Missing Him
Title:Missing Him
Pairing:Alvin
Rating:PGish
Summary:Xander has fallen apart after a few quarrels with the managers and his dearly beloved. (fail!summary)
A/N:So I have discovered that I can be online at home but it’s limited use sadly =( I can live though it means I can post but it only works on my mom’s computer so we shall see how that works. I’m going to try and keep writing as much as possible now off to the next fic.
A/N:This is prompt 3 from U-Kiss challenge. Hope ya enjoy!
Sitting on a chair the young male looked out the window watching the past fly by. There was so much that he had just gone through and there was nothing that he could do to go back on it now. He knew that the future held something more for him but he just wasn’t sure what it was.
“Xander hyung you alright there?” a familiar voice spoke up.
Xander nodded and continued to stare out the window. Kibum had been there for him since the last day of his contract and now Xander was ignoring him.
‘I miss him so much’ the elder thought to himself. ‘I wish there was a way that I could see him. I want to go back.’
“Xander if you need anything call me. I’ll be at the office working on Kiro Kiro” Kibum said as he walked out of the house. “I will come back to check on you around five.” The door closed and Xander sighed in relief.
“Don’t get me wrong I’m glad I left the group. I just miss him.” Xander said to himself.
He pulled himself up out of the chair that he was sitting in. Xander slowly moved towards the computer to see what the members were up to now. Though there was a difference in his things and he had to make a choice Xander still wanted to make sure that the ones he loved were still alright.
It had been a few months since he heard from anyone except Kibum and Dongho. They all seemed to be doing well but Kevin still had the fake smile plastered on his face. Soohyun seemed more snarky than ever and Eli was just Eli. He knew how to hide his emotions on screen and he provided the fan service that everyone loved.
Xander sighed and found himself in the kitchen. There was only one other place that he loved and that was next to the one he loved. Though church was a great place as well there was just something missing in his heart.
”Xander, Why are you doing this to us?” A voice screamed down the hall. “You promised that you would never leave us!” There were footsteps that shortly followed the elder who was looking away from it all. “Xander, love, please don’t.” The man seemed to be in pain.
They knew that there was something wrong with it all but they weren’t one hundred percent on what was going to happen.
“Kevin just stop.” Xander said as he turned around. “You know I love you with all my heart. It wasn’t my choice. Just erase me.” The elder turned around and faced the door. “Kevin please don’t remember me. Just, leave it as if nothing happened. Erase me from your memories.” Xander turned to face the door.
“Alexander,” Kevin said quietly but only loud enough for the elder to freeze in his tracks. “Then you need to erase me from your memories and your past.”
Kevin turned on his heel and moved towards his bedroom. There was a slam of the door before anything new happened in the house.
He hadn’t meant to tell him that but emotions were getting in the way of everything. Xander was told to leave as soon as he could and there was nothing that he could do about it.
“I miss them.” Xander whispered to himself. “I want him back. I wish I hadn’t told him to erase me from his memories.” He sighed and pulled out a bottle from the fridge.
~~~~~
“Kibum I have a bad feeling about this. He hasn’t talked to anyone but Dongho since that day. I just want him to talk to me so we can figure it out.” The familiar voice said through the receiver. “Dongho hasn’t… Wait what was that Dongho?”
There was a gasp before the phone sounded as if it had been dropped.
“Kibum go over to Xander’s now!” another voice spoke up. “I’ll take care of Kevin but please hurry.”
The line went dead and Kibum stood there with shock in his system. ‘Xander wouldn’t do such a thing. Would he?’ he thought to himself.
Kibum tried calling Xander from his phone but there was no answer. “Shit” Kibum said as he grabbed his things and ran out of the office. He pulled out of the garage at a rather high speed before pulling into a rush of traffic. “Why, Xander why?” He kept asking himself as he sped towards the familiar house.
~~~~~
“I love you Kevin.” Xander whispered to himself as he held the knife to his throat. “I wish that you hadn’t erased me from your life even though I said so.” Sighing Xander lightly pressed the knife into his throat causing blood to trickle down his neck. He closed his eyes as things started to get dark. “I will love you forever. My love Kevin.”
~~~~~
Kevin screamed as pain lashed across his face. Dongho had just slapped him.
“What was that for?” Kevin practically yelled at the younger.
Dongho gave a saddened look towards the elder. “I can’t tell you Kibum wants to tell you.”
Kevin stared deeply at the younger before crying. “No, no, no he couldn’t have.” Kevin grabbed onto the younger pounding his fists into the floor. “I knew I shouldn’t have told him to erase me from his memories. I love him. I really do.” Kevin was whimpering as he said the last few words.
“Kevin I’m sorry. I tried.” Kibum said calmly as he sat down next to the younger. “We will all miss him”
”Kevin stop!” Xander giggled out. “I want to finish this before you get done with your homework.”
Kevin pouted before moving away from the elder to go back to his books. “You know, Hyung I’m going to miss this.”
“Miss what?” Xander asked curious to what was going on.
‘Should I tell him?’ Kevin thought to himself. He shook his head.
“Kevin?”
“I’m going to miss all of us being together.”
“Why would you say that?” Xander asked not sure what to say to it all. “We will be together for a long time.”
Kevin shook his head. “If you only knew what the managers had planned for you” Kevin mumbled as he grabbed his books and moved out of the kitchen to get some studying done.
“I should have just told him then. Maybe things would have been different now.” Kevin hiccupped into Kibum’s chest. “I could have saved him.”
“Kevin, Kevin, KEVIN!” He was being shaken. “Kevin come on get up. Your having a nightmare and beating up Xander hyung.”
Kevin rolled onto his side and stared into the eyes he had missed. “Xander?” the younger male cried out pouncing on the elder. “I missed you so much and, wait nightmare?”
