Time will tell
Author: Vallie82
Title: Time will tell
Rating: PG for now
Characters/Pairings: Luke/Reid
Disclaimer: I wish I owned Reid, but sadly not.
Warnings: A bit angsty
Summary: So ofc Luke chose Noah and thought he was gonna live happily ever with his Prince Charming, but as it turns out he can´t stop thinking about Reid and travels to Dallas to see him. Reid on the other hand, is not that interested. Or is he?
AN: So, I never thought this would happen. I haven´t written anything since I was nine years old and wrote the exciting story called: “My sister is a witch” and that was almost 20 years ago. And clearly not in english since my spelling and grammar is beyond bad, but I couldn´t get this out of my head and decided to give it a shot. The idea was not to write it like this, but Luke jumped right in my head, so I had no choice. The next chapter (if there will be one) will be from Reid´s POV, but hopefully not in me-form. I am pretty nervous about posting this, since there are a lot of talented writers here, but tell me what you think and if you would like me to continue.
I almost felt like I was going to be sick while I was sitting there waiting for him. My palms where beyond sweaty and the butterflies in my stomach where doing some kind of nervous dance that wasn´t at all pleasant. I kept repeating what I wanted to say in my head, and I really hoped that when I got the chance to finally talk to him my brain wouldn´t go totally blank and forget the speech I had repeated over and over in my head the last weeks.
And there he was, coming out from an examination room, wearing his blue scrubs which made my heart beat faster. Even if I had been thinking about him constantly, I had almost forgotten how incredible hot he looked in scrubs. He stopped almost right in front of me, making some notes on the clipboard in his hand and I got even more nervous then I was before. I opened my mouth to say his name but nothing came out and I realize I have been holding my breath since he walked out of the room. I quickly inhale and try again.
“Reid..?”
His hand suddenly stops writing and I can see his shoulders tense. It almost takes ten seconds before he looks up and his blue eyes (oh my god, his beautiful eyes) meets mine for the first time in five months, eleven days and seven hours, give or take. For a second I think I can see hurt in his eyes but it´s gone so quickly it could just have been my imagination.
”You have got to be kidding me! Seriously, is there no place in the entire world I could go to and not having to see you?” He raises his eyebrows and his voice is just as snarky as I remembered.
Hearing it again makes my knees weak and I just want too throw myself at him, hold him tight and beg him to never leave again. But I can´t do that.
I clear my throat and tries to smile, but I fail miserably when I realize that he isn´t joking.
“I need to talk to you Reid.”
“Mr. Snyder, I have nothing to say to you, and to be honest, there is nothing you could possibly say that I would find even remotely interesting.”
I knew this would be hard, and I knew he would be cold and angry but I didn´t realize how much it would hurt to hear him call me Mr. Snyder again.
“Please don´t call me that”, I say with a low and almost pleading voice but he just keeps staring at me so I continue: “Please Reid, could you just hear me out? There are a few things I would like to say to you.”
“Like I said, unless you are here to discuss some medical…”
“Please, I beg you.” I cut him off, knowing a broken heart and a mind full of regrets isn´t considered a medical issue in Reid Oliver’s world.
He looks at me for a moment before he sighs and says: “Five minutes Mr. Snyder, I have rounds to make.”
He turns his back to me and walks over to his office. I follow him and close the door behind me. He sits down in his office chair and I don´t know if I should sit down opposite of him or stand up so I flinch a little before deciding to sit.
“Soo”, I say, “how have you been?”
He gives me that are-you-an-idiot-look he is so good at, and folds his arms.
“You actually flew all the way here to ask me how I am feeling? I hope you do know that you could just have asked Katie and saved yourself the time.”
I sigh, “I wanted to see you.”
“Well, now you have. And to answer your question, I am doing just fine. The last months have been free from blackmailing brats and chief-of-staffs trying to dictate my life. Also, not having to spend my entire time in that depressing hellhole that calls itself a town is a relief.”
I can´t help but smile. Of course Reid wouldn´t miss Oakdale, he never made it a secret how much he hated the small town where everybody knew each other. My smile quickly vanishes when I remember that he was actually considering staying there because of me. This incredible beautiful, talented and hot-as-hell man wanted me, and what did I do? I freaked out and ran back to what I knew was safe. I can´t believe I blew it.
