue it for all it was worth. Hoping she hadn’t simply caught him on the dreaded ‘rebound’, Krista shut her eyes and sighed contentedly as she drifted back off to sleep once more.
*
When the sun finally brightened up the living room, Krista again woke up in Gordon’s embrace and she had to wonder how they hadn’t fallen off the sofa all night. She was a tossing, turning fitful sleeper usually, but perhaps he had held her firmly enough so that she’d been quite unable to move a great deal last night. She sighed and smiled dreamily, all her adult life she’d imagined finding someone who would treat her right and keep her safe but she never actually thought she’d meet anyone suitable. She wished he would open up and talk to her though, she knew very little about him and was mainly going by his kind hearted attitude towards her. Gordon shifted slightly and Krista raised her head to look at him, his eyes were just blinking open and he looked a bit confused to be face to face with her just now.
“Oh God,” he sat up slowly and rubbed his face with his hands, “I am so sorry.. I can’t fucking believe it! I fell asleep!”
Krista bit back her grin and shook her head, trying so hard not to giggle at him but failing miserably. Gordon stared blankly at her, unsure of the joke.
“It’s really not funny,” Gordon said flatly.
“I know,” Krista tried to calm down, “it’s just, I was thinking the same thing earlier. I thought I’d fallen asleep on you first.”
“Earlier?” Gordon frowned and glanced at his watch, “it’s barely six in the morning.. “
“Yes, well.. “ Krista suddenly blushed hard, “I woke up in the night.. “
“Why didn’t you wake me?” Gordon wondered curiously, “we could have moved to the bed.”
Krista shrugged.
“I was comfortable,” she replied simply.
Gordon moved his head around a little, feeling a stiff neck coming on from sleeping on the sofa all night and being too tall for it.
“Coffee?” Krista offered.
“Not for me, thanks,” Gordon politely refused, “you go ahead, ah!”
Krista paused.
“Stiff neck?” she ventured.
“Nothing a hot shower won’t cure,” Gordon sat up a bit more and Krista bit down onto her bottom lip.
He was so cute, all sleepy and only half awake.
“Could I come over again tonight?” Krista asked him, hoping she wasn’t making a nuisance of herself.
“Uh?” Gordon looked at her with his bleary eyes and slowly caught up, “oh! Of course, I’ll.. I’ll find something to make for dinner.. “
Krista felt a little badly about him having to cook for them every time she visited, he did that enough when he worked so she imagined it’d be a chore to have to do it at home as well. Gordon offered her a smile and leaned in to kiss her cheek, she turned her head at the last moment and stole a kiss to his lips. She adored the way he blushed suddenly and half turned away, a soft laugh escaping him and Krista touched his arm gently. His blue eyes looked up at her then, catching the morning sun’s light and she could have sworn they glowed.
“I could swing by and pick up some take-out food,” she offered.
“Great,” Gordon stood up, “don’t forget my barf bucket.. “
“Oh, fussy!” Krista accused him playfully, “don’t you want to have a break from cooking?”
“Are you mad?” Gordon wondered, “I think I’d die if I had to ever stop cooking.”
He probably would have too, if it wasn’t for Krista reaching out to him the way she had and nipping his sudden drinking habit in the bud before it got too far out of control. Krista smiled, she was glad he had picked himself up out of that hole he’d been digging for himself, but they were still not as close as she wanted to be. He’d asked her not to pry, she’d discovered that he was heartbroken but that’s as far as it had gone and she wanted to know more about him.
Was he rebounding really? How serious was the relationship? Did he still have feelings for the woman? Who was she?
So many questions and she couldn’t ask a single one, not until he was ready to volunteer the information himself.
“I’d better get ready for work,” Krista said softly.
“Take the day off,” Gordon suggested.
“And do what?” Krista asked him, thinking him to be quite cheeky to have said such a thing.
“We could do something,” Gordon spoke casually but he was really just feeling apprehensive about being left alone again.
He simply didn’t trust himself right now, feeling a dire need to be with someone, anyone really, it didn’t matter so long as he wasn’t on his own.
“I’ll be back before you miss me,” Krista reassured him, standing up.
He looked at her so defeatedly then that she felt a sudden urge to just hold him, but she wasn’t sure if he’d be permissible.
“I promise I’ll come straight over after I’m finished,” Krista told him firmly, “alright?”
“Yeah,” Gordon seemed to have gotten over whatever was bothering him just now, “I’ll see you later, darling.”
He winced, slip of the tongue.. But Krista just smiled at him warmly and stood on her tiptoes to kiss his cheek, then she left to go home and get ready to go to work, worrying about Jazi and wondering if she’d even speak to her anymore.
Once Krista was gone, Gordon looked around for a moment and wondered what to do.
“Got to keep busy,” he mumbled to himself, then he picked up the keys to his apartment and left the building. Checking his wristwatch, Gordon walked several blocks before flagging down a taxi at last. He got in and sat back, directing the driver to his last remaining restaurant and watching the meter carefully because he needed to keep enough cash on him to get another ride home.
Once he arrived, Gordon went inside and looked around. It was promising, there were still people dining here but the sight of so many empty tables was gut wrenching for him. He walked straight to the kitchens and it was an even more surreal sight, for it was almost empty as well.
“Hey,” Gordon caught their attention, “how’s it all going?”
“Slowly,” replied Gina, who was the Executive Chef here, “but we’re holding on, any idea when things might pick up?”
“Soon,” Gordon promised her, “there’s going to be a film crew in here in the next day or so.”
“Oh, how exciting!” Gina beamed, “so we’ll be on the tele?”
“Yeah,” Gordon spoke confidently, “we’ll be alright. How are the bookings?”
“Not great,” Gina admitted, “but enough to keep us open.”
“Good, good.. “ Gordon looked around the kitchen, “let’s make sure they keep coming back for the great food, uh?”
“Of course,” Gina smiled at him, “just wait until they see this place on television, we’ll be swamped again.”
“Just like old times,” Gordon smiled faintly back at her, “has anyone been complaining?”
“Not to my knowledge,” Gina replied, “I think so long as the money keeps flowing, everyone is pretty content to stick around.”
“Excuse me!” one of the other chefs came over, “I’d be here even if the money was lousy, don’t speak for all of us.. Some of us are loyal to Chef Ramsay, not our sodding paychecks!”
“I’m sorry,” Gina apologized quickly, “I was just generalizing.”
“Yeah well, don’t,” the chef grumbled, wandering off to check on his dish.
Gordon was certainly surprised, but this man had his reasons and one of them was that he had accidentally (maybe a little purposefully) done the math one night and realized that Gordon couldn’t possibly have covered their paychecks from the restaurant takings alone. He was actually making up the difference out of his own pocket, just to keep them paid and happy to turn up to work each day.
“Okay,” Gordon looked at Gina, “I’m going to hang about and make sure everything is ship shape for the cameras.”
“Yes Chef,” Gina smiled, loving the fact that their boss was around because he was always very encouraging and helpful when they needed a gentle push in the right direction. She couldn’t wait for the cameras to show up, the whole world would be able to see just what a great guy he was. Gordon loved to be in the kitchen, he gave brilliant advice and while he was strict and firm, he never shouted or really swore at the chefs for any reason and it made for quite the harmonious workplace. Customers were never left waiting, nobody sent food back and everyone left with a smile and a full stomach. Gordon started out well enough, ensuring things were clean and nothing was needing repairs, but he soon fell back into place and was in the kitchen to help out with the orders for the better part of the day. It was an efficient and smooth kitchen, everything went like clockwork and they even had time to make jokes and laugh while they cooked.
Gordon’s presence made for a pleasant change, he always had the most amusing things to tell them and they all loved his sense of humor. Gina was confident that the show was going to focus on their excellent dynamics and the entertainment factor would be a lot of fun to make people want to cook or dine out in their restaurant. They had no idea whatsoever that this show was going to change everything in such a big way, that they wouldn’t even recognize their beloved Chef in as little as six months..
*
That evening, after Gordon had managed to get a lift home with someone who lived not far from his apartment, he went inside and began to prepare dinner for himself and Krista tonight. He actually caught himself whistling and humming and even smiling as he breezed around the kitchen. He was so pleased to have been back at work, even just for the day and the promise of a paid television appearance was definitely something to look forward to. Things were starting to look up and as he flicked on the radio to find a music station to listen to while he fired up the stove, news of the recession finally coming to an end just made him cheer up a lot more. Good things were finally on the horizon, now if he could just hang in there a bit longer, he may not have to sell the restaurant after all.
*
Across the hall, Krista just got back and was taking a quick shower. She wasn’t at all happy today, because Jazi had made her argue about the whole rape thing again and then she’d stormed out and worked on the other side of the hotel for the rest of the day. Krista sighed heavily, so much for loyalty and friendship, even the police had enough to go on in order to either charge Gordon or not and they hadn’t. So what was the fuss? Erica had clearly been lying, because she hadn’t chased it up or complained about nothing getting done. In fact, she hadn’t even mentioned it or behaved any differently since the incident had supposedly occurred. Krista immediately brightened up when she started to do her hair and makeup in anticipation of simply seeing Gordon again. She hadn’t been able to stop thinking about him all day long, worrying too and she hoped he was alright as she crossed the hall and knocked upon his door.
Gordon looked up as he heard the knocking on his door and he set things to a simmer as he went to answer it.
“Ah, just in time,” Gordon smiled at Krista, kissing both of her cheeks in greeting, “come in, I’m almost done.”
Krista walked inside and instantly scented the delicious aroma coming from the kitchen and it filled the entire apartment.
“Oh wow,” she followed him to the kitchen, “what is that wonderful smell?”
“Probably my new cologne,” Gordon spoke amusedly, flashing her a quick smile.
His eyes sparkled and Krista was pleased to note that he was in quite high spirits tonight, but what could have been the cause for such a dramatic shift in his mood?
“Okay funny man,” Krista laughed, “what’s the deal here?”
“I’ve had a good day that’s all,” Gordon admitted, “how was yours, darling?”
He was tasting things as he went along, throwing spoons and forks into the sink while picking up another of each shortly after.
“Not so good as all that,” Krista sighed and hated to bring down his mood, but she had to be honest with him, “Jazi refuses to even speak to me anymore, we’ve been friends for so long, it feels weird not to have her around after work.”
“Oh dear,” Gordon wiped his hands on his towel, “I am sorry, I hope that wasn’t my fault.. “
“It isn’t,” Krista grumbled, “it’s Erica’s.. “
“Ah,” Gordon caught on quickly, “I see. Give her time, see if she comes ‘round.”
Krista nodded, wishing she could feel as chipper as he looked.
“In the meantime,” Gordon was already plating the food, “you’ve always got me.”
Krista smiled at him, she just couldn’t help it and Gordon looked amusedly at her because he loved her smile and would very much like to see it more often. They sat down to eat and Krista couldn’t help but groan at the beautiful tastes she was experiencing. Gordon was looking quite proud of himself, she asked him again about his day and he finally told her what he’d done and she was so pleased for him, she had to sit back and just smile.
“Do you think it’ll turn around now?” she wondered.
“I certainly hope so,” Gordon spoke carefully, “television can make or break you, it all depends on the public’s opinion I suppose.”
“Everyone will love you,” Krista reassured him, “I know I do.. “
Gordon blushed and laughed softly, shaking his head in amusement.
“Would you tell me about her?” Krista ventured gently.
Gordon kept his gaze lowered for a moment, then he looked anywhere except at Krista. Finally, he met her gaze with his own and she knew he was going to say something, he always looked at her when he spoke to her.
