The Invisible Wall: CHAPTER 1/ Prologue + 19 [AOI X KAZUKI]
Fiction Title: The Invisible Wall
Chapter Title: Exciting Start. Troubling Ending
Chapters: 1/ Prologue + 19
Author: luna_no_koibito
Genre: Human Drama, Angst, Romance, Introspection
Warnings: Cursing
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Aoi / Kazuki (main), other pairings
Bands: the GazettE, ScReW, Exist Trace
Disclaimer: I don't own them, and don't wish I did because I'd be sorry for what could befall them （・＿・；）！
Summary: Is age just a number systematically given to us by the world we were born into, and which we should calibrate our life by, or, is it just one of those whimsical decisions of faith, which we can't help, but can overlook? 15 year old Kazuki Motohashi is about to live the most interesting one week of his relatively short existence, when by chances, he meets with 30 year old Yuu Shiroyama. A week where time will take a whole different meaning; seconds and decades alike.
^~~ Main ~~^
^~~ Prologue ~~^
Exciting Start. Troubling Ending.
Though he acknowledged the fact that at such a young age it was impossible for himself to have experienced all the range of emotions that this life had to offer, Kazuki had however always assumed that the day he would have experienced being perhaps interested in someone he would have been familiar with. He had expected losing some of his rational thinking process, but not as much as he was at the moment given that it was too early for it to be defined as a crush, not to talk about having fallen in love. Then again, it probably was a crush already, and then again … whatever, he had no idea. He had no idea and he was alright with it, because it wasn't making him feel bad, or uncomfortable, in fact it was a pleasurable emotion in a way, only thing was that he had to find a way to get back his rational thoughts as soon as possible, and find the rightful place to store the image of his mysterious brunette, at least for today, his first day of high school, which he had been looking forward too so much.
Just the previous night, as he carefully ironed his uniform, and got his schoolbag ready, he was fantasizing about his high school literature schedule, on which he had relayed quite the amount of hopes and expectations, given that he had been able to get a hold of their program that included a lot of Japanese classic masterpieces, which even though he had read already, he didn't mind reading again in depth in a school setting with a teacher whom would hopefully be as passionate as he was about the subject. Only thing he really wasn't looking forward to were M&S, Masochism, and Sadism, nickname he had given to math and science respectively. He didn't get them at all, didn't really care to either, and as he had confidently concluded in his mere eight years of academic life, it was extremely masochistic to try and understand math, whereas very sadistic of teachers to watch them as they tried so hard to learn all those sciences, thus the nicknames.
However, at this precise moment, all that his mind could think of was that handsome brunette, and his gentle manners, and his melodic voice, and … yeah, perhaps it really was a crush, inclined on being something slightly more, but definitely not falling in love yet, then again maybe not, whatever, he had no idea, though ... he really needed to stop sighing every minute, and maybe take a step inside the school courtyard past the open gate, in front of which he had been standing for the past ten minutes now.
-Ittai! ...- he then exclaimed, massaging his head over the spot were something had just hit him, while turning around and spotting his too best friends, Yuuto and Jin, standing behind him, the first serenely waving, and the other looking rather annoyed with a magazine rolled in his hand, which he was brandishing as a weapon
-What are you doing daydreaming in front of the school? Always trying your best to attract unwanted attention, and look even more awkward than what you already are I see ...- resignedly sighed Jin, as slowly massaged his forehead with the tip of his rolled magazine
-Good morning to you too Jin ...- nervously chuckled Kazuki, glimpsing around himself and noticing that people were actually pointing and laughing at him, which meant that he must have indeed stood there for more than ten minutes staring into nowhere, and that he himself had too admit, might have been a little awkward not that he cared about what people thought anyway, if he had, he might have as well stopped existing -... and you too Yuuto, I can see you couldn't help escorting him to school, uh? ...- he also added with another skittish grin, looking at the taller knowing that he was indeed there for that, but that the main reason had to most likely do with himself, M&S
-Yeah, and also I was here to remind you about not waiting until the day before your exams to come and be tutored in math, and science - calmly pointed out the taller, just as Kazuki had expected, as he pouted and morbidly listened to the taller as he stressed out the appropriate names of the subject, knowing exactly that Kazuki would shiver in disgust even only at the sound of their names; another reason why he needed nicknames
