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[lullabyexile]

i'm really tired of being friends with people who aren't happy for me when i am happy. i'm tired of thinking that people i am close to secretly hate me when things are going well in my life. i have a nice boyfriend and have achieved moderate success in various photography-related things, but i feel bad about it. i realized that's not good at all

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[xxethereal]

I know exactly how you feel, and it is insane. I mean, I'm happy for you. I know actually how you feel, and hoe the others feel. I have not really discovered anything yet. But I'm into the arts and literature. I would like to write a book, too. I just want some ideas. And whenever I see someone else's good work nicely done, I feel a little jealous and angry about that. I think to myself, why couldn't you have thought of that? You'd spare yourself ht misery. And then I try to calm myself down, because it's okay, if I think well, I believe in God, and I believe He will grant me a bit of artisticness.

I feel like when I do well (which is SUPER RARE) I feel like people around me, my FRIENDs, they act like I don't deserve it or like I'm bragging. I don't show people my marks in school, whether I get an A or a C. But sometimes it would be nice to have someone who you can share these things with. Someone who would encourage you on.

[xxethereal]

*forgots to give a hug to feel better8
It is absolutely not wrong to feel bad about your success. I understand how you feel, and I also hope, however, that you understand how they feel. They just want to accomplish something, too, and it's frustrating to you, I know, but ...what to do. You're doing great though, so keep it up *props*

[lullabyexile]

ahh yes, you are right. i remember how it feels to be frustrated when you know you're doing something well, but not getting recognized for it. but yeah, i wish my friends didn't make me feel like i didn't deserve it. that's not right. but thankyouu. *hug* <3

[quolloquial]

I think people let their feelings of ugly jealousy overtake their appreciation for the fact that someone close to them has created something awe-inspiring. I think it's wonderful that you're happy and successful, and even if people are acting like complete asses, I think you should continue what you do and eventually real friends will come to celebrate with you.

The mix looks wonderful; I'm stealing it! :)

[lullabyexile]

aw thankyou. :]

and yay, enjoy!

[ohmygodmuffin]

I am happy for you. :}
Also, NEKO CASE NEW ALBUM WHAT. I need this now.

[lullabyexile]

:]
yes it's amazing! go get it now.

[lullabyexile]

OH also i finished the collector last week. it was amazinggg. did you see the movie?

[ohmygodmuffin]

YES I'm glad you liked it! And ohmygod yes I saw the movie, did you? I love Terence Stamp in that movie with all of my heart. That's probably a bad thing, haha.

[darkfairy13]

I think you and your man are ADORABLE. Though I would feel weird asking about it, for some people that kind of stuff is touchy. And I like continually false-jealousy jokes, even though I'd love to take the photos you do. :)

The drink helps a lot of writers, look at Keroac!

[lullabyexile]

thankyou! and haha yes i don't mind false-jealousy jokes. those are basically the same as compliments to me. :]