A Broken Repair {One Shot}
Title: A Broken Repair
Pairing: Kemaru
Rating: PGish
Summary: Kevin broke Kibum’s heart when he did nothing wrong. Kevin tries to explain everything to him but Kibum doesn’t listen.
Warning: hints of suicide.
A/N: So things have slowly started to thin out a little on what needs to be taken care of in my life. On a plus side I finally got a job ^_^ Took me three months to do so but I did it. Also because of the job my fics will probably be more spread out than what they are now. I’ll try to write as much as possible though. ^_^ also I need to thank a good friend for inspiring me to finish this. Thanks a ton!
A/N: This is also part of the U-Kiss Fic challenge
We were just sitting there. No one was saying a word. Things had become strange with the seven of is but we were trying to make it work for the better of everyone including the fans.
Soohyun had officially taken the role of the leader. Hoon was keeping up on one of my parts. AJ was learning how to rap from Eli and Dongho. Kiseop was no longer in the background and I never changed… Well not much that is.
Now don’t get me wrong I was very upset about losing Xander and Kibum but there was nothing I could do about it. Xander did eventually forgive me after about a month or so while Kibum still doesn’t say a single word to me.
Xander realized that it wasn’t us members who had made the decision of who was going to be kicked out of the group. But Kibum still won’t listen to any of us. This brings us to where we are now with the silence. The seven of us who are here is not the Aj and Hoon addition of U-Kiss it is the original seven of us.
I was sitting at the head of the table with Xander, Kiseop and Dongho to my right and Kibum, Eli and Soohyun to my left.
Everyone had finished eating a long time ago but even then all we had was small talk about how everyone was doing and what the activities of every was.
Everyone but Kibum knew the reason behind the gathering. I wanted to repair the broken relationship with Kibum. Kibum on the other hand thought that it was just to meet the new members (though he had met AJ).
It was Kibum who spoke up first, “So I though that I was brought here to meet the person who replaced me.” He had a glare in his eye and a sour tone in his voice as he spoke.
Soohyun cleared his throat and everyone but Xander, Kibum and I stood up.
“They will be here in about ten minutes,” Eli said with a concerned tone in his voice. “Sadly the rest of us have to get to recordings.” Eli picked up his jacket off the floor before leading the table.
The others followed suit shortly after making similar excuses. After the table was cleared out Xander cleared his throat as if he was going to say something, but he didn’t.
Xander and I then gave each other looks as if we knew to keep Kibum with us until Kibum and I started talking again to each other.
“Kevin, if this is your way to get me to forgive you it won’t work.” Kibum spoke up keeping his eyes down.
I looked up at him in a surprise as he had scared me a little. ‘So he figured it out.’ I though to myself as Kibum just stared at the empty plate in front of him.
Xander was the next to speak, “Kibum you need to listen to Kevin, just sit here for ten minutes and let him explain. I’ll even leave if you want me to.” Xander gave a look to me that spoke ‘This might work’ as I nodded in response to his sentence.
Kibum held his poker face. Finally after a couple of minutes of all of us being quite Kibum cleared his throat.
“I would like Xander to leave the table but not the building. Kevin you have exactly ten minutes to explain everything.”
I sat there shocked for a couple of seconds before I saw Xander get up and move to the front of the restaurant. I looked out of the corner of my eye and noticed that the elder was occupying his time by flirting with the young waitress at the front I smiled a little at his childness. I turned back to Kibum who was still holding his poker face staring at the plate in front of him.
I took a big gulp of water before I spoke. “Kibum, please…” I wasn’t completely sure what I wanted to say to the person I loved so much.
He looked at me with a glare and was about to get up until I placed a hand on his. That was something that I had missed, his touch.
“Kibum, please just listen,” I spoke softly. He nodded so I continued. “You misunderstood us. Do you really thing that I would separate us again on purpose?” He remained silent. “When I was told that you were the one being kicked out my heart had completely shattered.”
