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luninosity

and one more new short thing...

Feb 09, 2012 12:35

Yesterday I posted all the happy fluff ever, and then I think my brain rebelled, on the walk to campus, and decided that it was time for something completely different. So...have some rather short, James point-of-view, angst-filled fic? Basically, all of the things I don't normally write for these two? (But I promise that in my head there's more to ( Read more... )

angst, things that are hard to write, roads not taken, fic: james/michael, heartbreak is painful

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nianeyna February 9 2012, 20:53:53 UTC

In a good story, of course, a proper narrative, he’d’ve been in love all along, pining away, or maybe just for so long he hadn’t even noticed it, and maybe it would’ve crept up on him, like the slow caress of a glowing sunrise, or else exploded in some terribly dramatic realization, some horrifying accident on set, a drunken and unexpected kiss, a thunderstorm of comprehension.

lulz i c wat u did thar. XD

More seriously - gah, this is sad. :( Especially cause, (from what little I know about her) James' wife seems super awesome. threesome...?

luninosity February 9 2012, 21:05:53 UTC

CLICHES, YOU SAY? WHAT CLICHES? :D :D

And, yeah, I don't really know where this came from! I think after yesterday's fluffiness, my brain was just like "seriously give us a break please" and demanded a change. And also there's not really enough fic that deals realistically with Anne-Marie being present (and I'm guilty of this too, since mostly I write slightly-AU things in which James isn't married, since that's easier), and I can't do infidelity in fic (that's one of those things that I'd have a hard time forgiving the characters for)...wait, I've lost track of this sentence. Hmm.

Anyway, sorry it is sad, but also kind of nice to hear, since that's what I was going for, with this part? :-) But there are going to be more parts, eventually. I know where it's going, I promise, and it really will end up happy.

And also thanks for reading! First attempt at James-voice. :-p

telperion_15 February 9 2012, 21:22:07 UTC

Meep.

I really think that about covers it.

I'm really interested in seeing where you take this though. I note in the comment above that you say you're guilty of not including Anne-Marie realistically, and to be honest, although I don't write the RPF, I'm guilty of not really wanting to read the fics where she's present, because it makes everything more complicated, and you do either have to deal with infidelity, or them splitting up (and sometimes their kid is involved too), and really I just want everything to be nice and fluffy - or at least, without that kind of angst. So I tend to prefer to live in that AU world too.

But obvs, since it's you, I will of course be reading more when/if it comes - and as I say, very interesting to see what you'll do!

luninosity February 9 2012, 21:35:50 UTC

I think meep just about covers it, too! I just re-read it, and made myself all sad. Now I must write happy things. (Actually, now I must go back to working on my lesson plan for today's Shakespeare class. Yay, Titus Andronicus!)

I'm guilty of not really wanting to read the fics where she's present, because it makes everything more complicated ...oh, me too. That's a different kind of angst (versus the James/Michael pining-for-each-other or amusing misunderstandings), and there's really no good way out without some pain. But I had the idea, and I felt like I should try it at least once--it's a challenge, and also realistic emotions are some of the things I like (and strive for) in fic, and this situation IS a realistic, if horrifically painful, one--so good fic writers (not that I am saying I am one) shouldn't be afraid to try to meet the challenge? And then we can all go back to the happy fluffy AU land of unicorns and kittens ( ... )

telperion_15 February 9 2012, 21:59:37 UTC

I suppose really it's no different to wanting to ignore the canon other-halves of fictional characters when writing slash fiction about them. Only it feels different when it's about other people - it feels like you have to handle it really carefully and respectfully because they are real people (even if, despite the RPF tag, the R part isn't really present in a lot of fics, let's face it) - which sort of takes a bit of the shine/fun out of it.

Or I could stop rambling now... *g*

so good fic writers (not that I am saying I am one) shouldn't be afraid to try to meet the challenge?

Oh, pish... :)

Jesus, he thought. Anyone hearing those thoughts would think he was in love with James.

They'd be right, of course. Which was why no one, not ever, was hearing those thoughts.

