Short 12.19 Tsubasanta con! [part of MC]
I'm sorry for taking so long to reply to EVERYONE! I fail completely!! The weekend in Osaka was very busy; I watched three cons before I had to leave for the nightbus to get back to Tokyo on sunday. I got back just in time before my schoolday began today. And a few hours later, my best friend, sassy_86, came to Tokyo so right after school ended I of course went to greet her at the stop of the Airport Limousine in Akasaka. Both exhausted - she after long flight, me after crazy weekend in Osaka - we went to the gueshouse, and then we've spent the whole aftrernoon and evening catching up.
And while I was in Osaka I didn't have my laptop with me, so the only thing I could use to update and reply to people was the comp in the hotel loby and there just wasn't enough time. I was at too many concerts, eating to much delicious Osaka-food, and trying to see as much of Osaka as I possibly could during my short stay there...
So either way! Concerning my last post...
Tsubasa really did talk to me on the 19th, during the opening show of the Tsubasanta concerts. It was surreal and fantastic and scary and extremely I-don't-know-what. Of course, it might'nt sound that special to most people but to me it really, really, really was.
For this con, me and my friend M-san had REALLY good seats! On the 5th row, seat 3-4. Which means RIGHT beside the hanamichi!! I was completely stunned when I finally found my seat. If you know me in real life, you probably know how much I try NOT to stand out at concerts. Despite being chubby and despite being just slightly taller than the average japanese girl and my extremely blonde hair.. But I really try not to be seen, at all, by the Johnny's - especially Tsubasa. He is... almost holy, I guess you could say. So I somehow didn't want him to ever see me. Ever. But somehow I failed this time... ^^;
Either way, The MC started, and already when it was actually happening everything was quite blank, actually. But even so I wll try to write something that is ALMOST coherent at least. ^^; I think he was talking about how the Osaka crowd is usually "quite rowdy, quite loud", or something. And here I thought he was looking to his right a little, one in a while - the side of the audience where I was sitting. And then he asked something along the lines of, "But is there anyone not from Osaka here today?"
He often asks this during shows - he did at World Wing in Tokyo too, a few times - but I always sit quiet, because as I said, I don't want to be noticed. And wth, it would sound stupid to just shout out, "Sueeden!" (Sweden) randomly, for some reason... But, well, my main reason for not-be-seen, is of course, that I don't want him to see me. ^^; So instead of shouting out where i was from, I sunk down lower in my seat...
A few girls from around the theatre shouted out, Tokyo!, Hiroshima! and different japanese cities. And then right behind me, a few girls - maybe three of them shouted out, Taiwan! He definitely looked to the right side of the stage then; I was sure to look at the Taiwanese girls... But no. No, he was looking at me. And I just got SO shocked and panicked that I didn't know what to do, so i just stared back at him, my eyes wide and I don't even want to imagine how shocked I must've looked like! But then he cocked his head just slightly to one side and looked at me, and asked me in japanese, "Where are you from?" But, by this time, I had already lost ALL the japanese I've learned these past 2½ months. I had NO idea what he actually said, even though it's the most basic of questions... but I just didn't know because Oh My God, Imai Tsubasa is standing just at the start of the hanamichi, and he is looking at me he is too perfect too gorgeous how is he so gorgeous what am I supposed to do he actually talked to me oh gooodddddddd~!
I replied to his last question, guessing he'd asked me where I was from. (M-san later on said it was correct, thank goodness!) So I carefully called out, "Sueeden" completely hopeless, my voice a low falsetto (!). And because I spoke so quetly, he DIDN'T HEAR ME, so he sort of made a slight "stumble" forwards onto the hanamichi, saying, "Eh? Nani?" or something like that, while turning his head so that his ear was to me and oh my god he was sooo cloooseeee and sooooooo beautiful and I really thought I was going to die because I had to answer him again while meeting his eyes. I replied, "Sueeden!" again, hopefully a little louder this time. Some of the girls around me, though - the japanese girls have higher voices than I could EVER hope to get - helped me, also calling out "Sueeden", too, so he could hear properly. ♥ Then he stood up straight and bowed his head at me and said, "Ahh, domo arigatou gozaimasu!" And then I, I don't know, I think I nodded and he smiled and then went back to the stage to start the next song... maybe?
