RPF Big Bang - Better Days, Part II.II
TITLE: Better Days
AUTHOR NAME: lulebell
ARTIST NAME: lediablaa
BETA: lo_duclavier
FANDOM: Misc. actors
GENRE: Femslash
PAIRING: Anna Torv / Elizabeth Mitchell
WORD COUNT & Rating: Part One, PG - 1948 Words
Part Two, R - 11,124 words
Part Three, PG - 2573 words
WARNINGS: Femslash, explicit sex
SUMMARY: Anna Torv, Elizabeth Mitchell, one glorious night and a unicorn: No matter how good an actress you are, reality is always quick to surface. If only fantasies were real!
LINK TO FIC: ( Part One )
( Part Two, One )
( Part Two, Two )
( Part Three )
LINK TO ART: ( Here )
Somewhere between the living room and the bedroom, they lost all of their clothes, leaving the strewn haphazardly on the floor, a treasure trail in their wake. The bedroom was dark but softly lit by light of the moon; shadows danced on the walls as they walked in, hands pressed into hands, bodies touching in intimate ways and lips caressing lips.
Somewhere between the living room and the bedroom, they lost all of their clothes, leaving the strewn haphazardly on the floor, a treasure trail in their wake. The bedroom was dark but softly lit by light of the moon; shadows danced on the walls as they walked in, hands pressed into hands, bodies touching in intimate ways and lips caressing lips.
In a whirlwind of pushes and pulls, Elizabeth hit Anna's bed with the back of her knees and she fell backwards, hitting the feather down blankets with a soft ooph. Hair sprawled out beneath her head, Elizabeth looked up at Anna with wide eyes and she pushed herself across the bed with her feet, guiding Anna on top of her with her hands. She griped Anna by her outstretched wrist and as Anna's hair fell around her ears and cascaded down the front of her head, Elizabeth's hand slid up Anna's wrist to her palm. Their fingers interlaced and the two formed a small bridge, made out of flesh and bone. Settling herself on to Elizabeth's hips, Anna linked her legs behind her in a V-shape. In turn, Elizabeth gathered her legs up around Anna and pushed her forwards, down on to her own body.
Suddenly afraid that she would fall, Elizabeth released Anna's hand and caught her by both shoulders. Elizabeth held her there and for a moment, neither of them moved and neither of them spoke. They simply looked at each other, all over each other, until Anna leaned down and kissed Elizabeth on the mouth softly. Opening her mouth slightly, Elizabeth allowed Anna's tongue to slip inside and soon, Elizabeth moved her hand to the side of Anna's face, holding her to their kiss, while Anna shifted, rolling off of Elizabeth slightly and on to her left side.
Elizabeth followed Anna, rolling over her, touching the side of her face, and eventually Elizabeth was on top of her the same way Anna had been. Only this time, Elizabeth didn't give them any opportunity to wait. The time for lingering touches and searing glances was over and Elizabeth took control by kissing Anna's face - her lips and mouth, cheeks and chin - not a single space of Anna's face went untouched. Expertly, Elizabeth slid her hand down Anna's body, while the opposite hand kept her upright and steady, resting gently against Anna's body.
Her hand stretched down Anna's puckering skin, touching her everywhere and not bothering to stop or rest at any particular part. Frantic and unrelenting, Elizabeth's lips matched her hand's pace in an unyielding display of ferocity, until the pressure was almost too much and Anna gasped, pulling away from Elizabeth's touch. She gripped Elizabeth's wrist tightly and forced her to stop her onslaught. Panting, Anna found Elizabeth's eyes with her own and rubbed her thumb against her pulse point, trying to get her to calm down.
Slowly, Elizabeth sat up and Anna followed her, tucking her flyaway strands behind her ears and pulling on her earlobes gently and kissing her softly. Moving from her lips, Anna kissed the corners of Elizabeth's mouth, trailing down her neck and across her collar bone. From her clavicle, Anna kissed Elizabeth's chest, her hands found their way to Elizabeth's perfect breasts and squeezed them together gently. She pressed her face into the top of Elizabeth's chest and let the right breast fall back to its natural position. Anna kissed Elizabeth's left breast over and over, alternating between using her lips and rubbing her nose against the soft skin. With two fingers, Anna squeezed, Elizabeth's already-hard nipple and applied more and more pressure, which made Elizabeth moan deeper and louder.
Lulling her head back, Elizabeth's chest rose and fell more and more rapidly and she cried out when Anna leaned in and grazed her teeth across the delicate flesh, flicking the tip with her tongue. Elizabeth whimpered and gripped the back of Anna's head, holding her to her breast. With the opposite hand, Anna massaged Elizabeth's left breast, gripping the underside, pushing and pulling the flesh between her fingers. Suddenly, Anna switched sides: her mouth latched on to the opposite nipple while her left hand rubbed and caressed Elizabeth's left breast. Anna listened to Elizabeth's moans adding more and more pressure, alternating from breast to breast. Elizabeth kept her head back, her eyes squeezed closed and her hand on the back of Anna's head, never hoping she'd stop.
Keeping her hands on Elizabeth's breasts, Anna kissed her way down Elizabeth's body, to her stomach on both hips, and when she reached the top of Elizabeth's thigh, Anna pushed her back against the pillows and blankets, while she rested on her stomach between Elizabeth's spread legs. Elizabeth ran her fingers through Anna's hair, toying with her blonde strands that fell away from Anna's ears and Anna rolled her head into Elizabeth's hand without thinking. She rested her head on the top of Elizabeth's thigh, enjoying the feel of her hands in her hair. She took a deep breath and blew Elizabeth's curls, running her own fingers through Elizabeth's delicate hair, smiling when Elizabeth began to giggle. Anna did it again and again until Elizabeth's laugh grew louder and louder. She was laughing so hard that Anna nearly fell off of her, but she stopped suddenly when Anna ran her finger across her labia, making Elizabeth gasp and grip the side of Anna's head tighter. Anna smirked and despite liking Elizabeth’s reaction, she stopped suddenly, sitting up and grinning from ear to ear.
“Just, hurry up already.”
Anna grinned and lifted an eyebrow, silently eyeing Elizabeth’s command, before she bent her head and went to work.
Anna took one finger and stretched her knuckle across Elizabeth’s delicate folds, delighting in her sudden shift. With her her heels, Elizabeth pulled herself down and elevated her hips; the angle gave Anna more access and she slid her mouth into Elizabeth, tasting the excitement that beaded on her skin.
Elizabeth moaned as Anna’s tongue traced the outside of her labia. Anna moved from the left side to the right, skipping over the middle with her tongue, but still let her finger do all the work. The sounds Elizabeth made was beyond anything Anna had ever heard before and nothing like she had ever imagined and she relished in it completely.
Switching back and forth grew wary for Elizabeth and she stopped Anna from moving by placing her hands firmly on either side of Anna’s head. Elizabeth ran her hands through Anna’s hair and rubbed her thumbs over Anna’s ears; she finally stopped moving and focused on Elizabeth’s center.
Anna slid her finger into Elizabeth, just past her fingernail and touched Elizabeth’s clitoris with the tip of her tongue. Elizabeth gasped sharply, sucking in a breath and releasing an entirely new sound. Anna smiled into Elizabeth’s folds. Gently, she took the sensitive nub between her lips and sucked on it eagerly as she pushed her finger deeper inside Elizabeth, enjoying the cries she made and lapping up the thick cream that expelled itself from her body.
Elizabeth tightened her legs, moving them up and crossing them over Anna’s back while tightening the grip she had around Anna’s head. Arching her back, Elizabeth gave the loudest, most powerful scream of the night as her inner muscles clamped around Anna’s finger and a hot, white creamed flowed out of her body and into Anna’s mouth. Anna smiled, listening to the cries that were brought on by her own doing; she couldn’t help feeling proud of herself.
Sliding up Elizabeth’s body, Anna found Elizabeth’s face and with two hands on either side of her head, drew her lover in for a passionate kiss before settling down on the pillows beside her. Slowly, Elizabeth’s breath returned to normal and she lulled her head over sleepily and looked at Anna with shinning eyes. She opened her mouth to say something but the only sound she could produce was a soft sigh before she lay her head on Anna’s shoulder, smiling as Anna wrapped her arms around her and held her tight as Elizabeth drifted off to sleep.
//
They laid together, side by side, shoulder to shoulder, drifting in and out of sleep in Anna’s overstuffed bed, when Anna looked up at Elizabeth and realized that she was thinking about something. Elizabeth had a huge smile over her face and her eyes were shining.
“What?” Anna said, making Elizabeth take notice and after she realized that Anna had been watching her the whole time, the smiled faded and she look slightly embarrassed.
“Nothing,” said quickly.
“There was something going on. I could see it all over your face.”
“I... I was thinking...” Elizabeth answered slowly; she looked at Anna and made eye contact but looked away quickly.
“You were thinking about what?” Anna asked stared at Elizabeth and didn’t let go of her hand.
Elizabeth laughed and shook her head, looking away from Anna. “No, it’s silly.”
“C’mon,” Anna said, playfully tugging at Elizabeth’s arm, “out with it!” She propped herself up on to her side and supported her head with the opposite hand.
Elizabeth looked back at Anna and smiled sheepishly. “Alright,” she closed her eyes before she started and opened them to find Anna’s eager smile. “I was thinking
“After one night? Wow... you must have enjoyed yourself more than you let on,” Anna said teasingly, looking rather proud of herself.