“I was going to ask her to marry me,” Gordon admitted, feeling foolish all over again, as if it had just happened this morning, “the day she left me.. “
Krista felt badly for him, it had been that serious?!
“What happened?” she had to know, “why did she leave?”
“It was the money,” Gordon surmised, “when it ran out, so did she. End of story.”
Krista shook her head, it was always about money with some people.
“I’m sorry,” she apologized softly, “that’s pretty harsh.”
Gordon nodded, his gaze lowered again. She could see now why he was so hesitant with her, he was clearly looking for that special someone in his life and not just rebounding or even trying to just score with whoever would lay down with him. She knew then that she needed to be patient with him, he had to be sure that she was the right woman and if he decided that it just wasn’t going to work out, Krista knew she would have to leave him alone so that he could find that lucky so and so and be happy. As long as he was happy, that’s all that mattered and even though she would love for it to be her, she couldn’t choose who his heart belonged to. That was entirely his decision, though she felt that he wasn’t the best judge of character if such a woman had him nearly marrying her.
Still, live and learn, right?
“Gordon,” Krista spoke after a time and she felt her breath stolen away as his blue eyes met with hers, “I just want you to know that whatever happens, you can always count on me. No matter what.”
Gordon hadn’t ever heard that before, it was definitely a new one to his ears, though he had said such a thing himself to others plenty of times. He searched her eyes for a moment, as if trying to decide whether she was lying to him or not.
“Would you like some dessert?” he offered, smiling at her now. Krista leaned forward, pushing her luck a little.
“I’d rather have you,” she spoke in a sultry voice, half closing her eyes and reveling in the deep crimson blush that reached all the way to his ears, relieved to see his shy smile rather than an irritated frown or an awkward shift of his weight. He stood up and Krista helped him to clear the table, then she found the dessert sitting just inside the fridge to keep cool and she got some cream onto the tip of her finger. She closed the fridge and approached Gordon, he closed the dishwasher up and turned around, so Krista dabbed the cream onto the corner of his mouth and leaned in. He was still as she softly kissed at the cream, using her tongue just a little to get it off his mouth and then she smiled at him invitingly.
“You stuck your fingers into the dessert,” Gordon murmured.
“I did,” Krista spoke firmly, “so what of it?”
Gordon tilted his head and looked into her eyes.
“So,” he said softly, “that one’s yours.”
Krista couldn’t help but break down into laughter, he smiled amusedly at her and she silently had to hand it to him, he knew how to defuse a situation he simply wasn’t ready for. Backing down, Krista decided to let him steer the relationship for a while and see where it led them, at least she knew he wasn’t against the idea completely; he just needed more time.
Seconds later, Krista found herself being hoisted up onto the kitchen counter, her legs wrapped around him as he leaned over her and they kissed deeply. She ran her fingers through the hair at the back of his head, gripping it tightly and sighing into his mouth with pleasure. Gordon’s arms were embracing her tightly, his tongue in her mouth and his hips carefully rolling to entice her into moving with him. It was such a blatant tease but she didn’t mind one bit, it was what she’d wanted, what she’d asked for just moments ago. Gordon really didn’t want to regret this, he closed his eyes, went for it and hoped that he hadn’t got it wrong this time.
Erica, Gertie, now Krista. Surely third time was truly the charm, he wasn’t sure he could handle another rejection or failed relationship in such quick succession. It’d scar him deeply, possibly turning him off looking to settle down with anyone and sending him out there to find loose women every so often, just to satisfy his urges but it’d never make him happy the way a relationship did. Gordon was a caring and quite doting person and he was very lavish with his affection. He would tell you straight up what he thought and felt, no matter what the situation and there was no room for trying to decipher what he meant by his words.
Krista hadn’t known him for very long, but he was so straight forward with her that she felt as though she knew him quite well and she certainly felt attracted to his personality. The fact that he was handsome, had great hair, stunning blue eyes and a triathlon toned and tanned body was pure bonus and judging by the way his jeans bulged just now, Krista didn’t need to guess that he was very well endowed on top of all that. Jazi had accused her of only feeling sorry for Gordon, but here he was, looking up and cheerful yet she still found herself almost magnetically drawn to him. If only she could make everyone see her true feelings towards him, but it was Gordon she needed to convince of her intentions to stay with him, not everybody else.
Krista felt herself growing wet at his rubbing against her, his rock hard member pressing in between her legs as they kissed more passionately and she heard him grumble a soft moan deep in his throat. Still fully clothed, they could only go so far out here in the kitchen and Krista slipped her hands up under his shirt. Gordon broke the kiss only briefly, to help her lift it up over his head and then he resumed kissing her, unbuttoning her blouse now with his fingers quickly. Krista ran her hands over his fit torso, laying claim to him as she explored and memorized every inch of his upper body. Their relationship had only just begun, but she was already determined that no other woman would ever touch her man this way ever again.
Unaware that he was now owned, Gordon drew back and looked into her eyes as he took off her blouse and Krista blushed as she reached back and undid her bra, letting it slip down from her body. His gaze was appreciative as he took her in for a moment, she smiled as his hand softly caressed her face rather than just diving into her breasts right away.
“I love to be in the kitchen darling, but not like this,” Gordon spoke to her in a deep, breathy voice that thrilled her immensely.
“We should go to the bedroom then,” Krista said to him softly, touching the hand that was on her cheek and turning her head to kiss his palm.
His expression became hazy as she did this and Krista met his half closed eyes with her own, excited to learn that she could turn him on with such a simple gesture for it meant that he was really into her and not just doing it to make her happy. Gordon smiled against her cheek as he picked her up, showing off just a little as he carried her to the bedroom. Krista squeaked when he first lifted her up, nervous that he might drop her but he acted as though she weighed less than a cat and it made her feel more secure and able to relax, kissing his mouth before they even got to the bedroom door.
As with any new person, Gordon was unsure of what she liked or disliked, so he was keen to take his time and learn her body. Krista lay back into the pillows and they shed the rest of their clothes, Gordon climbed over her and started to trail kisses down her neck and body, running his hands over her to try and get a feel for where she liked to be touched the most.
“Oohh baby,” Krista couldn’t help but moan, her back arching at the tenderness and softness of his gentle caresses, “baby, mmm.. “
Gordon uttered a deep hum in response, his eyes closing as he enjoyed her vocals and began to massage her inner thighs with his thumbs. Exploring her was a real treat for him, to touch and taste every inch of her and to hear and feel how she reacted to what he was doing. Krista had never really done this before, he was taking his time and she appreciated the slow pace for now, it was driving her wild and causing her to lust and ache for him to take her down onto the bed and just completely dominate her into submission.
She wanted him so badly to leave her panting and satisfied, he clearly knew how to work a woman up into a near frenzy with the slightest and simplest of touches. But that was Gordon all over, back to basics, find something simple and dish it up in an exciting new way. It was something that had garnered success from several of his restaurants, before the recession broke everything down all around the country. It’d serve him well in the years to come though, for he was a stickler for perfection and stubbornly refused to change his way of doing things when it came to the food itself.
“Krista.. “ he groaned her name, as she had started to press her fingers deeply into his upper back and was working out a few of those knotted up, tense muscles she had located there, “ohh God.. “
“You’re so tense!” Krista spoke softly, able to recompose herself as she’d made him stop moving.
Gordon was enjoying the way she made his tension relax, he was always putting too much pressure on himself and was quite unable to be still for any more than five minutes, tops. Krista sat up and Gordon looked at her curiously.
“What’s wrong?” he asked her.
“Could I give you a massage?” Krista wondered.
“Only if it’s a sexy one,” Gordon smiled at her amusedly, “and only if I can give you one after.”
“Alright,” Krista felt her cheeks burning red, “I think it’ll be good for us.. but why does it need to be sexy?”
“Because,” Gordon carefully lay down onto his front, “I always fall asleep.”
Krista giggled and felt better as he grinned and blushed, she thought about placing something over his butt and then chose not to as she got her bottle of massage body oil and began to pour some onto his back. Gordon closed his eyes, feeling her firm but gentle prodding deep into his back, shoulders and neck. Krista bit her bottom lip at the soft groans he uttered, they were almost guttural and it made her shiver with excitement. She caught a few muffled expletives into the pillows, then the five minutes was up and he became instantly restless, sitting up and cutting the massage abruptly short.
“Hey!” Krista mock scolded him, “I wasn’t fin-mmff!”
He was kissing her now, mouth pressed firmly to hers and she reached down to give his erection a squeeze with her oiled up hands. A surprised moan escaped him and she smiled against his lips, feeling the hardened member throb in her palm. Somehow, she got the feeling that she wasn’t going to get to finish what she had started but she could live with that. Gordon was far too energetic to just lay there, he just felt lazy and if he didn’t fall asleep within five minutes then he never actually stayed for the entire massage anyway. Krista felt his mouth on her neck, then her shoulder and she moaned softly as his hands ran up over her thighs towards her soft mound of curls. How she had ended up on her back with him poised over her was beyond Krista, he’d moved so fast and it thrilled her deep down that he was taking control. A soft sigh escaped her as he resumed exploring her body, touching, tasting and nibbling her all over.
“Ooohh, baby.. “ Krista moaned and raised her hips, as his tongue ran over her soft folds and she bucked involuntarily when the tip of his tongue flicked out onto her sensitive nub, “just like.. like thaaat! Oohh!!”
He was grasping her buttocks now, she relaxed her legs and surrendered to his relentless attack on her most delicate areas, mewling loudly as she reached down and ran her fingers through his hair. As she approached climax, her fingers curled and she pulled hard, eliciting a grunt from him but she was too close to the edge to stop and apologize. He carefully stopped and reclaimed her parted lips with his own, pushing into her entrance and starting to thrust with her movements right away. She wrapped her arms and legs around him tightly, ensuring there would be no escape as she devoured his kisses almost feverishly. She tore away from his mouth and arched as she screamed into orgasm, his lips now on her neck and shoulder as he breathed heavily in response to her sudden clamping around his engorged member.
As her climax hit it’s peak, Krista startled Gordon by surging upwards and pinning him underneath her. She rolled her hips and thrust them firmly, reaching behind herself to gently fondle his sensitive scrotum. Gordon moaned and writhed under her touch, he grasped the wrist of her free hand and dragged her hand firmly over his chest. His back arched and she fingered his nipple curiously, encouraged by the soft hiss of ‘yess’ and leaning down to suckle it out of interest.
“Fuck!” Gordon swore and Krista gasped as he grabbed her hips and held her tightly as he came hard inside of her, his head thrown back and eyes rolling closed in sheer pleasure. Watching his face as he came was such a treat, Krista very nearly climaxed a second time just seeing and hearing his release. He was very vocal and unabashedly so, it sent shivers and thrills of delight all through her body and made her feel quite hot indeed. She lay down on top of him and he rolled her over so they were facing one another on their sides, her legs still wrapped around his middle so that he was still nestled deeply inside of her. She gazed into his eyes and he smiled warmly at her, already madly in love and completely under her spell but angry with himself for being such an easy target for manipulative women.
His heart raced as he imagined all kinds of things she might use as an excuse to stop seeing him now, but as she snuggled up into his embrace, those fears simply melted.. and so did he. Krista smiled as she felt his body relax, she closed her eyes and sighed happily. She felt him kiss the top of her head, so she planted soft kisses onto his chest in return. The message between them was loud and clear, he may be the dominant one but at the end of the day, he answered to her. Gordon was a bit less dominant among his peers, but that was all going to change very soon, as were a lot of things. He was just getting started, now was the time to either hold on tight and just go with him or get left behind and watch him ascend to his inevitable greatness.
