Seriously, I don't know much anymore ( Read more... )

I am in love with Nicholas Alan Hazen.

He's asleep on the couch behind me right now. He showed up at my house at around 6 because he could sleep and he was worried about me. He finally got inside at 7:30ish and gave me a rose. We slept together on the couch for a long while.

I love that man.

Dude: [Exiting his place of business] Aw, man.

Woman, Complete Stranger, Standing on Curb: [Gruffly] What's the problem?

Dude: [Gesturing at the pouring rain] I don't know what I'm going to do.

Woman: You're gonna get wet, that's what you're gonna do!

Dude: Yeah ...

Woman: Oh quit your complaining, it's raining on everyone.

I'm sorry I want to hang out with the guy I'm dating one time this week.

I have so much to say but I feel that here is the only place I can say it. I don't want Katie to read this and be all upset but I wish Nick knew this was here so I didn't feel so guilty writing about him ( Read more... )

Nick's grandfather is dying. Fast ( Read more... )

Nick's parents were gone for the weekend. You'd think that would've meant I got to hang out with him at his house with no one around. And that would've been awesome. Especially since I was worked up all weekend and was in desperate need of someone to cuddle. But no. I went to his house with him once ( Read more... )

So last night I wasn't doing that great. I'd let everything build up and I took everything at equal value ( Read more... )

I'll admit it.

I really want a baby and children and a family.

But I'm afraid of sex.

I figure that just means I'm "not ready" or whatever.

No matter how much I want to.

I'm afraid.

I think the thing I love most about Nick is the fact that even when I have my shirt off, he looks straight into my eyes and his hands don't wander.