*simultaneously snickers and wants to hug Michael* Also, I am wondering if James is suddenly going to have an attack of the green-eyed monsters...?

luninosity February 9 2012, 23:27:19 UTC

Only it feels different when it's about other people - it feels like you have to handle it really carefully and respectfully because they are real people ...yes, I think so, too. Even if most RPS is about fictionalised versions of people anyway (or at least I try to think so), there's still that real person at the center of it, and we have to be considerate of that, because we write what we write out of love. And I do think you're right about it being less 'shiny' when that weight of responsibility is more present (the closer the RPS is to reality, the less shiny it is?) but that's part of the challenge, too: finding the balance point between realism and respect and sparkly fictional fun with characters who are sort-of these people but not really; CAN we still get the sparkly fun even with the increased realism? Or something like that, anyway ( ... )

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avictoriangirl February 9 2012, 21:26:35 UTC

Oh, James. *sobs*

NOW FIX THEM. Please?

luninosity February 9 2012, 21:42:09 UTC

*offers hugs* I will, I promise! Come on, it's me, I couldn't leave them all broken, right? :-) And the singing is going to be a theme. (I think there are three parts, or three moments of realization, anyway.)

I did put up the beginning of a happy thing in the reply right above this, though, if that helps? :-)

avictoriangirl February 10 2012, 14:27:03 UTC

Awww. You being you, I know you'll fix them. *squishes you* Oh, I like the signing being a theme!

♥!!!

luninosity February 11 2012, 00:33:06 UTC

James singing = everything cuddly in the world, right? I'm kind of surprised there's not more of that, in fic. Clearly we need to rectify this lack. :-p ( ... )

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phonejoker February 9 2012, 22:50:07 UTC

Oh my God. This.is.Too.damn.good!!
I knew the exact Moment i Fell in Love with this story and that was exactly when I Read the first sentence xD I Must say that my Love deepened when I Read all of it ;)
I can't express my undying fangirl- love for the interview that you are referring to, it was Funny and Most Beautiful and One of the reasons Why I ship them now :D
I havent Read any fics with relations to the interviews in a while so this was really refreshing and I Fell in Love with their Ship all over again 8D
Please continue this Story and if it is a One-Shot then please Write another Story, I'm excited for more^^
ps: sry for the tiping errors, writing on my iPod ;)

luninosity February 9 2012, 23:30:33 UTC

...and your comment makes me smile, at THIS exact moment, too! :-)

I do love that interview, and also fic that works in the interviews--for those same reasons, because those are the reasons we DO 'ship them. And I love fic that reminds us of that. So I'm so glad it did that for you, too! :-)

There are probably two more parts--they need their happy ending, after all, right? Not sure how soon, though; I need to get back to the Erik/Charles holiday fic...

(and, no worries about typing, that was totally readable! thanks for commenting even from the iPod!)

glisterwolf February 10 2012, 00:13:33 UTC

But... dammit.

That pretty much sums up my reaction reading this heartbreaking fic. I wanted James to be with Michael BUT I really didn't. I wanted him to go drinking with him BUT I really didn't. And dammit, the realities of life (or at least a closer-to-real-life scenario) just SUCK sometimes. Sometimes you're in love with someone and absolutely cannot say anything, ever, because doing so would simply be wrong.

Congrats - you wrote a fic where I was hoping James would NOT jump Michael! Not easy. But infidelity is such a breach of trust, and at the end of the day I want James and Michael to be good and trustworthy people more than I want them to bone.

Great job on the James PoV, it felt very different from your Michael ones but worked really well!!

And I've watched the James/Michael singing on YouTube. Multiple times.

luninosity February 10 2012, 04:08:13 UTC

But... dammit. I think this was exactly how I felt after writing this one! Like, I've just tried to show how perfect they are together...and then taken it away. Do not want! And yes, exactly, too, about the realities ("realities"?) here. Sometimes real, true, heartbreaking situations happen, and there's no good way out, and certainly no way to win. And I think good writers (not that, as I've said somewhere above, I'm claiming to be one) shouldn't be afraid to write those moments, too. Because they are true. (But of course this IS fic, so eventually I'm going to fix them! Because I'm allowed, in my created universe, to give them a happy ending.)

This But infidelity is such a breach of trust, and at the end of the day I want James and Michael to be good and trustworthy people more than I want them to bone. both made me go "aww, yes, EXACTLY" and then giggle and then go "aww..." again. Because yes. Infidelity is one of those things I dislike, in fic, not because it doesn't happen, but because I just can't find the characters ( ... )