Neither of them had a clue of course, which made what they had with one another extra special. She loved him for who he was on the inside, she had met him as a man who had almost given up on himself and she had helped him to pull up out of his sinking spiral into despair. Gordon would never forget that and while his love and loyalty was it’s own reward in Krista’s mind, he was devoted to her and wouldn’t ever stop doing what he loved now that she’d shown him and reminded him just how much his life really mattered. Everything he did from here on in would be for her, for himself as well but mostly just for her. Gordon put everything he had into making a relationship work, his whole heart and all. It left him vulnerable and at his lover’s mercy, she would have him on his knees with the flick of her wrist and she would hold all the power that was so willingly given to her.
Gertie had been the only serious relationship he’d ever had and he’d been so close to proposing to her, it was little wonder he’d been hurting so badly. Krista felt like she was home when she stayed at his apartment, so getting to sleep was really easy for her and she listened to his heart beating while she drifted off.
“I feel like you’re my whole world,” she whispered softly, but Gordon was already sound asleep.
*
Over the next several weeks, Krista and Gordon bonded and got closer. He wasn’t always at home quite so much anymore, so they had a chance to miss each other and Krista found that it just made Gordon twice as affectionate. He was always bright and bubbly when she came over to see him, despite his tiredness from filming all day. Krista enjoyed hearing about everything that had gone on and no matter how boring her own day had been, Gordon listened intently to her when she spoke and she easily felt as if she were the only person in his life. Indeed Krista was the only important person in Gordon’s life right now, she was his first thought upon waking each morning, his last thought before he fell asleep each night and his every spare thought in between during the rest of the day. Krista wasn’t so easily disciplined with her thoughts, she just couldn’t seem to get him out of her mind at all, so she couldn’t concentrate on anything she was supposed to be doing.
When the program went to air, it got rave reviews in the UK but the Producers called Gordon and explained to him that the US wanted their own version of the same show and he would have to appeal to the American public’s style of entertainment. Gordon readily agreed, but he wasn’t really sure what they meant and signed the contract for the new version of the show. Krista watched every episode as it aired on the television, it showed a relaxed Gordon in the kitchen as he trained his Sous chefs and it was all very light hearted with plenty of laughs and a bit of goofing off. There were a few awkward moments when Gordon got a little huffy and scolded someone, but it was a firm yet gentle tone of voice that he used and he always encouraged them once he’d made his point. It was quite the feel-good show, the food they turned out looked delicious and it was plated amazingly. Likewise, Gordon always came home in high spirits, tired but happy and it drew them closer together than ever before.
About halfway into the US version of the program, Krista began to notice that Gordon’s mood wasn’t so bright and chipper anymore when he got home. She would visit him and he would always greet her lovingly, but he seemed distracted and aloof for much of the time and she had to wonder what was going on with him. She probably should have just asked, but some weeks later when filming had stopped, Gordon slowly began to cheer up again. He was working in his restaurant again, now that the television crews had moved on and it seemed to have helped his mood a great deal. Krista was excited to watch the new show, Gordon asked her not to watch it but she couldn’t understand why, so she did anyway. After the first one was over, she simply figured that perhaps Gordon had been having a bad day and thought nothing of it. After several more episodes of shouting, swearing and getting angry, Krista got the idea that this was what the Producers had meant by changing the show to suit the American viewers. Insults were in plentiful supply, there wasn’t a lot of smiling or joking about because those parts had been edited out of the show completely. It made Gordon appear intense, fierce and dominating.. it was downright scary to watch and eventually, Krista just stopped tuning in each night and avoided it altogether.
Gordon did his ‘I told you so.. ‘ speech and Krista could only laugh at herself, but still she noticed the change in him, subtle yet definitely there. He carried himself more confidently, talked to people without even the slightest hint of fear and Krista also noticed the change in other people’s reactions to him as well. People were taking notice and while that was ultimately a good thing in regards to his fame factor, Krista worried that it might all go to his head. Gordon was growing as a person, but he always kept himself humble in Krista’s presence, only ever wanting to please her and make her happy the way she did so for him. When they kissed, he couldn’t resist her and she could have said anything to him and he would have agreed to it. Krista loved walking into the room wherever Gordon was, because no matter what he was doing or who he was with, he’d always look up at her and acknowledge her with his bright blue eyes and a smitten smile. After a year together, she wasn’t sure that she liked his attitude towards certain people anymore but she knew that she loved him and he made it no secret that he was utterly helpless to feel anything but complete devotion towards her in return. Getting to know him was like knowing two different people, there was Chef Ramsay and there was Gordon - her Gordon, the one who cuddled up with her at night and told her how much he loved her.
Krista never got tired of hearing him talk to her about how he felt, he was quickly gaining a reputation for being a swearing, shouting Chef and people were beginning to become afraid of him. He was intimidating, short fused and bad tempered but Krista never saw it at home, only on that damn television series. His confidence continued to grow until even those who would have once put him in his place, were wary about making him lose his temper and kept their manners about them whenever they ran into him. Something she discovered about Gordon, was that he absolutely hated to lose anything. It really got to him and it was easy to tell that it cut him quite deeply, no matter how hard he tried to act as though it was only a bit of an irritation. Krista didn’t blame him, she couldn’t.. He’d lost so much in such a short time, but he was fast making up for that and by the end of their second year together, he’d made his first million, had bought a house, a car and something else that Krista was about to discover one night, when Gordon was treating her to dinner at one of his restaurants, for he had managed to reopen a few of them by now.
When Gordon suddenly got down on bended knee and revealed a diamond ring to Krista, she was lost for all words except one.
“Yes!” she cried, tears in her eyes as he looked relieved and placed it onto her finger. She hugged him tightly and cheers erupted all around them, the press had a field day announcing the private moment to the world and that was when Krista got her first taste of being annoyed with the media.
“We’d have announced it in our own time,” Gordon grumbled the next morning, “now our friends and families have to read about it in the fucking paper!”
Krista leaned over him from behind and kissed his cheek, taking the newspaper out of his hands.
“They’ll understand,” Krista tried to defuse the situation, “everyone knows what the media’s like, Gordon. It’s all about getting the story first and sensationalizing everything.”
He sighed and leaned back, looking at her with an expression of defeat.
“Move in with me,” Gordon said suddenly, catching her completely off guard, “please Krista, it’s so fucking lonely here without you.”
“I don’t know what to say,” Krista gushed, “are you sure you want this?”
Gordon stood up and took her hands into his, lifting them up to kiss her fingers softly.
“More than you know,” Gordon answered her firmly, “please darling, please sweetheart, move in with me.. “
Krista beamed at him and giggled at his pleading voice, eliciting a withering look from Gordon.
“I’m sorry honey,” Krista apologized, “I didn’t mean to laugh at you, but having you begging me for something is a serious power trip, you know.. “
Gordon looked like he wanted to argue with her, but he didn’t because he knew it was quite possibly the truth. He backed down from nobody, his mere presence when he entered a room these days was intimidating and everyone took notice no matter where he was or who they were with. When it came to the one and only Chef Gordon Ramsay, Krista was likely the only person on the planet who could get away with.. well, just about anything really.
“Will you at least think it over?” Gordon asked her, as she put her arms around his neck and he had to bend down a little for her or she’d have her feet off the ground, “uh?”
“I already have thought about it,” Krista kissed his lips briefly, smiling up at his sparkling blue eyes, “and I think that if you feel like you’re ready to take that step, then I am too.”
Gordon picked her up to hug her and she gave a squeal of delight, giggling as she wrapped her legs around him and he supported her by placing his hands under her ass while they kissed lightly. Gordon was always happiest when he got what he wanted, especially when it came to Krista because, by now, she was the only person who could tell him ‘no’ with any ounce of confidence.
The kiss slowly deepened and she closed her eyes, his own eyes rolled shut and he felt her sigh into his mouth. Krista thrilled when she heard a soft moan escape from his throat, tightening her legs around his midsection and grinding herself into his bulging erection through their clothes.
“Darling, I can’t.. “ Gordon withdrew from the kiss and gazed heatedly into her eyes, “I’ve got to go and.. huhh.. “
Krista rolled her hips more provocatively, making his eyes roll briefly.
“Mmm.. Meet with the.. uhh.. “ Gordon tried again, but his focus was quickly diminishing, “fuck it.. “
He turned and headed for the downstairs bedroom, with Krista now sucking at his neck and nibbling at his ear. Gordon lay her down onto the bed, but was still trapped between her legs as she hadn’t unwrapped them from his waist yet and so he had to lay down on top of her but carefully. He was easily over six foot tall and he didn’t want to accidentally squash her under the weight of his muscles. She managed to get his shirt off and they were making out quite heatedly, when his phone suddenly started to buzz. Gordon fumbled around in his pocket for a moment, his lips never leaving hers and she heard him press the button to switch his phone off before it then tumbled to the floor softly and he slipped her shirt up over her head.
Krista moaned as his mouth shifted down to her breasts, his hands now gripping her thighs tightly and pushing them apart demandingly. Krista relaxed and let him have his way with her, being in control was nice but sharing control with him was even better. There were areas of the relationship that Gordon had not yielded to her, the kitchen being one of them and his career being another. She had no say in either of those, though she found ways to sway his final decision in whatever he was contemplating if she deemed it important enough to interfere. It didn’t take him long to have her completely naked, his head down between her legs as she arched and bucked in response to his languid tonguing.
When her cries hit a certain note, Gordon rid himself of his pants and Krista rolled over. He grasped her hips, pushing his erection through her slick folds and into her waiting entrance.
“Gordon!” Krista threw back her head and called his name, feeling his chest come to rest upon her back and his hands slip down to squeeze and massage her breasts as he thrust harder into her. His breath came out in short bursts, gentle grunts and groans escaping every so often to thrill and excite her. Krista lowered her head, soon feeling his hot, wet kisses on the back of her neck and she moaned into the pillows, then she turned her head and sighed audibly. Her breath caught in her throat as he groaned suddenly, right into her ear and her body tensed up into the onset stages of imminent orgasm.
“Babbyy!!” Krista cried out to Gordon, suddenly up on all fours and pressing upwards and backwards into him. He placed pressure upon her top half, forcing her back down but keeping her rear end up for him to continue thrusting into her easily.
“Ah, uhh.. “ Gordon clenched his jaw firmly, his hard member pulsing and throbbing inside of her as they simultaneously lost control and came together. Krista couldn’t help but call out his name, her head thrown back in complete submission to him as he pulled her up against his chest.
“Gordon.. “ Krista whispered, “I love you so much.. “
He kissed her neck and she relaxed into his warm embrace.
“I love you too, darling,” Gordon murmured against her heated cheek.
“Would you scream it to the world?” Krista wondered.
“I just did,” Gordon said to her softly and when she got it, Krista blushed and smiled as they lay down together and cuddled for a while, neither of them in a hurry to be apart anytime soon. Gordon didn’t have to scream anything to anyone but her, nobody else’s opinion on how he felt towards Krista mattered. She felt humbled that he’d consider her to be his whole world, she knew he loved her but today she was only just learning that she didn’t even have the slightest inkling of just how much.
Krista half expected Gordon to switch his phone back on and try to make it to his meeting, a little late perhaps but he could still get there if he hurried. Gordon pulled her tighter into his embrace and softly kissed her lips, she relaxed and sighed dreamily, he obviously wasn’t in any hurry to leave the bed while she was in it. She felt secure in that she came first before anything else, but also a little guilty that he’d missed what might have been an important meeting.
“Honey,” Krista spoke softly, “should you be calling someone right now?”