Elizabeth laughed, smiling at the memories. “It’s more than that,” she said shyly, looking up at Anna with soft eyes. Anna realized she was serious and her smile faded.
“Tell me.”
“I... I was thinking about a place... a place where you and I could be together... where we could meet in secret and just... just be together... Some place magical, with towers and princess and unicorns...” Elizabeth trailed off, waiting for a response. But Anna only bit her lip and narrowed her eyes, not completely understanding what Elizabeth was saying.
“You could be the sorceress... we could travel together, at night, with nothing but the mood lighting our path...” she trailed off and smiled uncomfortably and all of a sudden she felt uncomfortable and wished that she hadn’t said anything at all.
“Are... are you saying that I... that I bewitched you...?”
Elizabeth looked at Anna sharply and suddenly, her eyes welled with tears and she swallowed everything that she was holding on to, unable to say anything at all.
“Hey,” Anna said kindly as she reached her hand out and wiped away the few droplets that started to scatter across Elizabeth’s face. “None of that.”
“I’m sorry,” Elizabeth said, thankful for the touches that peppered her face and skin.
Anna didn’t say anything, she just kissed Elizabeth’s face all over until there was nothing left but smiles and the sound of delighted laughter. Anna pulled Elizabeth’s hand up to her mouth and kissed it lightly.
"I think you're still drunk," Anna said, amused and touched at the thought of such an offer. She kissed each of Elizabeth’s knuckles, one by one.
"Maybe," Elizabeth laughed. "I'm a bit of a light weight. I don't normally drink that much, so it's possible."
They were quiet for awhile; a cool breeze came in from the open window, and Elizabeth pulled the blanket up around Anna to keep her warm. "Thank you," she whispered demurely and then after awhile, she murmured: "you know, it does sound nice."
"What?" Elizabeth asked, sitting up and putting her hand behind her head for support.
"That... that place. It does sound really nice," Anna leaned over and kissed the end of Elizabeth's nose.
"Yeah," Elizabeth said smiling. "I think so too."
She lay her head back down on the pillows beside Anna’s shoulder and fell asleep in her warm embrace.
//
Suddenly and fully awake, Anna woke up with a beautiful woman lying beside her, and realized that she needed something more, that their time together wasn’t finished and that, even though they were late into the night, they still had all the time in the world. She leaned over and kissed Elizabeth’s face all over, rubbing her hands down her body and squeezing her breasts along the way. She was a slightly afraid that Elizabeth would just push her away, content on sleeping through the brewing storm outside, but was happy when Elizabeth started waking up and returning her kisses.
“Hey,” she said sleepily. She opened her eyes to the shadows on Anna’s face. Waking up, Elizabeth sat up but was immediately reduced to confusion when Anna grabbed her by the wrist and started pulling her from the bed. She opened her mouth to protest but the only sound that came out was “wha---?”
Anna laughed, pulling herself off of the bed, not letting go of Elizabeth’s wrist. She tugged at her partner. “C’mon,” she said, still smiling.
“Where are we going?” Elizabeth sounded exasperated. Her cheeks were pink and her breasts were flushed, glowing with a rose hue, as they rose and fell with each breath.
Anna dropped Elizabeth’s wrist but her smirk didn’t fade. “Don’t you trust me?” she asked. She lifted her eyebrow and Elizabeth nearly melted in front of her.
“I....” the flush from her breasts travelled up her neck and settled on her already-pinked cheeks.
“Just trust me.”
Anna walked away from the bed and towards a nearby door, disappearing out of sight. Soon, a rush of water and a heavy head of steam floated out of the door that Anna left partially open. Elizabeth waited a few seconds, so as not to seem too eager; she held the corner of the down duvet with her thumb and forefinger, rubbing it in circles. It was soft, like Anna’s skin, but hard, like her nipples as they pressed into the side of her leg. Elizabeth closed her eyes and imagined the feel of Anna’s fingers sliding across her labia and as slight as the touch had been, the memory of it made her shiver. Her body bended unconsciously and she opened her eyes to find Anna’s bedroom full of steam and a curious scent coming from the shower. Elizabeth took a deep breath and followed the trail into the bathroom after her.
//
She was soaking wet, water running off of her head, down her shoulders, making two little waterfalls over her breasts, disappearing somewhere around her knees, after traveling off her stomach. Her blonde hair filled with water and she gathered it up in one long twist of hair over her shoulder. She adjusted the water and pretended not to notice Elizabeth standing behind her, leaning up against the wall.
There was no bathtub in Anna’s bathroom. Instead, she had one large shower, comfortable enough for two, even with the tiled seat that jetted out from the corner. The shower head was large and round with several different massage settings built in. She had every kind of shampoo, conditioner and body wash known to man on a hanging plastic rack over the shower’s neck. The shower door slid open and closed and had several frosted stripes on key points of the glass, making it difficult for anyone to see anything more than short teases of the shower’s occupant. It was a grand and beautiful unit, but the lack of a proper bathtub was disappointing to Elizabeth and it registered on her face clearly.
“You don’t have a bathtub.”
Anna turned the water on and adjusted it to suit them both. “No. Never really like taking a bath all that much.” She turned to Elizabeth, approaching her slowly, slinking her body across the floor and into Elizabeth’s arms. Anna kissed her along the jaw line to her ear lobe and down the side of her neck.
“I’m guessing you prefer a bath then?” Anna switched to the other side of Elizabeth’s face, but not before she pressed another kiss against Elizabeth’s lips. She tilted her head back, giving Anna full access to the soft spot under her ear and across from her jaw. “Mhm,” Elizabeth breathed.
“Well,” Anna said, taking Elizabeth by the hand and leading her to the shower. “I’ll just have to make sure you get used to them.”
She turned Elizabeth around, leaning her against the titles gently, her head in the rising team. Elizabeth closed her eyes against the heat, relishing in the feeling of Anna’s hands on her back as they moved up and down her spine expertly. She groaned when Anna began to pepper her back with light kisses as her hands wrapped around her body and started squeezing her breasts with different degrees of pressure. Elizabeth lulled her head back, her ear scrapping against Anna’s, and she gasped when Anna kissed the delicate skin beneath her ear.
“You know...” Elizabeth said when she could, “it’s not that I don’t like showers....”
“What is it then?” Anna asked, only slightly interested in the conversation; her mouth was too busy working Elizabeth’s flesh into a goose-puckering frenzy of need.
“...I... I think it’s because I don’t have anyone to share them with....” Elizabeth closed her eyes, not bothering to continue her sentence.
“Oh, well, if you’re looking for a new shower buddy, I would be happy to accommodate you.”
“I could get used to this.”
Anna smiled and took Elizabeth by the hand the two of them slid the shower door open and into the pouring water. It was hot, but not too hot. Anna held Elizabeth’s hand in the water. “Is that too hot for you baby?” Anna whispered into her ear. She rubbed her hand over Elizabeth’s and the water tickled her skin as Anna left droplets over her pale skin. A thick head of steam was moving from the shower stall across the ceiling, fogging up the mirror and made beads of sweat that traveled along the back of their necks and down their spines.
Despite the heavy heat, Elizabeth shivered in Anna’s arms. “Um, no. It’s nice, actually.”
“I figured it would be too hot for you,” Anna said as she wrapped her arms around Elizabeth tighter, leaving one hand under her breast and stroking her skin with her thumb.
“I do like hot showers, on the occasion, I mean.” Elizabeth took a step forward and into the shower. She let the water soak into her hair before she turned around and pulled Anna into the shower with their hands still joined.
“Hmm.” Anna dipped her head back under the running faucet, pushing the water off of her face with her hands. She looked out the corner of her eye and smiled a little when she saw Elizabeth watching the water cascade down her body. “Then it should be just perfect for you.”
Anna looked up at Elizabeth out of the corner of her eye and smiled when Elizabeth rolled her eyes and pushed herself up off of the wall and stepped into the shower. The shower wasn’t that large, but it was somewhat comfortable enough for two with a curiously convenient seat that jetted out from the corner. Anna pressed Elizabeth up against the tiled wall and laid a set of furious kisses on her face, finding her way to Elizabeth’s mouth without any hesitation. Elizabeth’s hands found Anna’s breasts and she squeezed and massaged them as Anna’s tongue slipped into Elizabeth’s mouth. Anna moaned into Elizabeth’s mouth and Elizabeth pressed her thumbs into Anna’s nipples, forcing her to arch her back and break their kiss.
They both laughed and Elizabeth put her hand up against the side of Anna’s head. She ran her hand around the back of Anna’s neck and pulled her in for another kiss, only this time her hands didn’t go for her breasts, but over her shoulders and down her spine, running a hand over her bum and cupping it gently.
Anna’s breasts pressed into Elizabeth’s and she lay her head on Elizabeth’s shoulder and as she rubbed Anna’s backside, Anna slipped her hands behind Elizabeth, crisscrossing them behind her body, and tracing the outline of her bum with her fingers. She reached down further and finally reached the part that she so desired, and when she stroked it again, all of the sensations and the memories came flooding back to Elizabeth and she cried out loudly, gripping Anna tightly.
Anna smiled into Elizabeth’s shoulder. She closed her eyes against the heat and back spray of the hot water and leaned into Elizabeth further, until she could slide a single finger deep inside of her.