This is all very jumbled, because I can't remember anything properly, because it all felt crazy! And when he then turned his back to me I think I could finally breathe again! I turned to hide my face against M-san's shoulder, and at the exact same second M-san leaned towards me and we bumped our foreheads together harschly by mistake. XD We were both probably a little bit shaken and hysterical and shocked and happy and...! My whole body was shaking, which probably is kind of tragic and embarrassing but it's true! He is just so beautiful and perfect I can not react any other way, he takes my breath away!
Then, during the rest of the show, I thought he was looking towards me again, several times, and it felt like we got eye-contact... but I just wasn't sure at all, I thought I was probably imagining things and that I was finally going crazy for real! But the first thing M-san said as we leaved the Shochikuza was that he had looked at me a lot, and that we'd had, "Sugee eye-contact!" and it's so so precious. It feelt like he really appreciated that someone from all the way in Sweden was there to see him. ♥
M-san laughed at me when we had dinner after the show, because I, in her words, I looked so "cute" when he talked to me, bacause I looked and sounded so surprised! I think it's the polite, japanese way of saying "LOL, you looked completely panicked, I thought you were going to die!"
I just want to end this entry by saying that I hope that, once again, I don't sound like I'm bragging or anything, because I don't mean to. I mean, of course I realize that they talk to fans often during concerts! I've been to many enough now, so I know that; I've seen it myself. Especially takitsuba takes SUCH good care of their fans and care a lot about what they think and say... But still to me, this is such a precious memory. Because as I said, even of it was just for a veryvery short time, it really did feel like he singled me out, and was happy that I was there. ♥
I admire people who actually manage to go to handshaking-ceremonies and things like that with their ab solutely favorite idols, because I for sure wouldn't ever be able to do that with Takitsuba. Because obviously I am completely hopeless and really should try and get some kind of distance to everything... it just seems like it's completely impossible; I'm too far gone already as it is!
I feel lucky, though. ♥ Even though it was completely nerve-wrecking and I completely forgot all my japanese - thank goodness he didn't ask me something more difficult, because then I wouldn't have been able to reply, at all - but still... I feel lucky. ♥
More about the concerts coming up in a few days... haven't slept almost anything at all for several days now and should really start heading off to bed pretty soon now!
And while I was in Osaka I didn't have my laptop with me, so the only thing I could use to update and reply to people was the comp in the hotel loby and there just wasn't enough time. I was at too many concerts, eating to much delicious Osaka-food, and trying to see as much of Osaka as I possibly could during my short stay there...
So either way! Concerning my last post...
Tsubasa really did talk to me on the 19th, during the opening show of the Tsubasanta concerts. It was surreal and fantastic and scary and extremely I-don't-know-what. Of course, it might'nt sound that special to most people but to me it really, really, really was.
For this con, me and my friend M-san had REALLY good seats! On the 5th row, seat 3-4. Which means RIGHT beside the hanamichi!! I was completely stunned when I finally found my seat. If you know me in real life, you probably know how much I try NOT to stand out at concerts. Despite being chubby and despite being just slightly taller than the average japanese girl and my extremely blonde hair.. But I really try not to be seen, at all, by the Johnny's - especially Tsubasa. He is... almost holy, I guess you could say. So I somehow didn't want him to ever see me. Ever. But somehow I failed this time... ^^;
Either way, The MC started, and already when it was actually happening everything was quite blank, actually. But even so I wll try to write something that is ALMOST coherent at least. ^^; I think he was talking about how the Osaka crowd is usually "quite rowdy, quite loud", or something. And here I thought he was looking to his right a little, one in a while - the side of the audience where I was sitting. And then he asked something along the lines of, "But is there anyone not from Osaka here today?"
He often asks this during shows - he did at World Wing in Tokyo too, a few times - but I always sit quiet, because as I said, I don't want to be noticed. And wth, it would sound stupid to just shout out, "Sueeden!" (Sweden) randomly, for some reason... But, well, my main reason for not-be-seen, is of course, that I don't want him to see me. ^^; So instead of shouting out where i was from, I sunk down lower in my seat...