“Not right now, no,” Gordon answered her firmly, “but I’ll just reschedule for a later date, darling. There’s no harm done.”
“I’m glad,” Krista smiled at him, not wanting to get him into trouble but Gordon was his own boss now and not only starred in the television shows but he was negotiating for both the Producer’s and the Director’s job so that he could have more say in what went on. It also meant longer hours, more work and a bigger paycheck, which added to his already increasing stress load. Coming home was his only refuge, he could just be himself here and try to relax and wind down. The first thing he did after a shower every time he got back, was seek out Krista’s embrace. Cuddling up with her was the second most stress relieving activity that he loved to indulge in, both cooking and sex were tied for first place.
Krista was just happy to be there with him and she didn’t even need to work anymore, which was great because she was planning on starting a family if all went well after the wedding.
“Gordon?” Krista wondered, “do you ever see yourself having children someday soon?”
Gordon was silent for a moment.
“I don’t think so, no,” he responded honestly.
“Why not?” Krista was curious.
“I’m a man,” Gordon spoke firmly, “we don’t do that.”
Krista started to giggle and playfully punched him in the arm.
“Ow!” Gordon rubbed it as he laughed and pretended that it had actually hurt him, “hey!”
“You know what I mean!” Krista smiled at him.
“Alright, alright,” Gordon relented, “of course I do, darling.. I can hardly wait!”
Krista was a little surprised, she’d never seen how he interacted with kids and she assumed he wasn’t overly interested in the subject, but Gordon seemed to simply light up at the idea.
“Why?” he asked her curiously, “did you want to wait?”
“I don’t want to wait,” Krista answered him with a kiss to his cheek.
"So.. You want to stop using protection then?” Gordon asked her.
Krista nodded silently, reveling in the brilliant and excited grin he flashed her in that next moment. Gordon wanted to do backflips, he was so enthusiastic just then that he couldn’t stop smiling at her. Not only was his career back on track, but he was fast becoming very sought after and highly paid for doing what he loved and then he got to come home and be with the woman who had made his life whole again. It was difficult to believe that just two short years ago, he was unconscious in the gutter and ready to just pack it all in. Now he was engaged to be married and already talking about babies, he wondered if life could get any better than this?
“Let’s set a date for the wedding then,” Krista suggested, “I don’t fancy looking bloated when we’re getting married.”
“You won’t look bloated, darling,” Gordon kissed her lips briefly, “you’ll fucking glow.”
Krista rolled her eyes, he was such a massive dork and a total sap but she loved him immensely for it because it was his real self and not the TV personality that most people saw. Gordon’s friends and people who actually met him, got to know him as a very friendly and honest guy. Krista was in two minds about his big heart though, she honestly believed that he cared way too much about other people and it was just more added stress for him. If he was approached to get involved with a charity, he would and sometimes, he even created his own fundraiser for a good cause whenever the inspiration struck him just right.
“Will you be serious for a minute?” Krista asked him.
“No, baby,” Gordon nuzzled her neck and she closed her eyes, “come on, let’s start trying right away.. “
“Gordon!” Krista squirmed and giggled, as he grabbed and groped at her playfully.
“What’s wrong?” Gordon wondered.
“We can just let it happen,” Krista insisted, “if we try, it’ll only make us get frustrated and disappointed if it doesn’t happen right away.”
“I suppose you’re right,” Gordon agreed, the last thing he wanted to do was make sex a chore, “are you hungry? I can make something for lunch.. “
“It’s barely ten,” Krista slowly sat up out of his arms, “why don’t you go on and make that call first?”
Gordon was reluctant, he’d just made up his mind to spend his entire day with her and he was still excited about Krista bringing up the subject of starting a family. It was the only thing missing in his life anymore, he had so much love to give, enough for Krista and at the very least.. perhaps three or even four children.
“Aw, don’t pout,” Krista grabbed his chin and smiled amusedly at him.
“I’m not pouting,” Gordon threw back the sheets, “but I do have a surprise for you if you listen.”
Krista was intrigued now, what could he possibly have planned for her? Gordon collected his phone and sat back on the bed, leaning into the pillows. He switched it on and dialled a number, Krista reached down and began stroking his semi erect member as he spoke quietly with someone and Gordon struggled not to moan as his face flushed in both amusement and mild embarrassment. He pitched an idea and the man on the other end seemed to really like it, Krista was wide eyed because it involved Gordon travelling all over the world to learn different methods and styles of cooking, as well as new recipes for his restaurant menus.
But the real kicker was the part at the end, where Gordon insisted that she came along with him. Krista was speechless, Gordon seemed pleased and she knew in that instant what his answer had been.
“So it’s definitely a go?” Gordon confirmed.
Krista watched him intently, Gordon nodded and smiled brightly. It wasn’t going to happen right away, but the wheels had been set in motion and all they had to do was work out the finer details. Gordon set the phone down and leaned in to kiss deeply with Krista, who was still stroking and gently squeezing his fast growing erection. She sighed happily as he withdrew, lowered his head and groaned, it was so hard to resist him when he made that sound and Krista was soon pushing him down into the bed so that she could straddle him.
“Yeah?” Gordon grasped her hips and looked up into her eyes, questioning her.
“Yes,” Krista smiled back at him, confirming her desire to make love without protection.
Gordon sat up to kiss her passionately, pulling her down with him as she straddled his lap and lay chest to chest on top of him with his arms tightly around her in a loving embrace.
“I love making love with you,” Krista smiled as she drew back and regarded Gordon with affection.
“Mmm, then don’t keep me waiting.. “ Gordon murmured back, pulling her in for another long, passionate kiss.
Krista sighed dreamily and ran her hands over his well built body, there was not an inch of him that she didn’t adore. A knock soon had them sitting up and frowning, who could it be? Krista had a whole new circle of friends since being with Gordon, some of whom were celebrities, their partners and other people that Gordon kept in touch with. She hadn’t heard from Erica nor Jazi for a long time, they had both moved and never bothered to tell her where.
“Shouldn’t you answer it?” Krista asked him.
“No,” Gordon started kissing her neck, making her lose focus on who it might be but this was his house and not hers, so he called the shots right now.
“Oh God that feels so good.. “ Krista breathed heavily, “oohh.. “
His soft hum in response made her eyes close and she relaxed into his embrace, his teeth and tongue on her exposed throat were tantalizingly erotic. The knock had only sounded twice, then stopped because Gordon’s friends were a lot more polite than any of Krista’s had ever been. Hers would have just kept knocking, then they’d have checked the windows and called through the mail slot. Gordon was obviously home because his car was in the driveway, but that didn’t mean he wasn’t indisposed and he knew they’d come back later if it was important. He encouraged her to get onto all fours, ducking his head down to eat her out from behind.
Krista swooned and buried her face into the pillows, moaning loudly as he tongue fucked her and feeling his strong hands prising her open and holding her firmly. Soon, she was trembling and quaking with imminent release and she had figured out a while back that Gordon would do this each time he wanted to make love, because of his well endowed size and it helped her to receive him. She cried out in pleasure as he took hold of her hips, his erection now pushing into her trembling folds. Moving easily within her slick walls, Gordon closed his eyes and groaned deeply at the pleasurable sensation. Krista moaned with each breath she let out, they were soft and desperate, turning him on so that he clenched his jaw and breathed heavily. She felt his cock throb and pulse deeply inside of her, slipping in further each time she relaxed her inner muscles until his soft scrotum was touching her and she knew he was all the way in.
“Oh God, babyyy.. “ Krista moaned, her eyes rolling and her mouth slightly open, “ohh.. oh God, yes.. yes!”
His thrusts were getting more powerful, Krista moaned louder to encourage him and was surprised at just how gentle such a muscular man could be, even when he was excited. His grip on her was firm, but not painful and his thrusts were strong but pleasing rather than rough. Control over his body was definitely something he had clearly become masterful of, she had to wonder then if there was anything Gordon Ramsay wasn’t good at? It made her smile internally, as her lips were too busy moaning to comply with the thought. She slid her hand down to where she could feel his shaft entering into her, placing her fingers on either side of his slickened member and squeezing them together firmly. It provided friction as he pulled out and thrust back in, he hadn’t ever experienced this before and it caught him off guard.
Krista reveled in the surprised groan of pleasure she elicited from Gordon, his breathy moans fuelling her building orgasm as he lost some of his self control. It made her feel good to be able to unhinge him like that, sex was better if it was unpredictable and she was keen to explore many different things in bed with him.
“Kristahh!” Gordon groaned towards the end of her name, as she began to fondle his balls and his hot, heavy breathing was now made louder with raspy moans as he thrust faster. She whined desperately as she felt his fingers now slicking over her sensitive nub, stroking it just right and she was soon streaming her arousal juices all down his rigid length. Gordon swore, his breathing ragged as he suddenly exploded inside of her, eyes shut tight and jaw closed firmly. Krista wailed and threw back her head, her body jolting and her inner walls clamping tightly around his releasing cock. She called his name at the top of her lungs, unhindered now that they were no longer in an apartment building with thin walls.
“Yesss!” Gordon hissed, gripping her securely and ensuring he filled her with his love until it overflowed down onto her thighs and the sheets. Krista slowly relaxed, he was rubbing her upper back and shoulders whilst grinding against her, coming down from his high and groaning deeply in satisfaction. Krista felt happy, she couldn’t help but smile and close her eyes. He didn’t just fuck and go, he spent time with her afterwards and it made all the difference to her. Gordon eventually pulled out of her and they cuddled together, kissing deeply and passionately while he fondled and squeezed her breasts. She sighed into the kiss and hummed quietly, her tongue meeting with his and sparking a deep, rumbling groan from his throat. He could easily go again in a little while, but he waited to see if she’d had enough first before suggesting round three.
Gordon could go all night if he didn’t get too tired from working his long hours, they had actually done it once or twice and Krista always woke up the next day with her legs so tired that she couldn’t walk properly for a few days afterwards. That was essentially an ego boost for Gordon, though he never teased her about it, he just wore this smug grin and she just couldn’t scold him for it because he was just so adorable. She drew back slowly from his lips, gazing into his heated stare with a smile and he touched her mouth with his fingertips, his gaze now fixated upon her lips.
“Baby.. I’ve never seen you lose it like that before.. “ Krista said quietly, flicking out her tongue over his fingers and watching his breath catch in his throat. She enjoyed arousing him, teasing him and turning him on, knowing she was the only one who could ever touch him in this way ever again. Sure, others may try to get him in the mood and perhaps they might even succeed, but he would seek her out and that was the main thing, that he had his sex at home. She could get used to the flirting, he was a very friendly man and women practically tripped over themselves to get close to him once they discovered how nice he was. But that wedding band meant something to her and she trusted that it’d mean something to him as well, once it was on his finger. Right now, their loyalty to one another was symbolized only by their love and trust. It was plenty enough but the ring should discourage others whenever Krista wasn’t around to dissuade the actively flirting women (and sometimes men!) from trying to get Gordon to come home with them.
“You do the most amazing things to me, sweetheart,” Gordon admitted softly, bringing her back from her thoughts, “I’ve never felt so powerless in someone’s arms before.”
Krista snuggled up and rubbed her cheek against his chest, she didn’t want him to see her eyes wide open in amazement of what he’d just revealed to her.