-Ri~ght … - dismissively dragged out Kazuki, placing himself between Yuuto and Jin, strategically turning to face his blond, still rather annoyed, looking friend -... but what is the matter with you Jin-kun, you and Yuuto had a fight?- he quickly inquired, wanting to forget about M&S as rapidly as possible, which however didn't mean that he wasn't truly concerned with the fact that Jin was indeed angry about something, he just didn't think to much of the blond's current annoyance, because it happened often, and it was one of either two cases. Case one, Jin had indeed quarreled with Yuuto, in that eventuality however, the two were apt to make up anytime before the end of the day, with a few apologies, and a by then much needed make out session. Case two, something bad had happened in showbiz, and that … well that … he really hoped it wasn't because, it would have been the only topic of the day, if not week, and Kazuki really really really wasn't interested in anything that regard showbiz whatsoever
-No … worse- tragically whined the blond, shoving the magazine flat on Kazuki's face, whose fear had unfortunately turned out to be correct
-I can't see Jin ...- dejectedly mumbled Kazuki, as the other blond, rapidly moved the magazine off the taller's face, and held it visibly in front of his chest
-Furashu disbanded!- dramatically exclaimed Jin, as Kazuki glimpsed at the front page showing a huge picture of the band torn in two and the title “Disbanded” at the bottom of the page
-Well that is just ...- forcefully began Kazuki, now turning around to face Yuuto, whom readily gave him a “don't look at me” face -...is just nhhh ...- added Kazuki, trying to perform a disagreeing grunt, which however sounded nothing like that
-As usual, you do not see the gravity of the situation … - annoyingly pointed out the shorter blond, while rolling his eyes - which I'll explain now, though I'll have you know my dear Zukizuki, that you just sounded like someone faking an orgasm, so please if you have to pretend interest just stick with one of your high vocabulary words the next time ...- expressed the blond, making Yuuto lightly smirk, and Kazuki bemusedly blink at him
-And how would you know how a fa=... wait a second … did you two!- excitedly blurt out Kazuki, moving away from between them, placing himself in front of the two, with the intent to examine their faces, just to try and spot some clear signs of embarrassment, which would have been the easiest give away. However, all he found was the face of hopeful disappointment on Yuuto, and the “don't bother me with such trivial matter's” face on Jin
-No, but we have been watching a ton of gay-porn in preparation ...- plainly explained Jin, quickly brushing the subject away -... but back to the Furashu, let's see, how do I make you understand the gravity of the situation, baby help me out here ...- he then called on Yuuto, who looked at Kauki and promptly stated
-... It is as if Tolkien had began writing the Lord of the Ring and suddenly decided not to finish it ...- calmly stated the taller
-That's dreadful ...- promptly stated Kazuki now at least capable of understanding the gravity of the situation thanks to the comparison, though he was still very much unaware of whom Furashu was
-Whatever Zukizuki, talking with you about this things is always a pleasurable waist of time, I mean, Furashu were only declared the band that had the potential of being as great as Spinners by Akira Suzuki himself, but that would change nothing to you right ...- passionately began Jin, culminating however in a cold tone as he observed Kazuki's feign interested expression
-Nope, not at all! - sincerely replied Kazuki, enthusiastically smiling at the head shaking and resignedly sighing shorter blond, whom had never understood how could Kazuki not care about any of such things especially given that he was indeed the only son of Akira Suzuki, little detail however, that only Jin had been allowed to be aware of.
Kazuki had been in fact legally registered as “Motohashi Kazuki”, instead of “Suzuki Kazuki”, which was the way is father, a previously famous rock-star and now a rather illustrious record-company owner, had decided to adopt in order to protect his family from unnecessary harassment. Decision, which Kazuki has always been immensely appreciative of, because one, he hated paparazzi, and two ... “Suzuki Kazuki” sounded exceedingly retarded, to put it nicely, and it was thanks to said retarded name, that Jin had come up with the nickname Zukizuki. Kazuki and Jin had known each other since they were born, being their mothers best friends, they are almost like family, whereas Yuuto had been their later acquaintance, around their elementary school period, and even though there had been so many times Kazuki had wanted to tell him the truth, his father had expressively instructed that only one person knowing was more than enough.