Five months, eleven days and seven hours earlier
“So, you and Noah are back together?” Reid´s voice was completely blank from emotions, it sounded almost casual.
“I am sorry Reid, I just feel like I should give him another chance, I mean we belong together, we are supposed to love each other forever... You know?” My voice on the other hand was anything but casual, it felt like I had to force the words out of my mouth. I couldn´t bare looking at him, I was just as afraid of seeing pain caused by me in his eyes, as I was afraid to not see it. It was selfish, but I wanted to mean something to him.
“Actually I don´t know Luke, and to be honest I don´t really care either, if you want to spend the rest of your life living in some sick fairytale with Mr. Mayer, by all means, don´t let me hold you up.”
“Please Reid, I don’t want to hurt you, I just…” My hand is shaking when I reach out and puts it on his shoulder but he just shrugs it off and backs away. My hand hangs in the air for a short time, my palm burning with desire of touching him again.
“I think you should leave now Luke, I don´t think we have anything else to say to each other.” He walks up to Katie´s door and opens it, and I stumble outside, stops and turns around just in time to get a final glimpse of him before he slams the door in my face.
“If that was all you wanted to know, I actually have work to do now.” Reid’s voice snaps me out of my thoughts. He stands up and starts to gather some files from his desk, dismissively.
“No”, I say, my voice broken, “that is not all I wanted to say. I made a mistake, with Noah.” He clenches his hands when I say the name, but he doesn´t look up or give any other reaction so I continue: “I thought Noah and I were meant to be together forever, but I didn´t… I couldn´t… I just, I don´t love him like that anymore.” I stumble on the words, wanting to say the right thing. I need him to understand.
“So the fairytale didn´t work out? And you have come all the way here to tell me this why?”
“I just, I missed you… So much.” Well, that is an understatement. I haven’t been able to do anything besides thinking of him.
Reid finally looks up and his eyes meet mine. They are totally blank on emotions and I can´t read anything in them. Not anymore.
“Well, I am sorry to say you came here for nothing.” He begins walking to the door.
I stand up and starts to follow him. “What do you mean?” I´m dreading the answer and almost wish I hadn´t asked but the question pops out before I can stop myself.
“I am not interested anymore,” he says and opens the door. “Time´s up.” And he´s gone.
Title: Time will tell
Rating: PG for now
Characters/Pairings: Luke/Reid
Disclaimer: I wish I owned Reid, but sadly not.
Warnings: A bit angsty
Summary: So ofc Luke chose Noah and thought he was gonna live happily ever with his Prince Charming, but as it turns out he can´t stop thinking about Reid and travels to Dallas to see him. Reid on the other hand, is not that interested. Or is he?
AN: So, I never thought this would happen. I haven´t written anything since I was nine years old and wrote the exciting story called: “My sister is a witch” and that was almost 20 years ago. And clearly not in english since my spelling and grammar is beyond bad, but I couldn´t get this out of my head and decided to give it a shot. The idea was not to write it like this, but Luke jumped right in my head, so I had no choice. The next chapter (if there will be one) will be from Reid´s POV, but hopefully not in me-form. I am pretty nervous about posting this, since there are a lot of talented writers here, but tell me what you think and if you would like me to continue.
I almost felt like I was going to be sick while I was sitting there waiting for him. My palms where beyond sweaty and the butterflies in my stomach where doing some kind of nervous dance that wasn´t at all pleasant. I kept repeating what I wanted to say in my head, and I really hoped that when I got the chance to finally talk to him my brain wouldn´t go totally blank and forget the speech I had repeated over and over in my head the last weeks.
And there he was, coming out from an examination room, wearing his blue scrubs which made my heart beat faster. Even if I had been thinking about him constantly, I had almost forgotten how incredible hot he looked in scrubs. He stopped almost right in front of me, making some notes on the clipboard in his hand and I got even more nervous then I was before. I opened my mouth to say his name but nothing came out and I realize I have been holding my breath since he walked out of the room. I quickly inhale and try again.
“Reid..?”
His hand suddenly stops writing and I can see his shoulders tense. It almost takes ten seconds before he looks up and his blue eyes (oh my god, his beautiful eyes) meets mine for the first time in five months, eleven days and seven hours, give or take. For a second I think I can see hurt in his eyes but it´s gone so quickly it could just have been my imagination.
”You have got to be kidding me! Seriously, is there no place in the entire world I could go to and not having to see you?” He raises his eyebrows and his voice is just as snarky as I remembered.