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Krista was startled awake in the darkest hours after midnight, she hadn’t meant to fall asleep on Gordon and she felt quite embarrassed for having done so. His deep, even breathing indicated that he was also sleeping, but was it because he hadn’t wished to disturb her? Likewise, she was reluctant to move in fear of waking him, but they couldn’t just stay here on the sofa all night.. Could they? It was comfortable enough, his embrace was certainly warm and secure, so why not? She carefully snuggled down into his chest again and felt him draw her closer to him, even unconscious he sought to hold her tight against him and she smiled to herself. Gordon had sensed the shift of her body and while his actions were subconscious, it just made her feel more wanted and loved by him. It had happened so suddenly, it was a little scary but she felt a connection and wanted to pursue it for all it was worth. Hoping she hadn’t simply caught him on the dreaded ‘rebound’, Krista shut her eyes and sighed contentedly as she drifted back off to sleep once more.
*
When the sun finally brightened up the living room, Krista again woke up in Gordon’s embrace and she had to wonder how they hadn’t fallen off the sofa all night. She was a tossing, turning fitful sleeper usually, but perhaps he had held her firmly enough so that she’d been quite unable to move a great deal last night. She sighed and smiled dreamily, all her adult life she’d imagined finding someone who would treat her right and keep her safe but she never actually thought she’d meet anyone suitable. She wished he would open up and talk to her though, she knew very little about him and was mainly going by his kind hearted attitude towards her. Gordon shifted slightly and Krista raised her head to look at him, his eyes were just blinking open and he looked a bit confused to be face to face with her just now.
“Oh God,” he sat up slowly and rubbed his face with his hands, “I am so sorry.. I can’t fucking believe it! I fell asleep!”
Krista bit back her grin and shook her head, trying so hard not to giggle at him but failing miserably. Gordon stared blankly at her, unsure of the joke.
“It’s really not funny,” Gordon said flatly.
“I know,” Krista tried to calm down, “it’s just, I was thinking the same thing earlier. I thought I’d fallen asleep on you first.”
“Earlier?” Gordon frowned and glanced at his watch, “it’s barely six in the morning.. “
“Yes, well.. “ Krista suddenly blushed hard, “I woke up in the night.. “
“Why didn’t you wake me?” Gordon wondered curiously, “we could have moved to the bed.”
Krista shrugged.
“I was comfortable,” she replied simply.
Gordon moved his head around a little, feeling a stiff neck coming on from sleeping on the sofa all night and being too tall for it.
“Coffee?” Krista offered.
“Not for me, thanks,” Gordon politely refused, “you go ahead, ah!”
Krista paused.
“Stiff neck?” she ventured.
“Nothing a hot shower won’t cure,” Gordon sat up a bit more and Krista bit down onto her bottom lip.
He was so cute, all sleepy and only half awake.
“Could I come over again tonight?” Krista asked him, hoping she wasn’t making a nuisance of herself.
“Uh?” Gordon looked at her with his bleary eyes and slowly caught up, “oh! Of course, I’ll.. I’ll find something to make for dinner.. “
Krista felt a little badly about him having to cook for them every time she visited, he did that enough when he worked so she imagined it’d be a chore to have to do it at home as well. Gordon offered her a smile and leaned in to kiss her cheek, she turned her head at the last moment and stole a kiss to his lips. She adored the way he blushed suddenly and half turned away, a soft laugh escaping him and Krista touched his arm gently. His blue eyes looked up at her then, catching the morning sun’s light and she could have sworn they glowed.
“I could swing by and pick up some take-out food,” she offered.
“Great,” Gordon stood up, “don’t forget my barf bucket.. “
“Oh, fussy!” Krista accused him playfully, “don’t you want to have a break from cooking?”
“Are you mad?” Gordon wondered, “I think I’d die if I had to ever stop cooking.”
He probably would have too, if it wasn’t for Krista reaching out to him the way she had and nipping his sudden drinking habit in the bud before it got too far out of control. Krista smiled, she was glad he had picked himself up out of that hole he’d been digging for himself, but they were still not as close as she wanted to be. He’d asked her not to pry, she’d discovered that he was heartbroken but that’s as far as it had gone and she wanted to know more about him.
Was he rebounding really? How serious was the relationship? Did he still have feelings for the woman? Who was she?
So many questions and she couldn’t ask a single one, not until he was ready to volunteer the information himself.
“I’d better get ready for work,” Krista said softly.
“Take the day off,” Gordon suggested.
“And do what?” Krista asked him, thinking him to be quite cheeky to have said such a thing.
“We could do something,” Gordon spoke casually but he was really just feeling apprehensive about being left alone again.
He simply didn’t trust himself right now, feeling a dire need to be with someone, anyone really, it didn’t matter so long as he wasn’t on his own.
“I’ll be back before you miss me,” Krista reassured him, standing up.
He looked at her so defeatedly then that she felt a sudden urge to just hold him, but she wasn’t sure if he’d be permissible.
“I promise I’ll come straight over after I’m finished,” Krista told him firmly, “alright?”
“Yeah,” Gordon seemed to have gotten over whatever was bothering him just now, “I’ll see you later, darling.”
He winced, slip of the tongue.. But Krista just smiled at him warmly and stood on her tiptoes to kiss his cheek, then she left to go home and get ready to go to work, worrying about Jazi and wondering if she’d even speak to her anymore.
Once Krista was gone, Gordon looked around for a moment and wondered what to do.
“Got to keep busy,” he mumbled to himself, then he picked up the keys to his apartment and left the building. Checking his wristwatch, Gordon walked several blocks before flagging down a taxi at last. He got in and sat back, directing the driver to his last remaining restaurant and watching the meter carefully because he needed to keep enough cash on him to get another ride home.
Once he arrived, Gordon went inside and looked around. It was promising, there were still people dining here but the sight of so many empty tables was gut wrenching for him. He walked straight to the kitchens and it was an even more surreal sight, for it was almost empty as well.
“Hey,” Gordon caught their attention, “how’s it all going?”
“Slowly,” replied Gina, who was the Executive Chef here, “but we’re holding on, any idea when things might pick up?”
“Soon,” Gordon promised her, “there’s going to be a film crew in here in the next day or so.”
“Oh, how exciting!” Gina beamed, “so we’ll be on the tele?”
“Yeah,” Gordon spoke confidently, “we’ll be alright. How are the bookings?”
“Not great,” Gina admitted, “but enough to keep us open.”
“Good, good.. “ Gordon looked around the kitchen, “let’s make sure they keep coming back for the great food, uh?”
“Of course,” Gina smiled at him, “just wait until they see this place on television, we’ll be swamped again.”
“Just like old times,” Gordon smiled faintly back at her, “has anyone been complaining?”
“Not to my knowledge,” Gina replied, “I think so long as the money keeps flowing, everyone is pretty content to stick around.”
“Excuse me!” one of the other chefs came over, “I’d be here even if the money was lousy, don’t speak for all of us.. Some of us are loyal to Chef Ramsay, not our sodding paychecks!”
“I’m sorry,” Gina apologized quickly, “I was just generalizing.”
“Yeah well, don’t,” the chef grumbled, wandering off to check on his dish.
Gordon was certainly surprised, but this man had his reasons and one of them was that he had accidentally (maybe a little purposefully) done the math one night and realized that Gordon couldn’t possibly have covered their paychecks from the restaurant takings alone. He was actually making up the difference out of his own pocket, just to keep them paid and happy to turn up to work each day.
“Okay,” Gordon looked at Gina, “I’m going to hang about and make sure everything is ship shape for the cameras.”
“Yes Chef,” Gina smiled, loving the fact that their boss was around because he was always very encouraging and helpful when they needed a gentle push in the right direction. She couldn’t wait for the cameras to show up, the whole world would be able to see just what a great guy he was. Gordon loved to be in the kitchen, he gave brilliant advice and while he was strict and firm, he never shouted or really swore at the chefs for any reason and it made for quite the harmonious workplace. Customers were never left waiting, nobody sent food back and everyone left with a smile and a full stomach. Gordon started out well enough, ensuring things were clean and nothing was needing repairs, but he soon fell back into place and was in the kitchen to help out with the orders for the better part of the day. It was an efficient and smooth kitchen, everything went like clockwork and they even had time to make jokes and laugh while they cooked.
Gordon’s presence made for a pleasant change, he always had the most amusing things to tell them and they all loved his sense of humor. Gina was confident that the show was going to focus on their excellent dynamics and the entertainment factor would be a lot of fun to make people want to cook or dine out in their restaurant. They had no idea whatsoever that this show was going to change everything in such a big way, that they wouldn’t even recognize their beloved Chef in as little as six months..
*
That evening, after Gordon had managed to get a lift home with someone who lived not far from his apartment, he went inside and began to prepare dinner for himself and Krista tonight. He actually caught himself whistling and humming and even smiling as he breezed around the kitchen. He was so pleased to have been back at work, even just for the day and the promise of a paid television appearance was definitely something to look forward to. Things were starting to look up and as he flicked on the radio to find a music station to listen to while he fired up the stove, news of the recession finally coming to an end just made him cheer up a lot more. Good things were finally on the horizon, now if he could just hang in there a bit longer, he may not have to sell the restaurant after all.
*
Across the hall, Krista just got back and was taking a quick shower. She wasn’t at all happy today, because Jazi had made her argue about the whole rape thing again and then she’d stormed out and worked on the other side of the hotel for the rest of the day. Krista sighed heavily, so much for loyalty and friendship, even the police had enough to go on in order to either charge Gordon or not and they hadn’t. So what was the fuss? Erica had clearly been lying, because she hadn’t chased it up or complained about nothing getting done. In fact, she hadn’t even mentioned it or behaved any differently since the incident had supposedly occurred. Krista immediately brightened up when she started to do her hair and makeup in anticipation of simply seeing Gordon again. She hadn’t been able to stop thinking about him all day long, worrying too and she hoped he was alright as she crossed the hall and knocked upon his door.
Gordon looked up as he heard the knocking on his door and he set things to a simmer as he went to answer it.
“Ah, just in time,” Gordon smiled at Krista, kissing both of her cheeks in greeting, “come in, I’m almost done.”
Krista walked inside and instantly scented the delicious aroma coming from the kitchen and it filled the entire apartment.
“Oh wow,” she followed him to the kitchen, “what is that wonderful smell?”
“Probably my new cologne,” Gordon spoke amusedly, flashing her a quick smile.
His eyes sparkled and Krista was pleased to note that he was in quite high spirits tonight, but what could have been the cause for such a dramatic shift in his mood?
“Okay funny man,” Krista laughed, “what’s the deal here?”
“I’ve had a good day that’s all,” Gordon admitted, “how was yours, darling?”
He was tasting things as he went along, throwing spoons and forks into the sink while picking up another of each shortly after.
“Not so good as all that,” Krista sighed and hated to bring down his mood, but she had to be honest with him, “Jazi refuses to even speak to me anymore, we’ve been friends for so long, it feels weird not to have her around after work.”
“Oh dear,” Gordon wiped his hands on his towel, “I am sorry, I hope that wasn’t my fault.. “
“It isn’t,” Krista grumbled, “it’s Erica’s.. “
“Ah,” Gordon caught on quickly, “I see. Give her time, see if she comes ‘round.”
Krista nodded, wishing she could feel as chipper as he looked.
“In the meantime,” Gordon was already plating the food, “you’ve always got me.”
Krista smiled at him, she just couldn’t help it and Gordon looked amusedly at her because he loved her smile and would very much like to see it more often. They sat down to eat and Krista couldn’t help but groan at the beautiful tastes she was experiencing. Gordon was looking quite proud of himself, she asked him again about his day and he finally told her what he’d done and she was so pleased for him, she had to sit back and just smile.
“Do you think it’ll turn around now?” she wondered.
“I certainly hope so,” Gordon spoke carefully, “television can make or break you, it all depends on the public’s opinion I suppose.”