~~~~~
By the time I had finished talking, I was in tears and Kibum was clenching his fists. I wasn’t sure is he was mad or upset. His whole body was trembling.
Xander saw that I had made my speech to Kibum and rushed over to the both of us He took me in his arms and held me. I didn’t realize that I still had my hand on Kibum’s until he pulled his away.
Before Kibum stood up I looked at him with pleading eyes and said with tears running down my eyes, “Kibum, please, let us repair our relationship.”
He looked at me for the first time in two year. There were tears filling up in his eyes but he blinked them away before they could fall.
“Kibum, I told you to just listen and you would get the truth that you were looking for.” Xander said as he rubbed circles on my back soothing me.
Kibum looked at me as he stood up. “Give me time to think about it.”
I nodded and watched as his familiar figure walked away.
~~~~~
Two weeks after I told the truth to Kibum I finally heard from him. It was a letter that was written in English. I smiled as I did know it was his writing and not typed up. However my smiled fell as I read the note.
Dear Kevin,
You have been my love forever. I never forget you.
Kevin, you make my heart beat fast when you smile. Though you broke my heart once I won’t let you do again.
I now see what happen and you forgiven.
As for relation. The damage done, it to late for repair.
I miss you forever.
Love,
Kim Kibum
That was all it had said. I looked in the envelope to see if there was something else there and I found a silver necklace.
It was the other half to mine that I wore most of the time. Mine said “Our Hope”, while his said “Our Love.” He was right, the damage was done and there wasn’t going to a repair on our relationship.
I tore my necklace off and threw it on the floor. I knew that no one cares what I did now days. He had finally broken my heart the last and final time.
I called and left Xander a message telling him to come to my place as soon as he could. As soon as I hung up I went to the bathroom and pulled out all the drugs I could find.
Throwing the pills to the back of my throat I took the mouth wash and swallowed. Slowly I walked back to the living room and laid down on the couch, that I had shared with him. Shortly after I heard knocking on my door as I feel into a deep sleep.
Pairing: Kemaru
Rating: PGish
Summary: Kevin broke Kibum’s heart when he did nothing wrong. Kevin tries to explain everything to him but Kibum doesn’t listen.
Warning: hints of suicide.
A/N: So things have slowly started to thin out a little on what needs to be taken care of in my life. On a plus side I finally got a job ^_^ Took me three months to do so but I did it. Also because of the job my fics will probably be more spread out than what they are now. I’ll try to write as much as possible though. ^_^ also I need to thank a good friend for inspiring me to finish this. Thanks a ton!
A/N: This is also part of the U-Kiss Fic challenge
We were just sitting there. No one was saying a word. Things had become strange with the seven of is but we were trying to make it work for the better of everyone including the fans.
Soohyun had officially taken the role of the leader. Hoon was keeping up on one of my parts. AJ was learning how to rap from Eli and Dongho. Kiseop was no longer in the background and I never changed… Well not much that is.
Now don’t get me wrong I was very upset about losing Xander and Kibum but there was nothing I could do about it. Xander did eventually forgive me after about a month or so while Kibum still doesn’t say a single word to me.
Xander realized that it wasn’t us members who had made the decision of who was going to be kicked out of the group. But Kibum still won’t listen to any of us. This brings us to where we are now with the silence. The seven of us who are here is not the Aj and Hoon addition of U-Kiss it is the original seven of us.
I was sitting at the head of the table with Xander, Kiseop and Dongho to my right and Kibum, Eli and Soohyun to my left.
Everyone had finished eating a long time ago but even then all we had was small talk about how everyone was doing and what the activities of every was.
Everyone but Kibum knew the reason behind the gathering. I wanted to repair the broken relationship with Kibum. Kibum on the other hand thought that it was just to meet the new members (though he had met AJ).
It was Kibum who spoke up first, “So I though that I was brought here to meet the person who replaced me.” He had a glare in his eye and a sour tone in his voice as he spoke.
