Journal Entry : 27 February 2002
This is such a perilous position and I cannot help but think... it's all going to come crashing down on my head sooner rather than later. I had a close call a few days ago and I didn't even tell Severus about it. I didn't want to hear his rebuke or to tell me I was foolish. I had students stay after class with a few questions and I didn't realise the time. They were just closing the door when I could feel my skin begin to bubble. Thankfully they were out of the room.
But god -- it's these close calls that make me so nervous.
One day -- I'm going to make a mistake. I'm only human afterall. well -- as human as a werewolf can be.
The Order seems to think I'm superhuman and will be the one to bring about change and to lead. I'm too far away here at the school and even when Anya is able to make her escape every few days -- I still wonder if it's enough.
It's been quiet on the western front. And that, frankly, worries the hell out of me.
But god -- it's these close calls that make me so nervous.
One day -- I'm going to make a mistake. I'm only human afterall. well -- as human as a werewolf can be.
The Order seems to think I'm superhuman and will be the one to bring about change and to lead. I'm too far away here at the school and even when Anya is able to make her escape every few days -- I still wonder if it's enough.
It's been quiet on the western front. And that, frankly, worries the hell out of me.