what is my motivation?

[ltgarp]

am I afraid to move? Am I going to go to a school that offers no courses in international and comparative law, where I would have to struggle to take language courses, and spend years of extra time gaining the additional education I desire simply because I'm dreading the effort of searching out a new place to live, and because I would miss kluggernaut

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[parede]

i just saw this. ack. why are you afriad of me seeing you unhappy? i've seen you at your worst...

um,

[ltgarp]

because I am really uncomfortable with exposing to you that I am an insecure weakling sometimes. I guess it's probably because I'm not sure if I can deal with rejection from you, and probably one huge source of my inconsiderate assholery for acouple of years. It was earier to be callous and distant and mean than to be vulnerable and weak.

I'm sorry, you know that.