Elizabeth’s reaction was something completely unexpected to Anna: she didn’t cry out, she didn’t say anything at all. Her grip merely tightened around Anna as her inner muscles contracted and an something new entirely coated Anna’s finger. She pulled it out slowly, opening her eyes long enough to watch as the slick washed down the drain with the rest of the shower.
She was falling suddenly and it took her a few seconds to realize that she wasn’t falling at all: Elizabeth was pushing her back on to the corner seat and the moment she was seated, Elizabeth was pulling her knees apart, and resting on her toes between them. She pushed Anna’s feet up so they were resting against her bum and she rounded her back against into the corner, gripping the wet edges as best she could.
“It’s a good thing this shower seat is so big,” she mumbled as she ran a hand over Elizabeth’s wet head.
Despite the water’s heat, she shivered as she felt Elizabeth’s caress her delicate skin. Elizabeth smiled in return, but she was too focused on the task at hand to say anything in response. She ran two fingers over Anna’s labia and despite the water that ran down her body, Anna was visibly wet, waiting in anticipation for Elizabeth to make her next move. She shifted uncomfortable on her wet seat, but as Elizabeth replaced her fingers with her tongue, Anna stopped shifting all together. She moaned out loud as Elizabeth pushed her curls to the side with her fingers and flicked her tongue over her thick folds. Anna gripped the back of Elizabeth’s head, holding her tightly, as she finally found the bundle of nerves and massaged it gently with the tip of her tongue.
Anna’s moans were louder than the rushing water and even though she still had water running down her body, she could feel each of Elizabeth’s strokes, prods, and touches as clearly as if she were laying dry on her bed. Elizabeth listened carefully to each sound the other woman made, and as they grew more and more frantic, she plunged two fingers deep inside of her, while keeping a tight seal around her clitoris with her lips, relishing in the feel of Anna’s inner muscles contracting around her fingers tightly. Elizabeth licked around her swollen folds hungrily, tasting nothing but sweetness.
Elizabeth half expected Anna to rest after her first orgasm but she was wrong. Instead, she found herself being pushed backwards as Anna put her heels against Elizabeth’s shoulders, pushing her out of the shower stall and down on to the bathroom floor. She lay on a thick matt and she pushed herself up on to her elbows, watching as Anna turned the water off and side stepped out of the shower. She hung on to the shower stall’s walls and grinned from ear to ear as Elizabeth pulled on leg up and rested her foot on the floor.
Anna didn’t say anything. She kneeled down beside Elizabeth and wiped the excess water off of her with a nearby towel. After she was somewhat dry, Anna curled herself up against Elizabeth’s form, pulling her as close as she could possibly get, not caring that they were still on the bathroom floor with nothing but the rain starting to rage outside.
//
As the water slowly evaporated in the bathroom, dark clouds swirled around outside and overtop of Anna’s house and thunder boomed in the distance. The air turned very cold as the wind picked up and tossed around various bits of debris that littered the quiet street in the deep of night. Completely obscured by the angry clouds, the moon missed out on witnessing two women curled up together on a cooling bathroom floor. The open window in the bathroom let the cold wind blow in; Elizabeth shivered in Anna’s arms. Her skin puckered and she drew her legs up to her chest instinctively. Releasing Elizabeth for a moment, Anna stood up and walked over to the window, pulling it closed and drawing the wooden shutters closed. There was nothing but the sound of rain hitting the window. They were the only two left in the whole world.
Alone but together, Elizabeth still lay on her back in quiet anticipation, as Anna came back to her, laying down beside her and wrapping Elizabeth up in her arms. Even though they both knew that the rest would come, there was nothing but this moment. She relished in the feeling of Anna's hands as they climbed up her skin, stroking her leg from ankle to to kneecap. Elizabeth bent her leg and enjoyed supporting Anna's weight as she rested her chin on Elizabeth's knee. She stroked the wet strands that fell from behind Anna's ear, toying with them between two fingers.
Her darkened hair made her green eyes even brighter and suddenly, she was more beautiful than she had been before. Overcome with emotion, Elizabeth took in a sharp breath and her eyes filled with tears. She sat up quickly and gripped the sides of Anna's face with both hands and pulled her into for a kiss, silence anything that would have slipped out otherwise, ruining the moment and the night altogether.
Elizabeth pulled back slowly, letting out the breath she was holding in, casting her eyes downwards as she ran a finger over Anna's chin. She could feel the question bubbling up up inside of Anna and Elizabeth wanted to answer, wanted to explain, wanted to put her heart out knowing it was safe - but it wasn't. The risk was too great, the pain would be unbearable that threatened to steal the breath out of her very soul. Her head tipped forward from an invisible force and she rested her forehead against Anna's chest.
Anna wrapped her arms around Elizabeth's back and pulled her in tightly resting her chin on the top of Elizabeth's head and rocked her from side to side. The mood changed dramatically and even though she had been enjoying their time together, a profound fear was building up in her mind. She waited for Elizabeth to say something bus she didn't. The only sound was the night rain against the outside window.
//
Anna found the thickest towel she had - the one that she saved for especially cold days, the one she used when she felt like the world would never again be warm and the distant land of her childhood seemed nothing more than the memory of some now-forgotten dream of better days - and wrapped it around Elizabeth’s shoulders snugly. They were both still wet and naked: two sorry sights on an even sorrier night, curled up against a cold and damp bathroom wall. She wanted to say something but felt that it wasn’t the time or the place. Everything had been perfect - their meeting, the timing, their mutual feelings for each other - had all gone according to some unseen plan of perfection but buckled and crumbled down at the last seconds and Anna had no idea why.
Glancing at Elizabeth from the corner of her eye, Anna saw a woman sitting in fright of everything around her. She had the sudden urge to explain herself and to explain her actions and to apologize for too much too soon, when a surprisingly cold hand touched her arm and for a moment, Anna thought that Elizabeth could hear her thinking.
“This isn’t your fault.”
“What isn’t?”
“This.”
Elizabeth’s cryptic answer gave Anna nothing but more questions and more feelings of loss and confusion. Again, she felt the need to ask but this time, she didn’t know if she could hold it back or not, and in the end her heart won over her head and she found the question asked before she could take it back.
“What is it then?”
Elizabeth almost laughed and had she, it would certainly have broken the tension and put Anna at ease, but she didn’t. It hurt when she swallowed her laughter in one big gulp and to compensate for the sudden pain in her chest, she reached out and squeezed Anna’s hand tightly.
“I’m sorry for being like this,” Elizabeth said sheepishly, embarrassed for making such a fuss and annoyed by the fact that this wasn’t the first time her heart ran away with her head.
“You still haven’t told me what’s going on, what you’re thinking about. You look like you’re about to cry,” Anna said, suddenly angry and frustrated by Elizabeth’s lack of trust; her anger quickly turned into fear when she realized exactly what the problem was: this had all been a mistake. This had all come too fast and too strong. Anna was suddenly convinced that Elizabeth was having second thoughts about their coupling and now it was too late to take any of it back. Their night played out in her head like a movie with no sound and she was hopeless to do anything but watch in quiet silence as her mind’s eye played back what should have been happy memories and instead, she felt sick to her stomach. They’re relationship had gone from being happy and fun to sexy and loving to broken and cold all in a matter of moments. Anna looked up at Elizabeth, but she refused to make contact. Instead, she stared directly ahead of her, and when Anna looked away, everything was confirmed, and solid in her head. Elizabeth didn’t trust her, and Anna couldn’t blame her for feeling that way. But at the same time, she felt angry and betrayed. She thought that their coupling had been one mutual passion but apparently, her partner didn’t feel the same way.
Anna felt as if someone kicked her hard in the stomach, knocking the wind out of her as her crumpled body bounced off the cold concrete of despair. She drew her hands up to her face and ran them over her skin, pushing the expelling tears down her cheeks, letting them dissolve into the drying damp that still peppered her flushed features. Like an iron ball, she was left plunging over a cliff, only to hit the fast-approaching water with a pain she could hardly describe, let alone bear, and she sunk to the cold bottom, alone.
“Hey,” Elizabeth said suddenly, gripping Anna by the arm, lacing her fingers together and pulling her back up to the surface. Anna gasped aloud, pulling in precious breath that reminded her body to fight, fight for life and love and them, for the two who still lay together entwined on the bathroom floor. Elizabeth tugged at Anna’s arm and she was hurled back into the moment by the desperate and concerned look in Elizabeth’s eyes.
“Why don’t you trust me?” The question caught them both off guard: Elizabeth because she heard it and Anna because she asked.
“I... I do trust you. That’s not the issue at all --” Elizabeth said slowly but she was cut off by Anna’s voice.
“If you did,” she said sitting up fully and taking Elizabeth’s head between both hands and looking at her squarely in the eyes. “Because if you did you would have told me already.”
Elizabeth swallowed and Anna released Elizabeth from her grip. “No, you don’t understand. I really do trust you. I wouldn’t have even come with you if I didn’t. I wanted to be here, with you. Don’t you see that? Don’t you understand that?”
Anna opened her mouth but didn’t say anything. She looked down quickly and then back up, waiting for Elizabeth to continue.
“It’s just...” Elizabeth stopped to take a deep breath and to collect her thoughts. “It’s just that I’m scared that I’d... fall for you.”