“Everyone will love you,” Krista reassured him, “I know I do.. “
Gordon blushed and laughed softly, shaking his head in amusement.
“Would you tell me about her?” Krista ventured gently.
Gordon kept his gaze lowered for a moment, then he looked anywhere except at Krista. Finally, he met her gaze with his own and she knew he was going to say something, he always looked at her when he spoke to her.
“I was going to ask her to marry me,” Gordon admitted, feeling foolish all over again, as if it had just happened this morning, “the day she left me.. “
Krista felt badly for him, it had been that serious?!
“What happened?” she had to know, “why did she leave?”
“It was the money,” Gordon surmised, “when it ran out, so did she. End of story.”
Krista shook her head, it was always about money with some people.
“I’m sorry,” she apologized softly, “that’s pretty harsh.”
Gordon nodded, his gaze lowered again. She could see now why he was so hesitant with her, he was clearly looking for that special someone in his life and not just rebounding or even trying to just score with whoever would lay down with him. She knew then that she needed to be patient with him, he had to be sure that she was the right woman and if he decided that it just wasn’t going to work out, Krista knew she would have to leave him alone so that he could find that lucky so and so and be happy. As long as he was happy, that’s all that mattered and even though she would love for it to be her, she couldn’t choose who his heart belonged to. That was entirely his decision, though she felt that he wasn’t the best judge of character if such a woman had him nearly marrying her.
Still, live and learn, right?
“Gordon,” Krista spoke after a time and she felt her breath stolen away as his blue eyes met with hers, “I just want you to know that whatever happens, you can always count on me. No matter what.”
Gordon hadn’t ever heard that before, it was definitely a new one to his ears, though he had said such a thing himself to others plenty of times. He searched her eyes for a moment, as if trying to decide whether she was lying to him or not.
“Would you like some dessert?” he offered, smiling at her now. Krista leaned forward, pushing her luck a little.
“I’d rather have you,” she spoke in a sultry voice, half closing her eyes and reveling in the deep crimson blush that reached all the way to his ears, relieved to see his shy smile rather than an irritated frown or an awkward shift of his weight. He stood up and Krista helped him to clear the table, then she found the dessert sitting just inside the fridge to keep cool and she got some cream onto the tip of her finger. She closed the fridge and approached Gordon, he closed the dishwasher up and turned around, so Krista dabbed the cream onto the corner of his mouth and leaned in. He was still as she softly kissed at the cream, using her tongue just a little to get it off his mouth and then she smiled at him invitingly.
“You stuck your fingers into the dessert,” Gordon murmured.
“I did,” Krista spoke firmly, “so what of it?”
Gordon tilted his head and looked into her eyes.
“So,” he said softly, “that one’s yours.”
Krista couldn’t help but break down into laughter, he smiled amusedly at her and she silently had to hand it to him, he knew how to defuse a situation he simply wasn’t ready for. Backing down, Krista decided to let him steer the relationship for a while and see where it led them, at least she knew he wasn’t against the idea completely; he just needed more time.
Seconds later, Krista found herself being hoisted up onto the kitchen counter, her legs wrapped around him as he leaned over her and they kissed deeply. She ran her fingers through the hair at the back of his head, gripping it tightly and sighing into his mouth with pleasure. Gordon’s arms were embracing her tightly, his tongue in her mouth and his hips carefully rolling to entice her into moving with him. It was such a blatant tease but she didn’t mind one bit, it was what she’d wanted, what she’d asked for just moments ago. Gordon really didn’t want to regret this, he closed his eyes, went for it and hoped that he hadn’t got it wrong this time.
Erica, Gertie, now Krista. Surely third time was truly the charm, he wasn’t sure he could handle another rejection or failed relationship in such quick succession. It’d scar him deeply, possibly turning him off looking to settle down with anyone and sending him out there to find loose women every so often, just to satisfy his urges but it’d never make him happy the way a relationship did. Gordon was a caring and quite doting person and he was very lavish with his affection. He would tell you straight up what he thought and felt, no matter what the situation and there was no room for trying to decipher what he meant by his words.
Krista hadn’t known him for very long, but he was so straight forward with her that she felt as though she knew him quite well and she certainly felt attracted to his personality. The fact that he was handsome, had great hair, stunning blue eyes and a triathlon toned and tanned body was pure bonus and judging by the way his jeans bulged just now, Krista didn’t need to guess that he was very well endowed on top of all that. Jazi had accused her of only feeling sorry for Gordon, but here he was, looking up and cheerful yet she still found herself almost magnetically drawn to him. If only she could make everyone see her true feelings towards him, but it was Gordon she needed to convince of her intentions to stay with him, not everybody else.
Krista felt herself growing wet at his rubbing against her, his rock hard member pressing in between her legs as they kissed more passionately and she heard him grumble a soft moan deep in his throat. Still fully clothed, they could only go so far out here in the kitchen and Krista slipped her hands up under his shirt. Gordon broke the kiss only briefly, to help her lift it up over his head and then he resumed kissing her, unbuttoning her blouse now with his fingers quickly. Krista ran her hands over his fit torso, laying claim to him as she explored and memorized every inch of his upper body. Their relationship had only just begun, but she was already determined that no other woman would ever touch her man this way ever again.
Unaware that he was now owned, Gordon drew back and looked into her eyes as he took off her blouse and Krista blushed as she reached back and undid her bra, letting it slip down from her body. His gaze was appreciative as he took her in for a moment, she smiled as his hand softly caressed her face rather than just diving into her breasts right away.
“I love to be in the kitchen darling, but not like this,” Gordon spoke to her in a deep, breathy voice that thrilled her immensely.
“We should go to the bedroom then,” Krista said to him softly, touching the hand that was on her cheek and turning her head to kiss his palm.
His expression became hazy as she did this and Krista met his half closed eyes with her own, excited to learn that she could turn him on with such a simple gesture for it meant that he was really into her and not just doing it to make her happy. Gordon smiled against her cheek as he picked her up, showing off just a little as he carried her to the bedroom. Krista squeaked when he first lifted her up, nervous that he might drop her but he acted as though she weighed less than a cat and it made her feel more secure and able to relax, kissing his mouth before they even got to the bedroom door.
As with any new person, Gordon was unsure of what she liked or disliked, so he was keen to take his time and learn her body. Krista lay back into the pillows and they shed the rest of their clothes, Gordon climbed over her and started to trail kisses down her neck and body, running his hands over her to try and get a feel for where she liked to be touched the most.
“Oohh baby,” Krista couldn’t help but moan, her back arching at the tenderness and softness of his gentle caresses, “baby, mmm.. “
Gordon uttered a deep hum in response, his eyes closing as he enjoyed her vocals and began to massage her inner thighs with his thumbs. Exploring her was a real treat for him, to touch and taste every inch of her and to hear and feel how she reacted to what he was doing. Krista had never really done this before, he was taking his time and she appreciated the slow pace for now, it was driving her wild and causing her to lust and ache for him to take her down onto the bed and just completely dominate her into submission.
She wanted him so badly to leave her panting and satisfied, he clearly knew how to work a woman up into a near frenzy with the slightest and simplest of touches. But that was Gordon all over, back to basics, find something simple and dish it up in an exciting new way. It was something that had garnered success from several of his restaurants, before the recession broke everything down all around the country. It’d serve him well in the years to come though, for he was a stickler for perfection and stubbornly refused to change his way of doing things when it came to the food itself.
“Krista.. “ he groaned her name, as she had started to press her fingers deeply into his upper back and was working out a few of those knotted up, tense muscles she had located there, “ohh God.. “
“You’re so tense!” Krista spoke softly, able to recompose herself as she’d made him stop moving.
Gordon was enjoying the way she made his tension relax, he was always putting too much pressure on himself and was quite unable to be still for any more than five minutes, tops. Krista sat up and Gordon looked at her curiously.
“What’s wrong?” he asked her.
“Could I give you a massage?” Krista wondered.
“Only if it’s a sexy one,” Gordon smiled at her amusedly, “and only if I can give you one after.”
“Alright,” Krista felt her cheeks burning red, “I think it’ll be good for us.. but why does it need to be sexy?”
“Because,” Gordon carefully lay down onto his front, “I always fall asleep.”
Krista giggled and felt better as he grinned and blushed, she thought about placing something over his butt and then chose not to as she got her bottle of massage body oil and began to pour some onto his back. Gordon closed his eyes, feeling her firm but gentle prodding deep into his back, shoulders and neck. Krista bit her bottom lip at the soft groans he uttered, they were almost guttural and it made her shiver with excitement. She caught a few muffled expletives into the pillows, then the five minutes was up and he became instantly restless, sitting up and cutting the massage abruptly short.
“Hey!” Krista mock scolded him, “I wasn’t fin-mmff!”
He was kissing her now, mouth pressed firmly to hers and she reached down to give his erection a squeeze with her oiled up hands. A surprised moan escaped him and she smiled against his lips, feeling the hardened member throb in her palm. Somehow, she got the feeling that she wasn’t going to get to finish what she had started but she could live with that. Gordon was far too energetic to just lay there, he just felt lazy and if he didn’t fall asleep within five minutes then he never actually stayed for the entire massage anyway. Krista felt his mouth on her neck, then her shoulder and she moaned softly as his hands ran up over her thighs towards her soft mound of curls. How she had ended up on her back with him poised over her was beyond Krista, he’d moved so fast and it thrilled her deep down that he was taking control. A soft sigh escaped her as he resumed exploring her body, touching, tasting and nibbling her all over.
“Ooohh, baby.. “ Krista moaned and raised her hips, as his tongue ran over her soft folds and she bucked involuntarily when the tip of his tongue flicked out onto her sensitive nub, “just like.. like thaaat! Oohh!!”
He was grasping her buttocks now, she relaxed her legs and surrendered to his relentless attack on her most delicate areas, mewling loudly as she reached down and ran her fingers through his hair. As she approached climax, her fingers curled and she pulled hard, eliciting a grunt from him but she was too close to the edge to stop and apologize. He carefully stopped and reclaimed her parted lips with his own, pushing into her entrance and starting to thrust with her movements right away. She wrapped her arms and legs around him tightly, ensuring there would be no escape as she devoured his kisses almost feverishly. She tore away from his mouth and arched as she screamed into orgasm, his lips now on her neck and shoulder as he breathed heavily in response to her sudden clamping around his engorged member.
As her climax hit it’s peak, Krista startled Gordon by surging upwards and pinning him underneath her. She rolled her hips and thrust them firmly, reaching behind herself to gently fondle his sensitive scrotum. Gordon moaned and writhed under her touch, he grasped the wrist of her free hand and dragged her hand firmly over his chest. His back arched and she fingered his nipple curiously, encouraged by the soft hiss of ‘yess’ and leaning down to suckle it out of interest.
“Fuck!” Gordon swore and Krista gasped as he grabbed her hips and held her tightly as he came hard inside of her, his head thrown back and eyes rolling closed in sheer pleasure. Watching his face as he came was such a treat, Krista very nearly climaxed a second time just seeing and hearing his release. He was very vocal and unabashedly so, it sent shivers and thrills of delight all through her body and made her feel quite hot indeed. She lay down on top of him and he rolled her over so they were facing one another on their sides, her legs still wrapped around his middle so that he was still nestled deeply inside of her. She gazed into his eyes and he smiled warmly at her, already madly in love and completely under her spell but angry with himself for being such an easy target for manipulative women.