Hearing it again makes my knees weak and I just want too throw myself at him, hold him tight and beg him to never leave again. But I can´t do that.
I clear my throat and tries to smile, but I fail miserably when I realize that he isn´t joking.
“I need to talk to you Reid.”
“Mr. Snyder, I have nothing to say to you, and to be honest, there is nothing you could possibly say that I would find even remotely interesting.”
I knew this would be hard, and I knew he would be cold and angry but I didn´t realize how much it would hurt to hear him call me Mr. Snyder again.
“Please don´t call me that”, I say with a low and almost pleading voice but he just keeps staring at me so I continue: “Please Reid, could you just hear me out? There are a few things I would like to say to you.”
“Like I said, unless you are here to discuss some medical…”
“Please, I beg you.” I cut him off, knowing a broken heart and a mind full of regrets isn´t considered a medical issue in Reid Oliver’s world.
He looks at me for a moment before he sighs and says: “Five minutes Mr. Snyder, I have rounds to make.”
He turns his back to me and walks over to his office. I follow him and close the door behind me. He sits down in his office chair and I don´t know if I should sit down opposite of him or stand up so I flinch a little before deciding to sit.
“Soo”, I say, “how have you been?”
He gives me that are-you-an-idiot-look he is so good at, and folds his arms.
“You actually flew all the way here to ask me how I am feeling? I hope you do know that you could just have asked Katie and saved yourself the time.”
I sigh, “I wanted to see you.”
“Well, now you have. And to answer your question, I am doing just fine. The last months have been free from blackmailing brats and chief-of-staffs trying to dictate my life. Also, not having to spend my entire time in that depressing hellhole that calls itself a town is a relief.”
I can´t help but smile. Of course Reid wouldn´t miss Oakdale, he never made it a secret how much he hated the small town where everybody knew each other. My smile quickly vanishes when I remember that he was actually considering staying there because of me. This incredible beautiful, talented and hot-as-hell man wanted me, and what did I do? I freaked out and ran back to what I knew was safe. I can´t believe I blew it.
Five months, eleven days and seven hours earlier
“So, you and Noah are back together?” Reid´s voice was completely blank from emotions, it sounded almost casual.
“I am sorry Reid, I just feel like I should give him another chance, I mean we belong together, we are supposed to love each other forever... You know?” My voice on the other hand was anything but casual, it felt like I had to force the words out of my mouth. I couldn´t bare looking at him, I was just as afraid of seeing pain caused by me in his eyes, as I was afraid to not see it. It was selfish, but I wanted to mean something to him.
“Actually I don´t know Luke, and to be honest I don´t really care either, if you want to spend the rest of your life living in some sick fairytale with Mr. Mayer, by all means, don´t let me hold you up.”
“Please Reid, I don’t want to hurt you, I just…” My hand is shaking when I reach out and puts it on his shoulder but he just shrugs it off and backs away. My hand hangs in the air for a short time, my palm burning with desire of touching him again.
“I think you should leave now Luke, I don´t think we have anything else to say to each other.” He walks up to Katie´s door and opens it, and I stumble outside, stops and turns around just in time to get a final glimpse of him before he slams the door in my face.
“If that was all you wanted to know, I actually have work to do now.” Reid’s voice snaps me out of my thoughts. He stands up and starts to gather some files from his desk, dismissively.
“No”, I say, my voice broken, “that is not all I wanted to say. I made a mistake, with Noah.” He clenches his hands when I say the name, but he doesn´t look up or give any other reaction so I continue: “I thought Noah and I were meant to be together forever, but I didn´t… I couldn´t… I just, I don´t love him like that anymore.” I stumble on the words, wanting to say the right thing. I need him to understand.
“So the fairytale didn´t work out? And you have come all the way here to tell me this why?”
“I just, I missed you… So much.” Well, that is an understatement. I haven’t been able to do anything besides thinking of him.
Reid finally looks up and his eyes meet mine. They are totally blank on emotions and I can´t read anything in them. Not anymore.
“Well, I am sorry to say you came here for nothing.” He begins walking to the door.
I stand up and starts to follow him. “What do you mean?” I´m dreading the answer and almost wish I hadn´t asked but the question pops out before I can stop myself.
“I am not interested anymore,” he says and opens the door. “Time´s up.” And he´s gone.