-I see ...- dejectedly replied Jin smiling at Kazuki -... well then, allow me to act as the good friend, that I am, and ask you why were you daydreaming anyways ...- nonchalantly questioned Jin, with a very innocent expression, which turned smug too quickly observing Kazuki's suddenly reddened face and slightly widened eyes
-T-that well ...- quickly stammered Kazuki, turning around and finally beginning his walk towards their new academic institution, swiftly followed by Jin and Yuuto
-Oi! Stop there young man! And don't you dare lie to me cause you are surprisingly bad at that as well ...- called out Jin, whom then jumped right in front of the taller blond, halting his march -... common, spit it!- impatiently urged Jin, firmly staring at Kazuki, whom lowered his head, and looked away
-Fine ...- wishing so bad he knew how to lie, knowing the exaggerated way in which such a confession would have been regarded -... I think … perhaps ... I might … like someone ...- softly announced Kazuki, still keeping his head low, while hearing Yuuto's step placing themselves in front of himself as well, and he was probably looking as stunned as Jin looked at the moment
-You might-perhaps-you think come again? ...- rapidly blurt out Jin, whom Kazuki newly glimpsed at, and was presently gawking and blinking looking extremely unbelieving and surprised
-Who is she?- as quickly inquired Yuuto, sound just as much as shocked as Jin looked
-... it's a he ...- whispered Kazuki
-Oh … well, I apologize about that ...- amusingly chuckled Jin, which worked contagiously with Kazuki, whom after smirking hesitantly looked up at his friend
-I don't mind … - reassured the taller blond
-Well then do you have his number? What's his name? Does he go to school here, which is why you were so hesitant to enter?! - eagerly began to question the shorter, his eyes seemingly sparkling like in some of the mangas that Kazuki loved to read
-No, I don't know, and he is probably a university student ...- Kazuki replied rather bluntly
-A very approachable first crush uh? ...- sarcastically pointed out Yuuto, gaining an unimpressed pout from Kazuki, whom walked passed them
-You don't know his name?! U-university? How, actually, When have you had time to fall for somebody locked up as you are in your room with your books, oh! ...- Jin suddenly stopped his verbal rampage, newly placing himself in front of the taller blond, and squinting his eyes at a now incredibly confused, and almost bothered Kazuki -... he is a caracther from one of your book isn't he?- confidently stated Jin, quickly receiving a smack at the back of his head from Yuuto
-Don't be silly Jin ...- reprimanded the brunette
-I am not in love Jin, and he is real ...- irritatedly expressed Kazuki, continuing his walk -... I met him, during one of my early morning walks, by chance ...- he then explained, thwarting the truth a little, given that he was to be the only to know about the entrance at the cherry blossom park -... we kind of bumped on each other … stared at each other for a while … and then I was late for school, and his phone rang ...- shrugged Kazuki
-So you magically bumped into someone, during one of your morning walks, which are usually at a time where nobody is on the streets … - skeptically began to recap Jin -... then you stayed and silently stare at each other … and then … parted ways? - concluded the shorter blond, at which Kazuki merely sent a quick agreeing smile, as they stopped in front of the actual school door -... well … if so … there is no need to despair, just go out the same time, do the same road, and … you might be lucky again? … ne baby?- he then tried to encourage, looking up at the taller brunette for support
-Can't go wrong on that at least, that is indeed all you got ...- agreed Yuuto
-I love you for your sincerity Yukkun, but right now I could really do without ...- discouragingly replied Kazuki, concluding with a quick sarcastic grin
-I am sorry, I'll keep that in mind ...- apologetically answered Yuuto -... and now I now I guess I'll go anyway, have to go, my first class is at ten ...- he then announced -... I am going to love my life as a university school student, and later you can describe you mystery man to me, maybe we go to the same school, you never know ...- pointed out the taller -... well see you guys later, bye- greeted Yuuto, softly smiling at Jin, then walking away
-How do you know that you weren't simply attracted to this person … - absently inquired Jin, as he remained staring at Yuuto's retracting figure
-Just now, you wanted to have been able to kiss him didn't you? That's why you look a little dejected … right? ...- inquired Kazuki, as well observing Jin's walk away
-Mhmm ...- sadly hummed the shorter blond in admittance
-Well that is why, I think I am feeling the same way you are at this moment, in my case however ...- began to explain Kazuki, as they turned around to enter the building -... I just want to see him again-
★☆ ★~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ★☆ ★
There were times he used to think of it, laughed about it every time he did, but at the moment, the once laughable idea that life liked fucking with him, as much as he himself liked fucking women, was beginning to seem less and less funny, and more like a mater of fact, so much that it made Yuu wonder, whether becoming a priest wouldn't have made things easier for everyone after all.