The room was quiet again. Neither woman looked at each other; the tiles in the bathroom much more interesting than the potential heart break that Anna offered Elizabeth.
“Darling,” Anna started, still not looking up at Elizabeth. “I --”
“No,” Elizabeth said quickly, shaking her head fast and the movement caught Anna’s attention and she finally looked up at the woman in front of her. “It’s okay, really. I... this happens to me on the occasion... I just... I fall too easily, I guess.”
Anna smiled softly. “It’s not that I can’t...” she trailed off because there was nothing she could say, nothing at all that would make it better. Elizabeth swallowed and tried to look away but the gaze Anna held on her was so strong and so powerful that she couldn’t help but meet Anna’s eye with her own. Green locked and held on to blue for what seemed like an eternity until Elizabeth’s eyes suddenly welled up with tears and Anna finally released Elizabeth and let her look away and turn so she could rest her back against the bathroom wall and hug her knees into her chest.
“...It’s just that I’m afraid to,” Anna admitted quietly, so quietly that Elizabeth had to strain to hear her and the sudden declaration had Elizabeth go from staring at the floor, to straining to hear Anna correctly to turning sharply in utter amazement. Elizabeth’s expression changing from sadness to shock and surprise and she had no idea what to say. She never expected Anna to return her feelings. Not that she thought she was just a one night stand, the two of them had too much chemistry with each other for their relationship to just be a one time thing, but she hardly expected Anna to match her own feelings.
Now it was Anna’s turn to not make eye contact and she started playing with carpet fibers on the bath matt she was sitting on. Elizabeth had no idea what to say: she felt like a well of sheer joy was bubbling up inside of her, and even though Anna didn’t come right out and return her feelings, there was potential there. Potential for something great and never-ending. She swallowed, feeling her dry throat click and she gave a little cough to clear it out. Elizabeth took in a deep breath and released it slowly. With the breath came all of the fear and frustration that she was holding on to and the only thing left to do was laugh.
Elizabeth laughed and laughed, the light and happy sound filling the bathroom, silencing all of the negative emotions that were floating around, finally putting fear and anxiety to bed. The situation wasn’t funny, far from it. Elizabeth’s laughter was the release of all the tension she was holding on to and the joy of their coupling reached her again, all of the memories of their recent trysts came back to her and there was nothing but a blinding happiness deep in her heart. The look on Anna’s face wasn’t helping, as she clearly didn’t understand what Elizabeth was laughing at and the look only made her laugh harder. Nearly doubled over from laughter, Elizabeth pulled Anna into her arms and held on to her as she laughed and laughed. Anna pulled back with a quizzical expression on her face and the more Elizabeth laughed, the more Anna began to smile and like an infection that spread rapidly, she was soon laughing too.
“Look,” Anna said finally when the two started to calm down. “You can tell me anything, anything at all. Because there’s a chance that I’ll say yes.” They smiled at each other and kissed each other slowly and sweetly, with everything that they were both feeling overflowing in a kind of ecstasy neither had ever experienced before.
“Sorry,” Elizabeth said honestly and sheepishly. She honestly hadn’t meant for that conversation to go the way it had, but she couldn’t have been happier with the outcome. “I think that we both need to get some sleep.”
Anna nodded. “This floor is not as comfortable now as it was before.”
“Yeah,” Elizabeth said agreeing. “Plus, I think your bed is much warmer than this bathroom is. Neither of us want to get sick.”
“What? You don’t want me to play nurse for you?” Anna said coyly as the two stood up. Anna wrapped her arm around Elizabeth’s waist, keeping her upright and steady as they swayed back to Anna’s bedroom and her empty bed.
Elizabeth smiled and rubbed her fingers on the bridge of her nose. “I have a feeling that your going to have to be my nurse in the morning, regardless.”
//
As the wind died off, as the trees finally quit their violent shaking, and as the heavy rain relaxed into a soft pitter patter, the two women on the bathroom floor picked themselves up and followed each other back to the safety and warmth of a familiar bed that held so much promise and so much love. All of their words were finished, all their emotions expressed and out and as they fell into bed together, they were both asleep immediately and with no other regrets. The clouds above them parted slowly and soon the moon exchanged places with the sun, rousing all who had slept throughout the hot and sticky dusk and the violent storm that finally released all of the earth’s tensions as the storm cleared, allowing everyone a sigh of much needed relief, as the sun rose, feeding the beginning of the day.
//
Elizabeth woke up groggy, unfocused and slightly confused; she had a splitting headache. She turned over in the unfamiliar bed, rubbing her fingers over her temples and the bridge of her nose, suddenly realizing that the empty space beside her had been slept in. There was a light coming from the open bathroom and she pulled the blanket up over her head, shielding her eyes from the brightness. The sheets smelled like sex and suddenly she was fully awake and remembered everything about the night before. She heard footsteps and the bed shifted as someone sat down beside her and peeled the blankets back.
“Good morning, sunshine,” Anna smiled at Elizabeth and leaned into her, kissing her on the tip of her nose. Anna’s eyes glinted and she wrinkled her nose just before she deepened their kiss. When they pulled back from each other, Anna stroked the side of Elizabeth’s face and pulled her into her chest, laying them both down on the bed.
“What happened?” Elizabeth asked. She shifted down until she found a comfortable spot on Anna’s chest, relaxing against her breast. The question was unnecessary: Elizabeth remembered exactly what happened the night before, every moment and ever detail of their coupling but something compelled her to ask the question anyway. A thousand minutes passed in a few seconds, each of them showed their strain on Anna’s face and even though she wasn’t looking directly at Anna, Elizabeth could feel her panic. It ripped through Anna’s body and made her want to jump up and runaway suddenly, but instead, she took in a sharp breath, one that Elizabeth felt rumble beneath her chest, and gripped Elizabeth tightly, pulling her closer to her body; she readjusted her chin on top of Elizabeth’s head, searching for a response.
“You had to much to drink last night,” Anna answered finally, bracing herself for the reply.
“... drink...” Elizabeth mumbled. She ran a hand over the side of her face, delaying the inevitable.
“Whisky, I think,” Anna replied, stalling for precious time.
“That was you. I don’t drink whisky.”
“Oh, right. Vodka and Redbull then?”
“That sounds more likely.”
Elizabeth sat up, getting off of Anna and swinging her legs over the bed’s edge, squinting against the light in the apartment. She sighed heavily and looked back at Anna’s worried face, feeling suddenly sympathetic. Gripping Anna’s hand, Elizabeth ran her fingers over the side of Anna’s face, tracing her body’s outline all the way down to her hip. She smiled, genuinely bright and happy. “I... I don’t want you to think that last night was only because of some alcohol induced stupor because it wasn’t,” she said honestly.
Anna laughed lightly, nervously, guardedly, trying to make it sound as though that never crossed her mind. “I don’t think that.”
Elizabeth smiled mirthlessly and rolled her eyes, she sat up and looked at Anna deadly serious. “Don’t lie to me.”
Taken aback slightly, Anna tried to break away from Elizabeth’s eye contact but she couldn’t.
Elizabeth turned around and slid over the down duvet towards Anna, who looked almost startled. She reached out and grabbed one of Anna’s hands. “I’m serious,” she said. Her blue eyes welled with tears and she sucked in an unexpected breath. “I wanted to be there. I wanted to be with you and I wanted you.” Here eyes were were so blue and deep that Anna felt as if she were lost, swimming through a world where it was just the two of them and no one else.
“You’re so beautiful,” she whispered, sitting up and resting her forehead against Elizabeth’s. Something welled up inside of her - a deep sadness that came out of no where and settle itself in her chest, just beneath her throat. She could feel it and she could taste it: a sick desperation that she didn’t recognize that made her eyes brim with tears. She tried to swallow it down but it wouldn’t go and suddenly she threw her arms up and over Elizabeth’s shoulders and pulled her in, not for a hug, but to keep her there, snug and secure against her breast. She held Elizabeth tightly, squeezing her eyes shut; the sick feeling made its way up her throat and she expelled it from her body with a gasp.
She wanted to tell Elizabeth but the memories of their night together still hung over her head and their conversation still lingered in her mind and she felt hesitant for the first time that they were together. To combat the feeling that welled up in the pit of her stomach and slowly traveled upwards to her throat, Anna squeezed back and bent over, finding Elizabeth’s lips with her own. When she released Elizabeth finally, she swallowed everything inside of her, gulping it down with a certain expertise she perfected over the years.
“I’ll make you breakfast,” Anna offered, her nose wrinkling slightly as a coy grin made its way across her face.
Elizabeth smiled and stretched, arching her back and pushing her breasts up the ceiling. “That sounds lovely,” she said, sighing happily and watching as Anna got out of bed and made a bee-line for her closet, pulling out a few things, but leaving it open for Elizabeth, in case she didn’t want to wear the same clothes she had been last night.
“I don’t think that the pants will fit you, but you never know. Anyway, you can bring whatever you borrow back anytime,” Anna said sheepishly. “My door is always open for you.” She disappeared into the kitchen, leaving Elizabeth alone to get dressed, and when Elizabeth joined Anna, they ate breakfast together, coffee for her, toast for her other, just like any other couple. Neither of them refused to give into the inevitability that hung over their heads, that soon they would be separated by the cruelty of day and would be forced to go about their routine activities as if nothing had ever happened and neither of them had fallen in love with each other.