His heart raced as he imagined all kinds of things she might use as an excuse to stop seeing him now, but as she snuggled up into his embrace, those fears simply melted.. and so did he. Krista smiled as she felt his body relax, she closed her eyes and sighed happily. She felt him kiss the top of her head, so she planted soft kisses onto his chest in return. The message between them was loud and clear, he may be the dominant one but at the end of the day, he answered to her. Gordon was a bit less dominant among his peers, but that was all going to change very soon, as were a lot of things. He was just getting started, now was the time to either hold on tight and just go with him or get left behind and watch him ascend to his inevitable greatness.
Neither of them had a clue of course, which made what they had with one another extra special. She loved him for who he was on the inside, she had met him as a man who had almost given up on himself and she had helped him to pull up out of his sinking spiral into despair. Gordon would never forget that and while his love and loyalty was it’s own reward in Krista’s mind, he was devoted to her and wouldn’t ever stop doing what he loved now that she’d shown him and reminded him just how much his life really mattered. Everything he did from here on in would be for her, for himself as well but mostly just for her. Gordon put everything he had into making a relationship work, his whole heart and all. It left him vulnerable and at his lover’s mercy, she would have him on his knees with the flick of her wrist and she would hold all the power that was so willingly given to her.
Gertie had been the only serious relationship he’d ever had and he’d been so close to proposing to her, it was little wonder he’d been hurting so badly. Krista felt like she was home when she stayed at his apartment, so getting to sleep was really easy for her and she listened to his heart beating while she drifted off.
“I feel like you’re my whole world,” she whispered softly, but Gordon was already sound asleep.
*
Over the next several weeks, Krista and Gordon bonded and got closer. He wasn’t always at home quite so much anymore, so they had a chance to miss each other and Krista found that it just made Gordon twice as affectionate. He was always bright and bubbly when she came over to see him, despite his tiredness from filming all day. Krista enjoyed hearing about everything that had gone on and no matter how boring her own day had been, Gordon listened intently to her when she spoke and she easily felt as if she were the only person in his life. Indeed Krista was the only important person in Gordon’s life right now, she was his first thought upon waking each morning, his last thought before he fell asleep each night and his every spare thought in between during the rest of the day. Krista wasn’t so easily disciplined with her thoughts, she just couldn’t seem to get him out of her mind at all, so she couldn’t concentrate on anything she was supposed to be doing.
When the program went to air, it got rave reviews in the UK but the Producers called Gordon and explained to him that the US wanted their own version of the same show and he would have to appeal to the American public’s style of entertainment. Gordon readily agreed, but he wasn’t really sure what they meant and signed the contract for the new version of the show. Krista watched every episode as it aired on the television, it showed a relaxed Gordon in the kitchen as he trained his Sous chefs and it was all very light hearted with plenty of laughs and a bit of goofing off. There were a few awkward moments when Gordon got a little huffy and scolded someone, but it was a firm yet gentle tone of voice that he used and he always encouraged them once he’d made his point. It was quite the feel-good show, the food they turned out looked delicious and it was plated amazingly. Likewise, Gordon always came home in high spirits, tired but happy and it drew them closer together than ever before.
About halfway into the US version of the program, Krista began to notice that Gordon’s mood wasn’t so bright and chipper anymore when he got home. She would visit him and he would always greet her lovingly, but he seemed distracted and aloof for much of the time and she had to wonder what was going on with him. She probably should have just asked, but some weeks later when filming had stopped, Gordon slowly began to cheer up again. He was working in his restaurant again, now that the television crews had moved on and it seemed to have helped his mood a great deal. Krista was excited to watch the new show, Gordon asked her not to watch it but she couldn’t understand why, so she did anyway. After the first one was over, she simply figured that perhaps Gordon had been having a bad day and thought nothing of it. After several more episodes of shouting, swearing and getting angry, Krista got the idea that this was what the Producers had meant by changing the show to suit the American viewers. Insults were in plentiful supply, there wasn’t a lot of smiling or joking about because those parts had been edited out of the show completely. It made Gordon appear intense, fierce and dominating.. it was downright scary to watch and eventually, Krista just stopped tuning in each night and avoided it altogether.
Gordon did his ‘I told you so.. ‘ speech and Krista could only laugh at herself, but still she noticed the change in him, subtle yet definitely there. He carried himself more confidently, talked to people without even the slightest hint of fear and Krista also noticed the change in other people’s reactions to him as well. People were taking notice and while that was ultimately a good thing in regards to his fame factor, Krista worried that it might all go to his head. Gordon was growing as a person, but he always kept himself humble in Krista’s presence, only ever wanting to please her and make her happy the way she did so for him. When they kissed, he couldn’t resist her and she could have said anything to him and he would have agreed to it. Krista loved walking into the room wherever Gordon was, because no matter what he was doing or who he was with, he’d always look up at her and acknowledge her with his bright blue eyes and a smitten smile. After a year together, she wasn’t sure that she liked his attitude towards certain people anymore but she knew that she loved him and he made it no secret that he was utterly helpless to feel anything but complete devotion towards her in return. Getting to know him was like knowing two different people, there was Chef Ramsay and there was Gordon - her Gordon, the one who cuddled up with her at night and told her how much he loved her.
Krista never got tired of hearing him talk to her about how he felt, he was quickly gaining a reputation for being a swearing, shouting Chef and people were beginning to become afraid of him. He was intimidating, short fused and bad tempered but Krista never saw it at home, only on that damn television series. His confidence continued to grow until even those who would have once put him in his place, were wary about making him lose his temper and kept their manners about them whenever they ran into him. Something she discovered about Gordon, was that he absolutely hated to lose anything. It really got to him and it was easy to tell that it cut him quite deeply, no matter how hard he tried to act as though it was only a bit of an irritation. Krista didn’t blame him, she couldn’t.. He’d lost so much in such a short time, but he was fast making up for that and by the end of their second year together, he’d made his first million, had bought a house, a car and something else that Krista was about to discover one night, when Gordon was treating her to dinner at one of his restaurants, for he had managed to reopen a few of them by now.
When Gordon suddenly got down on bended knee and revealed a diamond ring to Krista, she was lost for all words except one.
“Yes!” she cried, tears in her eyes as he looked relieved and placed it onto her finger. She hugged him tightly and cheers erupted all around them, the press had a field day announcing the private moment to the world and that was when Krista got her first taste of being annoyed with the media.
“We’d have announced it in our own time,” Gordon grumbled the next morning, “now our friends and families have to read about it in the fucking paper!”
Krista leaned over him from behind and kissed his cheek, taking the newspaper out of his hands.
“They’ll understand,” Krista tried to defuse the situation, “everyone knows what the media’s like, Gordon. It’s all about getting the story first and sensationalizing everything.”
He sighed and leaned back, looking at her with an expression of defeat.
“Move in with me,” Gordon said suddenly, catching her completely off guard, “please Krista, it’s so fucking lonely here without you.”
“I don’t know what to say,” Krista gushed, “are you sure you want this?”
Gordon stood up and took her hands into his, lifting them up to kiss her fingers softly.
“More than you know,” Gordon answered her firmly, “please darling, please sweetheart, move in with me.. “
Krista beamed at him and giggled at his pleading voice, eliciting a withering look from Gordon.
“I’m sorry honey,” Krista apologized, “I didn’t mean to laugh at you, but having you begging me for something is a serious power trip, you know.. “
Gordon looked like he wanted to argue with her, but he didn’t because he knew it was quite possibly the truth. He backed down from nobody, his mere presence when he entered a room these days was intimidating and everyone took notice no matter where he was or who they were with. When it came to the one and only Chef Gordon Ramsay, Krista was likely the only person on the planet who could get away with.. well, just about anything really.
“Will you at least think it over?” Gordon asked her, as she put her arms around his neck and he had to bend down a little for her or she’d have her feet off the ground, “uh?”
“I already have thought about it,” Krista kissed his lips briefly, smiling up at his sparkling blue eyes, “and I think that if you feel like you’re ready to take that step, then I am too.”
Gordon picked her up to hug her and she gave a squeal of delight, giggling as she wrapped her legs around him and he supported her by placing his hands under her ass while they kissed lightly. Gordon was always happiest when he got what he wanted, especially when it came to Krista because, by now, she was the only person who could tell him ‘no’ with any ounce of confidence.
The kiss slowly deepened and she closed her eyes, his own eyes rolled shut and he felt her sigh into his mouth. Krista thrilled when she heard a soft moan escape from his throat, tightening her legs around his midsection and grinding herself into his bulging erection through their clothes.
“Darling, I can’t.. “ Gordon withdrew from the kiss and gazed heatedly into her eyes, “I’ve got to go and.. huhh.. “
Krista rolled her hips more provocatively, making his eyes roll briefly.
“Mmm.. Meet with the.. uhh.. “ Gordon tried again, but his focus was quickly diminishing, “fuck it.. “
He turned and headed for the downstairs bedroom, with Krista now sucking at his neck and nibbling at his ear. Gordon lay her down onto the bed, but was still trapped between her legs as she hadn’t unwrapped them from his waist yet and so he had to lay down on top of her but carefully. He was easily over six foot tall and he didn’t want to accidentally squash her under the weight of his muscles. She managed to get his shirt off and they were making out quite heatedly, when his phone suddenly started to buzz. Gordon fumbled around in his pocket for a moment, his lips never leaving hers and she heard him press the button to switch his phone off before it then tumbled to the floor softly and he slipped her shirt up over her head.
Krista moaned as his mouth shifted down to her breasts, his hands now gripping her thighs tightly and pushing them apart demandingly. Krista relaxed and let him have his way with her, being in control was nice but sharing control with him was even better. There were areas of the relationship that Gordon had not yielded to her, the kitchen being one of them and his career being another. She had no say in either of those, though she found ways to sway his final decision in whatever he was contemplating if she deemed it important enough to interfere. It didn’t take him long to have her completely naked, his head down between her legs as she arched and bucked in response to his languid tonguing.
When her cries hit a certain note, Gordon rid himself of his pants and Krista rolled over. He grasped her hips, pushing his erection through her slick folds and into her waiting entrance.
“Gordon!” Krista threw back her head and called his name, feeling his chest come to rest upon her back and his hands slip down to squeeze and massage her breasts as he thrust harder into her. His breath came out in short bursts, gentle grunts and groans escaping every so often to thrill and excite her. Krista lowered her head, soon feeling his hot, wet kisses on the back of her neck and she moaned into the pillows, then she turned her head and sighed audibly. Her breath caught in her throat as he groaned suddenly, right into her ear and her body tensed up into the onset stages of imminent orgasm.
“Babbyy!!” Krista cried out to Gordon, suddenly up on all fours and pressing upwards and backwards into him. He placed pressure upon her top half, forcing her back down but keeping her rear end up for him to continue thrusting into her easily.
“Ah, uhh.. “ Gordon clenched his jaw firmly, his hard member pulsing and throbbing inside of her as they simultaneously lost control and came together. Krista couldn’t help but call out his name, her head thrown back in complete submission to him as he pulled her up against his chest.
“Gordon.. “ Krista whispered, “I love you so much.. “
He kissed her neck and she relaxed into his warm embrace.
“I love you too, darling,” Gordon murmured against her heated cheek.
“Would you scream it to the world?” Krista wondered.
“I just did,” Gordon said to her softly and when she got it, Krista blushed and smiled as they lay down together and cuddled for a while, neither of them in a hurry to be apart anytime soon. Gordon didn’t have to scream anything to anyone but her, nobody else’s opinion on how he felt towards Krista mattered. She felt humbled that he’d consider her to be his whole world, she knew he loved her but today she was only just learning that she didn’t even have the slightest inkling of just how much.