-So much for such a splendid start of the day … - he apathetically whispered, while dazing crestfallen at his can of iced-coffee, as a quick memory of his chance-meeting at the cherry blossom tree park ran through his mind -... and I swear, I really didn't see this coming at all, was I supposed to? … ne Omi, was I supposed to, am I still that naïve?- he absently inquired peering up at a woman behind a counter, whom was nonchalantly cleaning a white mug with a cloth
-She is a woman Yuu … - she calmly breathed out, with the attitude of someone, who was tired of repeating the same thing -... we do shit like this, justify it, and don't feel bad about it in the least ...- she explained, placing the mug next to a row of dried once on the counter -... you might have not seen it coming but, which I don't see how but … I must say ...- she then paused, getting closer to the listless looking brunette -... you either are the most unlucky man alive, or you just never learn- she professed, after which she raised back up, and resumed cleaning her mugs
-You really suck at cheering people did you know that? You suck impressively ...- irritatedly stated Yuu, as he frantically looked for his cigarettes in all the pockets he could find over his body
-It is not my fault if you picked your best friend to be me, a girl, … - Omi lightly smirked, glimpsing at the still frantically searching brunette- … and no smoking in here or I'll kick you out, and you know I will - she then calmly admonished
-Tsk ...- lowly grumbled Yuu bitterly abandoning the search -... if I remember correctly we broke because you acted too much like a boy ...- he then smugly observed quickly grinning at the bleach-blond, whom however seemed not to have taken offense -... look like one too in fact ...- he then whispered over his can of coffee
-Which explains why I have been kicking your ass at arm wrestling since we were in elementary school uh? … - the bleach-blond calmly pointed out, probably expecting the brunette to reply, which he normally would have, but the reality of things kept sinking in his head, and to define the situation dreadful was becoming more and more an euphemism
-Ne Omi, could she? … how do people do shit just like that, I still don't understand ...- he then sadly smiled -... she is not only ruining me ...- he then lowly pointed out, nudging his head at the table behind his back where two younger boys were sitting, each with a guitar case, and both looking as depressed as he did -... I can understand taking revenge on me but them … they are still so young … - he remorsefully expressed, placing his can on top of the counter -... fuck - he then frustratedly whispered
-You know how she is … in the end … she is as selfish as it gets, yet you still went ahead ...- coldly pointed out Omi, stooping to reach for something
-Isn't that kind of cold coming from a friend ...- bitterly replied Yuu, looking forward into the spot were Omi reappeared from beneath the counter
-You really do not get women do you … - sighed Omi, while placing the clean mugs into a crate she had brought up -... just because we exchanged a few words and laughter, when you occasionally showed up here … doesn't make us friends Yuu, besides ...- she then paused, placing her inexpressive gaze on Yuu, whom was simply looking in her general direction, but was listening to every single word -... I might have forgiven what she has done, but I haven't forgotten, which in a way … I guess is the same as not forgiving ne? ...- she then sarcastically concluded, staring outside the window of her cafe
-If she had told me, if only she'd had the courtesy to tell me this … - added Yuu, trying to change the subject, for he hadn't forgotten as well, but there really wasn't any point into trying to re-open wounds that he had worked so much on closing -... he broke a month ago, for a good fucking month she kept acting normally, kept singing with us … and now, all of a sudden, here I am receiving a call from Takanori telling me that all over magazines Furashu was being declared disbanded because … singer Olivia Luftkin decided to start a solo career ...- he exasperatedly professed strongly hitting his fist on the counter, while glimpsing at a magazine with said news laying on the counter next to him -... I still cant believe it, and I read that article over and over, called her since I received the news a gazillion of times, and she is not answering … I … fuck fuck fuck! Now what, uh? Am I supposed to start looking for a new singer out of the blue? Where? What about the tour?! … the fuck I'd kill her, the bitch, after everything we've been through ... - he finally hissed, still clenching his fist on the counter
-Well … what other options do you have but start looking for a singer Yuu ...- plainly observed Omi -... we are not teenagers anymore, wishful thinking will not cut it out this time … really don't want to be the second bitch here but, reality tells me that you might a well get up from that stool and start searching … things will become hot soon, the world will want to know what will be of those poor guitarist back there now, what will it be of Furashu … seriously, you have no time of lounging here Yuu- she concluded, as the brunette grumbled a series of curse words,and stood up, knowing that she was perfectly right. The label would have soon called as well and asked for an explanation, paparazzi would have hunted them down, and chaos would have been unleashed.