AUTHOR NAME: lulebell
ARTIST NAME: lediablaa
BETA: lo_duclavier
FANDOM: Misc. actors
GENRE: Femslash
PAIRING: Anna Torv / Elizabeth Mitchell
WORD COUNT & Rating: Part One, PG - 1948 Words
Part Two, R - 11,124 words
Part Three, PG - 2573 words
WARNINGS: Femslash, explicit sex
SUMMARY: Anna Torv, Elizabeth Mitchell, one glorious night and a unicorn: No matter how good an actress you are, reality is always quick to surface. If only fantasies were real!
LINK TO FIC: ( Part One )
( Part Two, One )
( Part Two, Two )
( Part Three )
LINK TO ART: ( Here )
Somewhere between the living room and the bedroom, they lost all of their clothes, leaving the strewn haphazardly on the floor, a treasure trail in their wake. The bedroom was dark but softly lit by light of the moon; shadows danced on the walls as they walked in, hands pressed into hands, bodies touching in intimate ways and lips caressing lips.
Somewhere between the living room and the bedroom, they lost all of their clothes, leaving the strewn haphazardly on the floor, a treasure trail in their wake. The bedroom was dark but softly lit by light of the moon; shadows danced on the walls as they walked in, hands pressed into hands, bodies touching in intimate ways and lips caressing lips.
In a whirlwind of pushes and pulls, Elizabeth hit Anna's bed with the back of her knees and she fell backwards, hitting the feather down blankets with a soft ooph. Hair sprawled out beneath her head, Elizabeth looked up at Anna with wide eyes and she pushed herself across the bed with her feet, guiding Anna on top of her with her hands. She griped Anna by her outstretched wrist and as Anna's hair fell around her ears and cascaded down the front of her head, Elizabeth's hand slid up Anna's wrist to her palm. Their fingers interlaced and the two formed a small bridge, made out of flesh and bone. Settling herself on to Elizabeth's hips, Anna linked her legs behind her in a V-shape. In turn, Elizabeth gathered her legs up around Anna and pushed her forwards, down on to her own body.
Suddenly afraid that she would fall, Elizabeth released Anna's hand and caught her by both shoulders. Elizabeth held her there and for a moment, neither of them moved and neither of them spoke. They simply looked at each other, all over each other, until Anna leaned down and kissed Elizabeth on the mouth softly. Opening her mouth slightly, Elizabeth allowed Anna's tongue to slip inside and soon, Elizabeth moved her hand to the side of Anna's face, holding her to their kiss, while Anna shifted, rolling off of Elizabeth slightly and on to her left side.
Elizabeth followed Anna, rolling over her, touching the side of her face, and eventually Elizabeth was on top of her the same way Anna had been. Only this time, Elizabeth didn't give them any opportunity to wait. The time for lingering touches and searing glances was over and Elizabeth took control by kissing Anna's face - her lips and mouth, cheeks and chin - not a single space of Anna's face went untouched. Expertly, Elizabeth slid her hand down Anna's body, while the opposite hand kept her upright and steady, resting gently against Anna's body.
Her hand stretched down Anna's puckering skin, touching her everywhere and not bothering to stop or rest at any particular part. Frantic and unrelenting, Elizabeth's lips matched her hand's pace in an unyielding display of ferocity, until the pressure was almost too much and Anna gasped, pulling away from Elizabeth's touch. She gripped Elizabeth's wrist tightly and forced her to stop her onslaught. Panting, Anna found Elizabeth's eyes with her own and rubbed her thumb against her pulse point, trying to get her to calm down.
Slowly, Elizabeth sat up and Anna followed her, tucking her flyaway strands behind her ears and pulling on her earlobes gently and kissing her softly. Moving from her lips, Anna kissed the corners of Elizabeth's mouth, trailing down her neck and across her collar bone. From her clavicle, Anna kissed Elizabeth's chest, her hands found their way to Elizabeth's perfect breasts and squeezed them together gently. She pressed her face into the top of Elizabeth's chest and let the right breast fall back to its natural position. Anna kissed Elizabeth's left breast over and over, alternating between using her lips and rubbing her nose against the soft skin. With two fingers, Anna squeezed, Elizabeth's already-hard nipple and applied more and more pressure, which made Elizabeth moan deeper and louder.
Lulling her head back, Elizabeth's chest rose and fell more and more rapidly and she cried out when Anna leaned in and grazed her teeth across the delicate flesh, flicking the tip with her tongue. Elizabeth whimpered and gripped the back of Anna's head, holding her to her breast. With the opposite hand, Anna massaged Elizabeth's left breast, gripping the underside, pushing and pulling the flesh between her fingers. Suddenly, Anna switched sides: her mouth latched on to the opposite nipple while her left hand rubbed and caressed Elizabeth's left breast. Anna listened to Elizabeth's moans adding more and more pressure, alternating from breast to breast. Elizabeth kept her head back, her eyes squeezed closed and her hand on the back of Anna's head, never hoping she'd stop.
Keeping her hands on Elizabeth's breasts, Anna kissed her way down Elizabeth's body, to her stomach on both hips, and when she reached the top of Elizabeth's thigh, Anna pushed her back against the pillows and blankets, while she rested on her stomach between Elizabeth's spread legs. Elizabeth ran her fingers through Anna's hair, toying with her blonde strands that fell away from Anna's ears and Anna rolled her head into Elizabeth's hand without thinking. She rested her head on the top of Elizabeth's thigh, enjoying the feel of her hands in her hair. She took a deep breath and blew Elizabeth's curls, running her own fingers through Elizabeth's delicate hair, smiling when Elizabeth began to giggle. Anna did it again and again until Elizabeth's laugh grew louder and louder. She was laughing so hard that Anna nearly fell off of her, but she stopped suddenly when Anna ran her finger across her labia, making Elizabeth gasp and grip the side of Anna's head tighter. Anna smirked and despite liking Elizabeth’s reaction, she stopped suddenly, sitting up and grinning from ear to ear.
“Just, hurry up already.”
Anna grinned and lifted an eyebrow, silently eyeing Elizabeth’s command, before she bent her head and went to work.
Anna took one finger and stretched her knuckle across Elizabeth’s delicate folds, delighting in her sudden shift. With her her heels, Elizabeth pulled herself down and elevated her hips; the angle gave Anna more access and she slid her mouth into Elizabeth, tasting the excitement that beaded on her skin.
Elizabeth moaned as Anna’s tongue traced the outside of her labia. Anna moved from the left side to the right, skipping over the middle with her tongue, but still let her finger do all the work. The sounds Elizabeth made was beyond anything Anna had ever heard before and nothing like she had ever imagined and she relished in it completely.
Switching back and forth grew wary for Elizabeth and she stopped Anna from moving by placing her hands firmly on either side of Anna’s head. Elizabeth ran her hands through Anna’s hair and rubbed her thumbs over Anna’s ears; she finally stopped moving and focused on Elizabeth’s center.
Anna slid her finger into Elizabeth, just past her fingernail and touched Elizabeth’s clitoris with the tip of her tongue. Elizabeth gasped sharply, sucking in a breath and releasing an entirely new sound. Anna smiled into Elizabeth’s folds. Gently, she took the sensitive nub between her lips and sucked on it eagerly as she pushed her finger deeper inside Elizabeth, enjoying the cries she made and lapping up the thick cream that expelled itself from her body.
Elizabeth tightened her legs, moving them up and crossing them over Anna’s back while tightening the grip she had around Anna’s head. Arching her back, Elizabeth gave the loudest, most powerful scream of the night as her inner muscles clamped around Anna’s finger and a hot, white creamed flowed out of her body and into Anna’s mouth. Anna smiled, listening to the cries that were brought on by her own doing; she couldn’t help feeling proud of herself.
Sliding up Elizabeth’s body, Anna found Elizabeth’s face and with two hands on either side of her head, drew her lover in for a passionate kiss before settling down on the pillows beside her. Slowly, Elizabeth’s breath returned to normal and she lulled her head over sleepily and looked at Anna with shinning eyes. She opened her mouth to say something but the only sound she could produce was a soft sigh before she lay her head on Anna’s shoulder, smiling as Anna wrapped her arms around her and held her tight as Elizabeth drifted off to sleep.
//
They laid together, side by side, shoulder to shoulder, drifting in and out of sleep in Anna’s overstuffed bed, when Anna looked up at Elizabeth and realized that she was thinking about something. Elizabeth had a huge smile over her face and her eyes were shining.
“What?” Anna said, making Elizabeth take notice and after she realized that Anna had been watching her the whole time, the smiled faded and she look slightly embarrassed.
“Nothing,” said quickly.
“There was something going on. I could see it all over your face.”
“I... I was thinking...” Elizabeth answered slowly; she looked at Anna and made eye contact but looked away quickly.
“You were thinking about what?” Anna asked stared at Elizabeth and didn’t let go of her hand.
Elizabeth laughed and shook her head, looking away from Anna. “No, it’s silly.”
“C’mon,” Anna said, playfully tugging at Elizabeth’s arm, “out with it!” She propped herself up on to her side and supported her head with the opposite hand.
Elizabeth looked back at Anna and smiled sheepishly. “Alright,” she closed her eyes before she started and opened them to find Anna’s eager smile. “I was thinking
“After one night? Wow... you must have enjoyed yourself more than you let on,” Anna said teasingly, looking rather proud of herself.