Soohyun cleared his throat and everyone but Xander, Kibum and I stood up.
“They will be here in about ten minutes,” Eli said with a concerned tone in his voice. “Sadly the rest of us have to get to recordings.” Eli picked up his jacket off the floor before leading the table.
The others followed suit shortly after making similar excuses. After the table was cleared out Xander cleared his throat as if he was going to say something, but he didn’t.
Xander and I then gave each other looks as if we knew to keep Kibum with us until Kibum and I started talking again to each other.
“Kevin, if this is your way to get me to forgive you it won’t work.” Kibum spoke up keeping his eyes down.
I looked up at him in a surprise as he had scared me a little. ‘So he figured it out.’ I though to myself as Kibum just stared at the empty plate in front of him.
Xander was the next to speak, “Kibum you need to listen to Kevin, just sit here for ten minutes and let him explain. I’ll even leave if you want me to.” Xander gave a look to me that spoke ‘This might work’ as I nodded in response to his sentence.
Kibum held his poker face. Finally after a couple of minutes of all of us being quite Kibum cleared his throat.
“I would like Xander to leave the table but not the building. Kevin you have exactly ten minutes to explain everything.”
I sat there shocked for a couple of seconds before I saw Xander get up and move to the front of the restaurant. I looked out of the corner of my eye and noticed that the elder was occupying his time by flirting with the young waitress at the front I smiled a little at his childness. I turned back to Kibum who was still holding his poker face staring at the plate in front of him.
I took a big gulp of water before I spoke. “Kibum, please…” I wasn’t completely sure what I wanted to say to the person I loved so much.
He looked at me with a glare and was about to get up until I placed a hand on his. That was something that I had missed, his touch.
“Kibum, please just listen,” I spoke softly. He nodded so I continued. “You misunderstood us. Do you really thing that I would separate us again on purpose?” He remained silent. “When I was told that you were the one being kicked out my heart had completely shattered.”
~~~~~
By the time I had finished talking, I was in tears and Kibum was clenching his fists. I wasn’t sure is he was mad or upset. His whole body was trembling.
Xander saw that I had made my speech to Kibum and rushed over to the both of us He took me in his arms and held me. I didn’t realize that I still had my hand on Kibum’s until he pulled his away.
Before Kibum stood up I looked at him with pleading eyes and said with tears running down my eyes, “Kibum, please, let us repair our relationship.”
He looked at me for the first time in two year. There were tears filling up in his eyes but he blinked them away before they could fall.
“Kibum, I told you to just listen and you would get the truth that you were looking for.” Xander said as he rubbed circles on my back soothing me.
Kibum looked at me as he stood up. “Give me time to think about it.”
I nodded and watched as his familiar figure walked away.
~~~~~
Two weeks after I told the truth to Kibum I finally heard from him. It was a letter that was written in English. I smiled as I did know it was his writing and not typed up. However my smiled fell as I read the note.
Dear Kevin,
You have been my love forever. I never forget you.
Kevin, you make my heart beat fast when you smile. Though you broke my heart once I won’t let you do again.
I now see what happen and you forgiven.
As for relation. The damage done, it to late for repair.
I miss you forever.
Love,
Kim Kibum
That was all it had said. I looked in the envelope to see if there was something else there and I found a silver necklace.
It was the other half to mine that I wore most of the time. Mine said “Our Hope”, while his said “Our Love.” He was right, the damage was done and there wasn’t going to a repair on our relationship.
I tore my necklace off and threw it on the floor. I knew that no one cares what I did now days. He had finally broken my heart the last and final time.
I called and left Xander a message telling him to come to my place as soon as he could. As soon as I hung up I went to the bathroom and pulled out all the drugs I could find.
Throwing the pills to the back of my throat I took the mouth wash and swallowed. Slowly I walked back to the living room and laid down on the couch, that I had shared with him. Shortly after I heard knocking on my door as I feel into a deep sleep.