Turning around he deplorably gazed at his two guitarists; god they were so young. They, Kouyou and Manabu, had invested everything they had in these band, a whole year worth of it, full of sacrifices, and emotional investment. Kouyou so talented with his guitar, and killer looks which easily attracted female fans, and Manbu only fifteen years old, but with guitar skills that matched, and maybe passed Kouyou's, his elder brother. It couldn't just end like this, and it was't for his sake, because he had his time already and wasted it so he really didn't care about himself, this hadn't been about himself from the start. This was for them, thus he needed to hurry up and make sure that his umpteenth mistake wasn't going to ruin their futures so soon, he needed to act and do it fast.
-It will be fine guys ...- he then sighed, smiling at the two, Kouyou, whom both replied with encouraged grins -... I'll find a solution soon, not to worry … somehow, we will do, this is not the end at all ...- assured the brunette -... for now stay here with Omi, the paparazzi should take a while before they find this place, I'll hopefully be back by then - instructed the brunette, receiving affirmative nods from the two younger ones, as he newly turning towards Omi
-That's the way to talk mister manager and ...- smiled Omi placing her towel on the counter, as she observed the brunette getting ready to leave -... if before, when you said “splendid start of the day” you meant waking up next to some girl, I'd suggest to cut on relationship for the time being ...- she then firmly suggested
-Nothing of the sort, in fact believe it or not, what made me happy was something quite platonic...- he began to reply while walking towards the entrance of the cafe -... yes there was a pretty girl … but there were also cherry blossom trees, a wonderful sky and … a feeling I hadn't experienced in a long time ...- he serenely explained, tenderly rethinking at the mere thirty minutes he had spent in company of the mysterious blond girl he met in the park just an hour ago
-I see, so it was just a dream … - concluded Omi in a relived manner
-Yeah … - went along Yuu, smiling at his best friend, as he opened the door of the cafe -... just a dream- he concluded, walking out of the store while wondering exactly when had it been the last he had actually dreamed anything at all. As well as when had it been the last time he'd worked to achieve a dream, which again brought his thoughts back on the mysterious girl, as he wondering what were her dreams, given that no matter how small, and how many, it was very apt for young people to have them. Whatever it might have been that his mysterious girl wished for at the moment, he silently wished for it to become true, even though she could have already started counting her blessings, because the fact that he had met such a pretty girl and that she had left without him being able to know anything at all about her, was unheard of for a player such as himself. But maybe that was a sign from life telling him “don't fuck with her Yuu, if you don't, I might give you a brake”, thus, this time around he might have as well listened, uh?
Right, who was he kidding; listening just wasn't his forte.
^~~ Chapeter 2 ~~^
A/N: Sorry it took so long to give you guys this. I have been lazying around to much AKA enjoying my vacation a little, but here it is! So Kazuki is all over the place trying to figure out how to deal with this first crush of his, whereas, Aoi needs nothing to do with relationships at the moment … thinks that Kazuki is a girl, what will happen next? Will life stop screwing with Aoi? … or will it add another player?
Find out through the next Invisible wall: The Scent of Cherry Blossoms.
Much Love -LnK♥(~_^ )/-