Elizabeth laughed, smiling at the memories. “It’s more than that,” she said shyly, looking up at Anna with soft eyes. Anna realized she was serious and her smile faded.
“Tell me.”
“I... I was thinking about a place... a place where you and I could be together... where we could meet in secret and just... just be together... Some place magical, with towers and princess and unicorns...” Elizabeth trailed off, waiting for a response. But Anna only bit her lip and narrowed her eyes, not completely understanding what Elizabeth was saying.
“You could be the sorceress... we could travel together, at night, with nothing but the mood lighting our path...” she trailed off and smiled uncomfortably and all of a sudden she felt uncomfortable and wished that she hadn’t said anything at all.
“Are... are you saying that I... that I bewitched you...?”
Elizabeth looked at Anna sharply and suddenly, her eyes welled with tears and she swallowed everything that she was holding on to, unable to say anything at all.
“Hey,” Anna said kindly as she reached her hand out and wiped away the few droplets that started to scatter across Elizabeth’s face. “None of that.”
“I’m sorry,” Elizabeth said, thankful for the touches that peppered her face and skin.
Anna didn’t say anything, she just kissed Elizabeth’s face all over until there was nothing left but smiles and the sound of delighted laughter. Anna pulled Elizabeth’s hand up to her mouth and kissed it lightly.
"I think you're still drunk," Anna said, amused and touched at the thought of such an offer. She kissed each of Elizabeth’s knuckles, one by one.
"Maybe," Elizabeth laughed. "I'm a bit of a light weight. I don't normally drink that much, so it's possible."
They were quiet for awhile; a cool breeze came in from the open window, and Elizabeth pulled the blanket up around Anna to keep her warm. "Thank you," she whispered demurely and then after awhile, she murmured: "you know, it does sound nice."
"What?" Elizabeth asked, sitting up and putting her hand behind her head for support.
"That... that place. It does sound really nice," Anna leaned over and kissed the end of Elizabeth's nose.
"Yeah," Elizabeth said smiling. "I think so too."
She lay her head back down on the pillows beside Anna’s shoulder and fell asleep in her warm embrace.
//
Suddenly and fully awake, Anna woke up with a beautiful woman lying beside her, and realized that she needed something more, that their time together wasn’t finished and that, even though they were late into the night, they still had all the time in the world. She leaned over and kissed Elizabeth’s face all over, rubbing her hands down her body and squeezing her breasts along the way. She was a slightly afraid that Elizabeth would just push her away, content on sleeping through the brewing storm outside, but was happy when Elizabeth started waking up and returning her kisses.
“Hey,” she said sleepily. She opened her eyes to the shadows on Anna’s face. Waking up, Elizabeth sat up but was immediately reduced to confusion when Anna grabbed her by the wrist and started pulling her from the bed. She opened her mouth to protest but the only sound that came out was “wha---?”
Anna laughed, pulling herself off of the bed, not letting go of Elizabeth’s wrist. She tugged at her partner. “C’mon,” she said, still smiling.
“Where are we going?” Elizabeth sounded exasperated. Her cheeks were pink and her breasts were flushed, glowing with a rose hue, as they rose and fell with each breath.
Anna dropped Elizabeth’s wrist but her smirk didn’t fade. “Don’t you trust me?” she asked. She lifted her eyebrow and Elizabeth nearly melted in front of her.
“I....” the flush from her breasts travelled up her neck and settled on her already-pinked cheeks.
“Just trust me.”
Anna walked away from the bed and towards a nearby door, disappearing out of sight. Soon, a rush of water and a heavy head of steam floated out of the door that Anna left partially open. Elizabeth waited a few seconds, so as not to seem too eager; she held the corner of the down duvet with her thumb and forefinger, rubbing it in circles. It was soft, like Anna’s skin, but hard, like her nipples as they pressed into the side of her leg. Elizabeth closed her eyes and imagined the feel of Anna’s fingers sliding across her labia and as slight as the touch had been, the memory of it made her shiver. Her body bended unconsciously and she opened her eyes to find Anna’s bedroom full of steam and a curious scent coming from the shower. Elizabeth took a deep breath and followed the trail into the bathroom after her.
//
She was soaking wet, water running off of her head, down her shoulders, making two little waterfalls over her breasts, disappearing somewhere around her knees, after traveling off her stomach. Her blonde hair filled with water and she gathered it up in one long twist of hair over her shoulder. She adjusted the water and pretended not to notice Elizabeth standing behind her, leaning up against the wall.
There was no bathtub in Anna’s bathroom. Instead, she had one large shower, comfortable enough for two, even with the tiled seat that jetted out from the corner. The shower head was large and round with several different massage settings built in. She had every kind of shampoo, conditioner and body wash known to man on a hanging plastic rack over the shower’s neck. The shower door slid open and closed and had several frosted stripes on key points of the glass, making it difficult for anyone to see anything more than short teases of the shower’s occupant. It was a grand and beautiful unit, but the lack of a proper bathtub was disappointing to Elizabeth and it registered on her face clearly.
“You don’t have a bathtub.”
Anna turned the water on and adjusted it to suit them both. “No. Never really like taking a bath all that much.” She turned to Elizabeth, approaching her slowly, slinking her body across the floor and into Elizabeth’s arms. Anna kissed her along the jaw line to her ear lobe and down the side of her neck.
“I’m guessing you prefer a bath then?” Anna switched to the other side of Elizabeth’s face, but not before she pressed another kiss against Elizabeth’s lips. She tilted her head back, giving Anna full access to the soft spot under her ear and across from her jaw. “Mhm,” Elizabeth breathed.
“Well,” Anna said, taking Elizabeth by the hand and leading her to the shower. “I’ll just have to make sure you get used to them.”
She turned Elizabeth around, leaning her against the titles gently, her head in the rising team. Elizabeth closed her eyes against the heat, relishing in the feeling of Anna’s hands on her back as they moved up and down her spine expertly. She groaned when Anna began to pepper her back with light kisses as her hands wrapped around her body and started squeezing her breasts with different degrees of pressure. Elizabeth lulled her head back, her ear scrapping against Anna’s, and she gasped when Anna kissed the delicate skin beneath her ear.
“You know...” Elizabeth said when she could, “it’s not that I don’t like showers....”
“What is it then?” Anna asked, only slightly interested in the conversation; her mouth was too busy working Elizabeth’s flesh into a goose-puckering frenzy of need.
“...I... I think it’s because I don’t have anyone to share them with....” Elizabeth closed her eyes, not bothering to continue her sentence.
“Oh, well, if you’re looking for a new shower buddy, I would be happy to accommodate you.”
“I could get used to this.”
Anna smiled and took Elizabeth by the hand the two of them slid the shower door open and into the pouring water. It was hot, but not too hot. Anna held Elizabeth’s hand in the water. “Is that too hot for you baby?” Anna whispered into her ear. She rubbed her hand over Elizabeth’s and the water tickled her skin as Anna left droplets over her pale skin. A thick head of steam was moving from the shower stall across the ceiling, fogging up the mirror and made beads of sweat that traveled along the back of their necks and down their spines.
Despite the heavy heat, Elizabeth shivered in Anna’s arms. “Um, no. It’s nice, actually.”
“I figured it would be too hot for you,” Anna said as she wrapped her arms around Elizabeth tighter, leaving one hand under her breast and stroking her skin with her thumb.
“I do like hot showers, on the occasion, I mean.” Elizabeth took a step forward and into the shower. She let the water soak into her hair before she turned around and pulled Anna into the shower with their hands still joined.
“Hmm.” Anna dipped her head back under the running faucet, pushing the water off of her face with her hands. She looked out the corner of her eye and smiled a little when she saw Elizabeth watching the water cascade down her body. “Then it should be just perfect for you.”
Anna looked up at Elizabeth out of the corner of her eye and smiled when Elizabeth rolled her eyes and pushed herself up off of the wall and stepped into the shower. The shower wasn’t that large, but it was somewhat comfortable enough for two with a curiously convenient seat that jetted out from the corner. Anna pressed Elizabeth up against the tiled wall and laid a set of furious kisses on her face, finding her way to Elizabeth’s mouth without any hesitation. Elizabeth’s hands found Anna’s breasts and she squeezed and massaged them as Anna’s tongue slipped into Elizabeth’s mouth. Anna moaned into Elizabeth’s mouth and Elizabeth pressed her thumbs into Anna’s nipples, forcing her to arch her back and break their kiss.
They both laughed and Elizabeth put her hand up against the side of Anna’s head. She ran her hand around the back of Anna’s neck and pulled her in for another kiss, only this time her hands didn’t go for her breasts, but over her shoulders and down her spine, running a hand over her bum and cupping it gently.
Anna’s breasts pressed into Elizabeth’s and she lay her head on Elizabeth’s shoulder and as she rubbed Anna’s backside, Anna slipped her hands behind Elizabeth, crisscrossing them behind her body, and tracing the outline of her bum with her fingers. She reached down further and finally reached the part that she so desired, and when she stroked it again, all of the sensations and the memories came flooding back to Elizabeth and she cried out loudly, gripping Anna tightly.
Anna smiled into Elizabeth’s shoulder. She closed her eyes against the heat and back spray of the hot water and leaned into Elizabeth further, until she could slide a single finger deep inside of her.