A few girls from around the theatre shouted out, Tokyo!, Hiroshima! and different japanese cities. And then right behind me, a few girls - maybe three of them shouted out, Taiwan! He definitely looked to the right side of the stage then; I was sure to look at the Taiwanese girls... But no. No, he was looking at me. And I just got SO shocked and panicked that I didn't know what to do, so i just stared back at him, my eyes wide and I don't even want to imagine how shocked I must've looked like! But then he cocked his head just slightly to one side and looked at me, and asked me in japanese, "Where are you from?" But, by this time, I had already lost ALL the japanese I've learned these past 2½ months. I had NO idea what he actually said, even though it's the most basic of questions... but I just didn't know because Oh My God, Imai Tsubasa is standing just at the start of the hanamichi, and he is looking at me he is too perfect too gorgeous how is he so gorgeous what am I supposed to do he actually talked to me oh gooodddddddd~!
I replied to his last question, guessing he'd asked me where I was from. (M-san later on said it was correct, thank goodness!) So I carefully called out, "Sueeden" completely hopeless, my voice a low falsetto (!). And because I spoke so quetly, he DIDN'T HEAR ME, so he sort of made a slight "stumble" forwards onto the hanamichi, saying, "Eh? Nani?" or something like that, while turning his head so that his ear was to me and oh my god he was sooo cloooseeee and sooooooo beautiful and I really thought I was going to die because I had to answer him again while meeting his eyes. I replied, "Sueeden!" again, hopefully a little louder this time. Some of the girls around me, though - the japanese girls have higher voices than I could EVER hope to get - helped me, also calling out "Sueeden", too, so he could hear properly. ♥ Then he stood up straight and bowed his head at me and said, "Ahh, domo arigatou gozaimasu!" And then I, I don't know, I think I nodded and he smiled and then went back to the stage to start the next song... maybe?
This is all very jumbled, because I can't remember anything properly, because it all felt crazy! And when he then turned his back to me I think I could finally breathe again! I turned to hide my face against M-san's shoulder, and at the exact same second M-san leaned towards me and we bumped our foreheads together harschly by mistake. XD We were both probably a little bit shaken and hysterical and shocked and happy and...! My whole body was shaking, which probably is kind of tragic and embarrassing but it's true! He is just so beautiful and perfect I can not react any other way, he takes my breath away!
Then, during the rest of the show, I thought he was looking towards me again, several times, and it felt like we got eye-contact... but I just wasn't sure at all, I thought I was probably imagining things and that I was finally going crazy for real! But the first thing M-san said as we leaved the Shochikuza was that he had looked at me a lot, and that we'd had, "Sugee eye-contact!" and it's so so precious. It feelt like he really appreciated that someone from all the way in Sweden was there to see him. ♥
M-san laughed at me when we had dinner after the show, because I, in her words, I looked so "cute" when he talked to me, bacause I looked and sounded so surprised! I think it's the polite, japanese way of saying "LOL, you looked completely panicked, I thought you were going to die!"
I just want to end this entry by saying that I hope that, once again, I don't sound like I'm bragging or anything, because I don't mean to. I mean, of course I realize that they talk to fans often during concerts! I've been to many enough now, so I know that; I've seen it myself. Especially takitsuba takes SUCH good care of their fans and care a lot about what they think and say... But still to me, this is such a precious memory. Because as I said, even of it was just for a veryvery short time, it really did feel like he singled me out, and was happy that I was there. ♥
I admire people who actually manage to go to handshaking-ceremonies and things like that with their ab solutely favorite idols, because I for sure wouldn't ever be able to do that with Takitsuba. Because obviously I am completely hopeless and really should try and get some kind of distance to everything... it just seems like it's completely impossible; I'm too far gone already as it is!
I feel lucky, though. ♥ Even though it was completely nerve-wrecking and I completely forgot all my japanese - thank goodness he didn't ask me something more difficult, because then I wouldn't have been able to reply, at all - but still... I feel lucky. ♥
More about the concerts coming up in a few days... haven't slept almost anything at all for several days now and should really start heading off to bed pretty soon now!