Krista half expected Gordon to switch his phone back on and try to make it to his meeting, a little late perhaps but he could still get there if he hurried. Gordon pulled her tighter into his embrace and softly kissed her lips, she relaxed and sighed dreamily, he obviously wasn’t in any hurry to leave the bed while she was in it. She felt secure in that she came first before anything else, but also a little guilty that he’d missed what might have been an important meeting.
“Honey,” Krista spoke softly, “should you be calling someone right now?”
“Not right now, no,” Gordon answered her firmly, “but I’ll just reschedule for a later date, darling. There’s no harm done.”
“I’m glad,” Krista smiled at him, not wanting to get him into trouble but Gordon was his own boss now and not only starred in the television shows but he was negotiating for both the Producer’s and the Director’s job so that he could have more say in what went on. It also meant longer hours, more work and a bigger paycheck, which added to his already increasing stress load. Coming home was his only refuge, he could just be himself here and try to relax and wind down. The first thing he did after a shower every time he got back, was seek out Krista’s embrace. Cuddling up with her was the second most stress relieving activity that he loved to indulge in, both cooking and sex were tied for first place.
Krista was just happy to be there with him and she didn’t even need to work anymore, which was great because she was planning on starting a family if all went well after the wedding.
“Gordon?” Krista wondered, “do you ever see yourself having children someday soon?”
Gordon was silent for a moment.
“I don’t think so, no,” he responded honestly.
“Why not?” Krista was curious.
“I’m a man,” Gordon spoke firmly, “we don’t do that.”
Krista started to giggle and playfully punched him in the arm.
“Ow!” Gordon rubbed it as he laughed and pretended that it had actually hurt him, “hey!”
“You know what I mean!” Krista smiled at him.
“Alright, alright,” Gordon relented, “of course I do, darling.. I can hardly wait!”
Krista was a little surprised, she’d never seen how he interacted with kids and she assumed he wasn’t overly interested in the subject, but Gordon seemed to simply light up at the idea.
“Why?” he asked her curiously, “did you want to wait?”
“I don’t want to wait,” Krista answered him with a kiss to his cheek.
"So.. You want to stop using protection then?” Gordon asked her.
Krista nodded silently, reveling in the brilliant and excited grin he flashed her in that next moment. Gordon wanted to do backflips, he was so enthusiastic just then that he couldn’t stop smiling at her. Not only was his career back on track, but he was fast becoming very sought after and highly paid for doing what he loved and then he got to come home and be with the woman who had made his life whole again. It was difficult to believe that just two short years ago, he was unconscious in the gutter and ready to just pack it all in. Now he was engaged to be married and already talking about babies, he wondered if life could get any better than this?
“Let’s set a date for the wedding then,” Krista suggested, “I don’t fancy looking bloated when we’re getting married.”
“You won’t look bloated, darling,” Gordon kissed her lips briefly, “you’ll fucking glow.”
Krista rolled her eyes, he was such a massive dork and a total sap but she loved him immensely for it because it was his real self and not the TV personality that most people saw. Gordon’s friends and people who actually met him, got to know him as a very friendly and honest guy. Krista was in two minds about his big heart though, she honestly believed that he cared way too much about other people and it was just more added stress for him. If he was approached to get involved with a charity, he would and sometimes, he even created his own fundraiser for a good cause whenever the inspiration struck him just right.
“Will you be serious for a minute?” Krista asked him.
“No, baby,” Gordon nuzzled her neck and she closed her eyes, “come on, let’s start trying right away.. “
“Gordon!” Krista squirmed and giggled, as he grabbed and groped at her playfully.
“What’s wrong?” Gordon wondered.
“We can just let it happen,” Krista insisted, “if we try, it’ll only make us get frustrated and disappointed if it doesn’t happen right away.”
“I suppose you’re right,” Gordon agreed, the last thing he wanted to do was make sex a chore, “are you hungry? I can make something for lunch.. “
“It’s barely ten,” Krista slowly sat up out of his arms, “why don’t you go on and make that call first?”
Gordon was reluctant, he’d just made up his mind to spend his entire day with her and he was still excited about Krista bringing up the subject of starting a family. It was the only thing missing in his life anymore, he had so much love to give, enough for Krista and at the very least.. perhaps three or even four children.
“Aw, don’t pout,” Krista grabbed his chin and smiled amusedly at him.
“I’m not pouting,” Gordon threw back the sheets, “but I do have a surprise for you if you listen.”
Krista was intrigued now, what could he possibly have planned for her? Gordon collected his phone and sat back on the bed, leaning into the pillows. He switched it on and dialled a number, Krista reached down and began stroking his semi erect member as he spoke quietly with someone and Gordon struggled not to moan as his face flushed in both amusement and mild embarrassment. He pitched an idea and the man on the other end seemed to really like it, Krista was wide eyed because it involved Gordon travelling all over the world to learn different methods and styles of cooking, as well as new recipes for his restaurant menus.
But the real kicker was the part at the end, where Gordon insisted that she came along with him. Krista was speechless, Gordon seemed pleased and she knew in that instant what his answer had been.
“So it’s definitely a go?” Gordon confirmed.
Krista watched him intently, Gordon nodded and smiled brightly. It wasn’t going to happen right away, but the wheels had been set in motion and all they had to do was work out the finer details. Gordon set the phone down and leaned in to kiss deeply with Krista, who was still stroking and gently squeezing his fast growing erection. She sighed happily as he withdrew, lowered his head and groaned, it was so hard to resist him when he made that sound and Krista was soon pushing him down into the bed so that she could straddle him.
“Yeah?” Gordon grasped her hips and looked up into her eyes, questioning her.
“Yes,” Krista smiled back at him, confirming her desire to make love without protection.
Gordon sat up to kiss her passionately, pulling her down with him as she straddled his lap and lay chest to chest on top of him with his arms tightly around her in a loving embrace.
“I love making love with you,” Krista smiled as she drew back and regarded Gordon with affection.
“Mmm, then don’t keep me waiting.. “ Gordon murmured back, pulling her in for another long, passionate kiss.
Krista sighed dreamily and ran her hands over his well built body, there was not an inch of him that she didn’t adore. A knock soon had them sitting up and frowning, who could it be? Krista had a whole new circle of friends since being with Gordon, some of whom were celebrities, their partners and other people that Gordon kept in touch with. She hadn’t heard from Erica nor Jazi for a long time, they had both moved and never bothered to tell her where.
“Shouldn’t you answer it?” Krista asked him.
“No,” Gordon started kissing her neck, making her lose focus on who it might be but this was his house and not hers, so he called the shots right now.
“Oh God that feels so good.. “ Krista breathed heavily, “oohh.. “
His soft hum in response made her eyes close and she relaxed into his embrace, his teeth and tongue on her exposed throat were tantalizingly erotic. The knock had only sounded twice, then stopped because Gordon’s friends were a lot more polite than any of Krista’s had ever been. Hers would have just kept knocking, then they’d have checked the windows and called through the mail slot. Gordon was obviously home because his car was in the driveway, but that didn’t mean he wasn’t indisposed and he knew they’d come back later if it was important. He encouraged her to get onto all fours, ducking his head down to eat her out from behind.
Krista swooned and buried her face into the pillows, moaning loudly as he tongue fucked her and feeling his strong hands prising her open and holding her firmly. Soon, she was trembling and quaking with imminent release and she had figured out a while back that Gordon would do this each time he wanted to make love, because of his well endowed size and it helped her to receive him. She cried out in pleasure as he took hold of her hips, his erection now pushing into her trembling folds. Moving easily within her slick walls, Gordon closed his eyes and groaned deeply at the pleasurable sensation. Krista moaned with each breath she let out, they were soft and desperate, turning him on so that he clenched his jaw and breathed heavily. She felt his cock throb and pulse deeply inside of her, slipping in further each time she relaxed her inner muscles until his soft scrotum was touching her and she knew he was all the way in.
“Oh God, babyyy.. “ Krista moaned, her eyes rolling and her mouth slightly open, “ohh.. oh God, yes.. yes!”
His thrusts were getting more powerful, Krista moaned louder to encourage him and was surprised at just how gentle such a muscular man could be, even when he was excited. His grip on her was firm, but not painful and his thrusts were strong but pleasing rather than rough. Control over his body was definitely something he had clearly become masterful of, she had to wonder then if there was anything Gordon Ramsay wasn’t good at? It made her smile internally, as her lips were too busy moaning to comply with the thought. She slid her hand down to where she could feel his shaft entering into her, placing her fingers on either side of his slickened member and squeezing them together firmly. It provided friction as he pulled out and thrust back in, he hadn’t ever experienced this before and it caught him off guard.
Krista reveled in the surprised groan of pleasure she elicited from Gordon, his breathy moans fuelling her building orgasm as he lost some of his self control. It made her feel good to be able to unhinge him like that, sex was better if it was unpredictable and she was keen to explore many different things in bed with him.
“Kristahh!” Gordon groaned towards the end of her name, as she began to fondle his balls and his hot, heavy breathing was now made louder with raspy moans as he thrust faster. She whined desperately as she felt his fingers now slicking over her sensitive nub, stroking it just right and she was soon streaming her arousal juices all down his rigid length. Gordon swore, his breathing ragged as he suddenly exploded inside of her, eyes shut tight and jaw closed firmly. Krista wailed and threw back her head, her body jolting and her inner walls clamping tightly around his releasing cock. She called his name at the top of her lungs, unhindered now that they were no longer in an apartment building with thin walls.
“Yesss!” Gordon hissed, gripping her securely and ensuring he filled her with his love until it overflowed down onto her thighs and the sheets. Krista slowly relaxed, he was rubbing her upper back and shoulders whilst grinding against her, coming down from his high and groaning deeply in satisfaction. Krista felt happy, she couldn’t help but smile and close her eyes. He didn’t just fuck and go, he spent time with her afterwards and it made all the difference to her. Gordon eventually pulled out of her and they cuddled together, kissing deeply and passionately while he fondled and squeezed her breasts. She sighed into the kiss and hummed quietly, her tongue meeting with his and sparking a deep, rumbling groan from his throat. He could easily go again in a little while, but he waited to see if she’d had enough first before suggesting round three.
Gordon could go all night if he didn’t get too tired from working his long hours, they had actually done it once or twice and Krista always woke up the next day with her legs so tired that she couldn’t walk properly for a few days afterwards. That was essentially an ego boost for Gordon, though he never teased her about it, he just wore this smug grin and she just couldn’t scold him for it because he was just so adorable. She drew back slowly from his lips, gazing into his heated stare with a smile and he touched her mouth with his fingertips, his gaze now fixated upon her lips.
“Baby.. I’ve never seen you lose it like that before.. “ Krista said quietly, flicking out her tongue over his fingers and watching his breath catch in his throat. She enjoyed arousing him, teasing him and turning him on, knowing she was the only one who could ever touch him in this way ever again. Sure, others may try to get him in the mood and perhaps they might even succeed, but he would seek her out and that was the main thing, that he had his sex at home. She could get used to the flirting, he was a very friendly man and women practically tripped over themselves to get close to him once they discovered how nice he was. But that wedding band meant something to her and she trusted that it’d mean something to him as well, once it was on his finger. Right now, their loyalty to one another was symbolized only by their love and trust. It was plenty enough but the ring should discourage others whenever Krista wasn’t around to dissuade the actively flirting women (and sometimes men!) from trying to get Gordon to come home with them.
“You do the most amazing things to me, sweetheart,” Gordon admitted softly, bringing her back from her thoughts, “I’ve never felt so powerless in someone’s arms before.”
Krista snuggled up and rubbed her cheek against his chest, she didn’t want him to see her eyes wide open in amazement of what he’d just revealed to her.
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