Elizabeth’s reaction was something completely unexpected to Anna: she didn’t cry out, she didn’t say anything at all. Her grip merely tightened around Anna as her inner muscles contracted and an something new entirely coated Anna’s finger. She pulled it out slowly, opening her eyes long enough to watch as the slick washed down the drain with the rest of the shower.
She was falling suddenly and it took her a few seconds to realize that she wasn’t falling at all: Elizabeth was pushing her back on to the corner seat and the moment she was seated, Elizabeth was pulling her knees apart, and resting on her toes between them. She pushed Anna’s feet up so they were resting against her bum and she rounded her back against into the corner, gripping the wet edges as best she could.
“It’s a good thing this shower seat is so big,” she mumbled as she ran a hand over Elizabeth’s wet head.
Despite the water’s heat, she shivered as she felt Elizabeth’s caress her delicate skin. Elizabeth smiled in return, but she was too focused on the task at hand to say anything in response. She ran two fingers over Anna’s labia and despite the water that ran down her body, Anna was visibly wet, waiting in anticipation for Elizabeth to make her next move. She shifted uncomfortable on her wet seat, but as Elizabeth replaced her fingers with her tongue, Anna stopped shifting all together. She moaned out loud as Elizabeth pushed her curls to the side with her fingers and flicked her tongue over her thick folds. Anna gripped the back of Elizabeth’s head, holding her tightly, as she finally found the bundle of nerves and massaged it gently with the tip of her tongue.
Anna’s moans were louder than the rushing water and even though she still had water running down her body, she could feel each of Elizabeth’s strokes, prods, and touches as clearly as if she were laying dry on her bed. Elizabeth listened carefully to each sound the other woman made, and as they grew more and more frantic, she plunged two fingers deep inside of her, while keeping a tight seal around her clitoris with her lips, relishing in the feel of Anna’s inner muscles contracting around her fingers tightly. Elizabeth licked around her swollen folds hungrily, tasting nothing but sweetness.
Elizabeth half expected Anna to rest after her first orgasm but she was wrong. Instead, she found herself being pushed backwards as Anna put her heels against Elizabeth’s shoulders, pushing her out of the shower stall and down on to the bathroom floor. She lay on a thick matt and she pushed herself up on to her elbows, watching as Anna turned the water off and side stepped out of the shower. She hung on to the shower stall’s walls and grinned from ear to ear as Elizabeth pulled on leg up and rested her foot on the floor.
Anna didn’t say anything. She kneeled down beside Elizabeth and wiped the excess water off of her with a nearby towel. After she was somewhat dry, Anna curled herself up against Elizabeth’s form, pulling her as close as she could possibly get, not caring that they were still on the bathroom floor with nothing but the rain starting to rage outside.
//
As the water slowly evaporated in the bathroom, dark clouds swirled around outside and overtop of Anna’s house and thunder boomed in the distance. The air turned very cold as the wind picked up and tossed around various bits of debris that littered the quiet street in the deep of night. Completely obscured by the angry clouds, the moon missed out on witnessing two women curled up together on a cooling bathroom floor. The open window in the bathroom let the cold wind blow in; Elizabeth shivered in Anna’s arms. Her skin puckered and she drew her legs up to her chest instinctively. Releasing Elizabeth for a moment, Anna stood up and walked over to the window, pulling it closed and drawing the wooden shutters closed. There was nothing but the sound of rain hitting the window. They were the only two left in the whole world.
Alone but together, Elizabeth still lay on her back in quiet anticipation, as Anna came back to her, laying down beside her and wrapping Elizabeth up in her arms. Even though they both knew that the rest would come, there was nothing but this moment. She relished in the feeling of Anna's hands as they climbed up her skin, stroking her leg from ankle to to kneecap. Elizabeth bent her leg and enjoyed supporting Anna's weight as she rested her chin on Elizabeth's knee. She stroked the wet strands that fell from behind Anna's ear, toying with them between two fingers.
Her darkened hair made her green eyes even brighter and suddenly, she was more beautiful than she had been before. Overcome with emotion, Elizabeth took in a sharp breath and her eyes filled with tears. She sat up quickly and gripped the sides of Anna's face with both hands and pulled her into for a kiss, silence anything that would have slipped out otherwise, ruining the moment and the night altogether.
Elizabeth pulled back slowly, letting out the breath she was holding in, casting her eyes downwards as she ran a finger over Anna's chin. She could feel the question bubbling up up inside of Anna and Elizabeth wanted to answer, wanted to explain, wanted to put her heart out knowing it was safe - but it wasn't. The risk was too great, the pain would be unbearable that threatened to steal the breath out of her very soul. Her head tipped forward from an invisible force and she rested her forehead against Anna's chest.
Anna wrapped her arms around Elizabeth's back and pulled her in tightly resting her chin on the top of Elizabeth's head and rocked her from side to side. The mood changed dramatically and even though she had been enjoying their time together, a profound fear was building up in her mind. She waited for Elizabeth to say something bus she didn't. The only sound was the night rain against the outside window.
//
Anna found the thickest towel she had - the one that she saved for especially cold days, the one she used when she felt like the world would never again be warm and the distant land of her childhood seemed nothing more than the memory of some now-forgotten dream of better days - and wrapped it around Elizabeth’s shoulders snugly. They were both still wet and naked: two sorry sights on an even sorrier night, curled up against a cold and damp bathroom wall. She wanted to say something but felt that it wasn’t the time or the place. Everything had been perfect - their meeting, the timing, their mutual feelings for each other - had all gone according to some unseen plan of perfection but buckled and crumbled down at the last seconds and Anna had no idea why.
Glancing at Elizabeth from the corner of her eye, Anna saw a woman sitting in fright of everything around her. She had the sudden urge to explain herself and to explain her actions and to apologize for too much too soon, when a surprisingly cold hand touched her arm and for a moment, Anna thought that Elizabeth could hear her thinking.
“This isn’t your fault.”
“What isn’t?”
“This.”
Elizabeth’s cryptic answer gave Anna nothing but more questions and more feelings of loss and confusion. Again, she felt the need to ask but this time, she didn’t know if she could hold it back or not, and in the end her heart won over her head and she found the question asked before she could take it back.
“What is it then?”
Elizabeth almost laughed and had she, it would certainly have broken the tension and put Anna at ease, but she didn’t. It hurt when she swallowed her laughter in one big gulp and to compensate for the sudden pain in her chest, she reached out and squeezed Anna’s hand tightly.
“I’m sorry for being like this,” Elizabeth said sheepishly, embarrassed for making such a fuss and annoyed by the fact that this wasn’t the first time her heart ran away with her head.
“You still haven’t told me what’s going on, what you’re thinking about. You look like you’re about to cry,” Anna said, suddenly angry and frustrated by Elizabeth’s lack of trust; her anger quickly turned into fear when she realized exactly what the problem was: this had all been a mistake. This had all come too fast and too strong. Anna was suddenly convinced that Elizabeth was having second thoughts about their coupling and now it was too late to take any of it back. Their night played out in her head like a movie with no sound and she was hopeless to do anything but watch in quiet silence as her mind’s eye played back what should have been happy memories and instead, she felt sick to her stomach. They’re relationship had gone from being happy and fun to sexy and loving to broken and cold all in a matter of moments. Anna looked up at Elizabeth, but she refused to make contact. Instead, she stared directly ahead of her, and when Anna looked away, everything was confirmed, and solid in her head. Elizabeth didn’t trust her, and Anna couldn’t blame her for feeling that way. But at the same time, she felt angry and betrayed. She thought that their coupling had been one mutual passion but apparently, her partner didn’t feel the same way.
Anna felt as if someone kicked her hard in the stomach, knocking the wind out of her as her crumpled body bounced off the cold concrete of despair. She drew her hands up to her face and ran them over her skin, pushing the expelling tears down her cheeks, letting them dissolve into the drying damp that still peppered her flushed features. Like an iron ball, she was left plunging over a cliff, only to hit the fast-approaching water with a pain she could hardly describe, let alone bear, and she sunk to the cold bottom, alone.
“Hey,” Elizabeth said suddenly, gripping Anna by the arm, lacing her fingers together and pulling her back up to the surface. Anna gasped aloud, pulling in precious breath that reminded her body to fight, fight for life and love and them, for the two who still lay together entwined on the bathroom floor. Elizabeth tugged at Anna’s arm and she was hurled back into the moment by the desperate and concerned look in Elizabeth’s eyes.
“Why don’t you trust me?” The question caught them both off guard: Elizabeth because she heard it and Anna because she asked.
“I... I do trust you. That’s not the issue at all --” Elizabeth said slowly but she was cut off by Anna’s voice.
“If you did,” she said sitting up fully and taking Elizabeth’s head between both hands and looking at her squarely in the eyes. “Because if you did you would have told me already.”
Elizabeth swallowed and Anna released Elizabeth from her grip. “No, you don’t understand. I really do trust you. I wouldn’t have even come with you if I didn’t. I wanted to be here, with you. Don’t you see that? Don’t you understand that?”
Anna opened her mouth but didn’t say anything. She looked down quickly and then back up, waiting for Elizabeth to continue.
“It’s just...” Elizabeth stopped to take a deep breath and to collect her thoughts. “It’s just that I’m scared that I’d... fall for you.”
The room was quiet again. Neither woman looked at each other; the tiles in the bathroom much more interesting than the potential heart break that Anna offered Elizabeth.
“Darling,” Anna started, still not looking up at Elizabeth. “I --”
“No,” Elizabeth said quickly, shaking her head fast and the movement caught Anna’s attention and she finally looked up at the woman in front of her. “It’s okay, really. I... this happens to me on the occasion... I just... I fall too easily, I guess.”
Anna smiled softly. “It’s not that I can’t...” she trailed off because there was nothing she could say, nothing at all that would make it better. Elizabeth swallowed and tried to look away but the gaze Anna held on her was so strong and so powerful that she couldn’t help but meet Anna’s eye with her own. Green locked and held on to blue for what seemed like an eternity until Elizabeth’s eyes suddenly welled up with tears and Anna finally released Elizabeth and let her look away and turn so she could rest her back against the bathroom wall and hug her knees into her chest.
“...It’s just that I’m afraid to,” Anna admitted quietly, so quietly that Elizabeth had to strain to hear her and the sudden declaration had Elizabeth go from staring at the floor, to straining to hear Anna correctly to turning sharply in utter amazement. Elizabeth’s expression changing from sadness to shock and surprise and she had no idea what to say. She never expected Anna to return her feelings. Not that she thought she was just a one night stand, the two of them had too much chemistry with each other for their relationship to just be a one time thing, but she hardly expected Anna to match her own feelings.
Now it was Anna’s turn to not make eye contact and she started playing with carpet fibers on the bath matt she was sitting on. Elizabeth had no idea what to say: she felt like a well of sheer joy was bubbling up inside of her, and even though Anna didn’t come right out and return her feelings, there was potential there. Potential for something great and never-ending. She swallowed, feeling her dry throat click and she gave a little cough to clear it out. Elizabeth took in a deep breath and released it slowly. With the breath came all of the fear and frustration that she was holding on to and the only thing left to do was laugh.
Elizabeth laughed and laughed, the light and happy sound filling the bathroom, silencing all of the negative emotions that were floating around, finally putting fear and anxiety to bed. The situation wasn’t funny, far from it. Elizabeth’s laughter was the release of all the tension she was holding on to and the joy of their coupling reached her again, all of the memories of their recent trysts came back to her and there was nothing but a blinding happiness deep in her heart. The look on Anna’s face wasn’t helping, as she clearly didn’t understand what Elizabeth was laughing at and the look only made her laugh harder. Nearly doubled over from laughter, Elizabeth pulled Anna into her arms and held on to her as she laughed and laughed. Anna pulled back with a quizzical expression on her face and the more Elizabeth laughed, the more Anna began to smile and like an infection that spread rapidly, she was soon laughing too.
“Look,” Anna said finally when the two started to calm down. “You can tell me anything, anything at all. Because there’s a chance that I’ll say yes.” They smiled at each other and kissed each other slowly and sweetly, with everything that they were both feeling overflowing in a kind of ecstasy neither had ever experienced before.
“Sorry,” Elizabeth said honestly and sheepishly. She honestly hadn’t meant for that conversation to go the way it had, but she couldn’t have been happier with the outcome. “I think that we both need to get some sleep.”
Anna nodded. “This floor is not as comfortable now as it was before.”
“Yeah,” Elizabeth said agreeing. “Plus, I think your bed is much warmer than this bathroom is. Neither of us want to get sick.”
“What? You don’t want me to play nurse for you?” Anna said coyly as the two stood up. Anna wrapped her arm around Elizabeth’s waist, keeping her upright and steady as they swayed back to Anna’s bedroom and her empty bed.
Elizabeth smiled and rubbed her fingers on the bridge of her nose. “I have a feeling that your going to have to be my nurse in the morning, regardless.”
//
As the wind died off, as the trees finally quit their violent shaking, and as the heavy rain relaxed into a soft pitter patter, the two women on the bathroom floor picked themselves up and followed each other back to the safety and warmth of a familiar bed that held so much promise and so much love. All of their words were finished, all their emotions expressed and out and as they fell into bed together, they were both asleep immediately and with no other regrets. The clouds above them parted slowly and soon the moon exchanged places with the sun, rousing all who had slept throughout the hot and sticky dusk and the violent storm that finally released all of the earth’s tensions as the storm cleared, allowing everyone a sigh of much needed relief, as the sun rose, feeding the beginning of the day.
//
Elizabeth woke up groggy, unfocused and slightly confused; she had a splitting headache. She turned over in the unfamiliar bed, rubbing her fingers over her temples and the bridge of her nose, suddenly realizing that the empty space beside her had been slept in. There was a light coming from the open bathroom and she pulled the blanket up over her head, shielding her eyes from the brightness. The sheets smelled like sex and suddenly she was fully awake and remembered everything about the night before. She heard footsteps and the bed shifted as someone sat down beside her and peeled the blankets back.
“Good morning, sunshine,” Anna smiled at Elizabeth and leaned into her, kissing her on the tip of her nose. Anna’s eyes glinted and she wrinkled her nose just before she deepened their kiss. When they pulled back from each other, Anna stroked the side of Elizabeth’s face and pulled her into her chest, laying them both down on the bed.
“What happened?” Elizabeth asked. She shifted down until she found a comfortable spot on Anna’s chest, relaxing against her breast. The question was unnecessary: Elizabeth remembered exactly what happened the night before, every moment and ever detail of their coupling but something compelled her to ask the question anyway. A thousand minutes passed in a few seconds, each of them showed their strain on Anna’s face and even though she wasn’t looking directly at Anna, Elizabeth could feel her panic. It ripped through Anna’s body and made her want to jump up and runaway suddenly, but instead, she took in a sharp breath, one that Elizabeth felt rumble beneath her chest, and gripped Elizabeth tightly, pulling her closer to her body; she readjusted her chin on top of Elizabeth’s head, searching for a response.
“You had to much to drink last night,” Anna answered finally, bracing herself for the reply.
“... drink...” Elizabeth mumbled. She ran a hand over the side of her face, delaying the inevitable.
“Whisky, I think,” Anna replied, stalling for precious time.
“That was you. I don’t drink whisky.”
“Oh, right. Vodka and Redbull then?”
“That sounds more likely.”
Elizabeth sat up, getting off of Anna and swinging her legs over the bed’s edge, squinting against the light in the apartment. She sighed heavily and looked back at Anna’s worried face, feeling suddenly sympathetic. Gripping Anna’s hand, Elizabeth ran her fingers over the side of Anna’s face, tracing her body’s outline all the way down to her hip. She smiled, genuinely bright and happy. “I... I don’t want you to think that last night was only because of some alcohol induced stupor because it wasn’t,” she said honestly.
Anna laughed lightly, nervously, guardedly, trying to make it sound as though that never crossed her mind. “I don’t think that.”
Elizabeth smiled mirthlessly and rolled her eyes, she sat up and looked at Anna deadly serious. “Don’t lie to me.”
Taken aback slightly, Anna tried to break away from Elizabeth’s eye contact but she couldn’t.
Elizabeth turned around and slid over the down duvet towards Anna, who looked almost startled. She reached out and grabbed one of Anna’s hands. “I’m serious,” she said. Her blue eyes welled with tears and she sucked in an unexpected breath. “I wanted to be there. I wanted to be with you and I wanted you.” Here eyes were were so blue and deep that Anna felt as if she were lost, swimming through a world where it was just the two of them and no one else.
“You’re so beautiful,” she whispered, sitting up and resting her forehead against Elizabeth’s. Something welled up inside of her - a deep sadness that came out of no where and settle itself in her chest, just beneath her throat. She could feel it and she could taste it: a sick desperation that she didn’t recognize that made her eyes brim with tears. She tried to swallow it down but it wouldn’t go and suddenly she threw her arms up and over Elizabeth’s shoulders and pulled her in, not for a hug, but to keep her there, snug and secure against her breast. She held Elizabeth tightly, squeezing her eyes shut; the sick feeling made its way up her throat and she expelled it from her body with a gasp.
She wanted to tell Elizabeth but the memories of their night together still hung over her head and their conversation still lingered in her mind and she felt hesitant for the first time that they were together. To combat the feeling that welled up in the pit of her stomach and slowly traveled upwards to her throat, Anna squeezed back and bent over, finding Elizabeth’s lips with her own. When she released Elizabeth finally, she swallowed everything inside of her, gulping it down with a certain expertise she perfected over the years.
“I’ll make you breakfast,” Anna offered, her nose wrinkling slightly as a coy grin made its way across her face.
Elizabeth smiled and stretched, arching her back and pushing her breasts up the ceiling. “That sounds lovely,” she said, sighing happily and watching as Anna got out of bed and made a bee-line for her closet, pulling out a few things, but leaving it open for Elizabeth, in case she didn’t want to wear the same clothes she had been last night.
“I don’t think that the pants will fit you, but you never know. Anyway, you can bring whatever you borrow back anytime,” Anna said sheepishly. “My door is always open for you.” She disappeared into the kitchen, leaving Elizabeth alone to get dressed, and when Elizabeth joined Anna, they ate breakfast together, coffee for her, toast for her other, just like any other couple. Neither of them refused to give into the inevitability that hung over their heads, that soon they would be separated by the cruelty of day and would be forced to go about their routine activities as if nothing had ever happened and neither of them had fallen in love with each other.