Xander frowned at the younger on top of him. “Kevin I love you to but will ya please get off of my stomach. It’s had enough beating for one night.”
Kevin reluctantly moved off the elder and gave him a tight hug. “I don’t want this to change.”
Xander smiled and took the younger into a tight hug whispering, “If you ever tell me to erase you from my memories I will beat you up like you did me.”
Kevin pulled back and stared at the elder. “Wait did I talk in my sleep?”
“No you screamed.” Kibum spoke up.
They all laughed about it and moved onto getting ready for the days schedule. Kevin stayed by Xander’s side all day not moving or thinking about letting the elder out of his sight.
“Xander I don’t want this to change what so ever.” Kevin smiled up at the elder as they got ice cream with the other five members who were complaining about being hungry.
A/N: I’m sorry if the last part is confusing but if you don’t get the whole plot lemme know and I’ll see if I can straighten it out for ya. Thanks for reading and I hope to post more soon ^_^
Pairing:Alvin
Rating:PGish
Summary:Xander has fallen apart after a few quarrels with the managers and his dearly beloved. (fail!summary)
A/N:So I have discovered that I can be online at home but it’s limited use sadly =( I can live though it means I can post but it only works on my mom’s computer so we shall see how that works. I’m going to try and keep writing as much as possible now off to the next fic.
A/N:This is prompt 3 from U-Kiss challenge. Hope ya enjoy!
Sitting on a chair the young male looked out the window watching the past fly by. There was so much that he had just gone through and there was nothing that he could do to go back on it now. He knew that the future held something more for him but he just wasn’t sure what it was.
“Xander hyung you alright there?” a familiar voice spoke up.
Xander nodded and continued to stare out the window. Kibum had been there for him since the last day of his contract and now Xander was ignoring him.
‘I miss him so much’ the elder thought to himself. ‘I wish there was a way that I could see him. I want to go back.’
“Xander if you need anything call me. I’ll be at the office working on Kiro Kiro” Kibum said as he walked out of the house. “I will come back to check on you around five.” The door closed and Xander sighed in relief.
“Don’t get me wrong I’m glad I left the group. I just miss him.” Xander said to himself.
He pulled himself up out of the chair that he was sitting in. Xander slowly moved towards the computer to see what the members were up to now. Though there was a difference in his things and he had to make a choice Xander still wanted to make sure that the ones he loved were still alright.
It had been a few months since he heard from anyone except Kibum and Dongho. They all seemed to be doing well but Kevin still had the fake smile plastered on his face. Soohyun seemed more snarky than ever and Eli was just Eli. He knew how to hide his emotions on screen and he provided the fan service that everyone loved.
Xander sighed and found himself in the kitchen. There was only one other place that he loved and that was next to the one he loved. Though church was a great place as well there was just something missing in his heart.
”Xander, Why are you doing this to us?” A voice screamed down the hall. “You promised that you would never leave us!” There were footsteps that shortly followed the elder who was looking away from it all. “Xander, love, please don’t.” The man seemed to be in pain.
They knew that there was something wrong with it all but they weren’t one hundred percent on what was going to happen.
“Kevin just stop.” Xander said as he turned around. “You know I love you with all my heart. It wasn’t my choice. Just erase me.” The elder turned around and faced the door. “Kevin please don’t remember me. Just, leave it as if nothing happened. Erase me from your memories.” Xander turned to face the door.
“Alexander,” Kevin said quietly but only loud enough for the elder to freeze in his tracks. “Then you need to erase me from your memories and your past.”
Kevin turned on his heel and moved towards his bedroom. There was a slam of the door before anything new happened in the house.
He hadn’t meant to tell him that but emotions were getting in the way of everything. Xander was told to leave as soon as he could and there was nothing that he could do about it.
“I miss them.” Xander whispered to himself. “I want him back. I wish I hadn’t told him to erase me from his memories.” He sighed and pulled out a bottle from the fridge.
~~~~~
“Kibum I have a bad feeling about this. He hasn’t talked to anyone but Dongho since that day. I just want him to talk to me so we can figure it out.” The familiar voice said through the receiver. “Dongho hasn’t… Wait what was that Dongho?”
There was a gasp before the phone sounded as if it had been dropped.
“Kibum go over to Xander’s now!” another voice spoke up. “I’ll take care of Kevin but please hurry.”
The line went dead and Kibum stood there with shock in his system. ‘Xander wouldn’t do such a thing. Would he?’ he thought to himself.
Kibum tried calling Xander from his phone but there was no answer. “Shit” Kibum said as he grabbed his things and ran out of the office. He pulled out of the garage at a rather high speed before pulling into a rush of traffic. “Why, Xander why?” He kept asking himself as he sped towards the familiar house.
~~~~~
“I love you Kevin.” Xander whispered to himself as he held the knife to his throat. “I wish that you hadn’t erased me from your life even though I said so.” Sighing Xander lightly pressed the knife into his throat causing blood to trickle down his neck. He closed his eyes as things started to get dark. “I will love you forever. My love Kevin.”
~~~~~
Kevin screamed as pain lashed across his face. Dongho had just slapped him.
“What was that for?” Kevin practically yelled at the younger.
Dongho gave a saddened look towards the elder. “I can’t tell you Kibum wants to tell you.”
Kevin stared deeply at the younger before crying. “No, no, no he couldn’t have.” Kevin grabbed onto the younger pounding his fists into the floor. “I knew I shouldn’t have told him to erase me from his memories. I love him. I really do.” Kevin was whimpering as he said the last few words.
“Kevin I’m sorry. I tried.” Kibum said calmly as he sat down next to the younger. “We will all miss him”
”Kevin stop!” Xander giggled out. “I want to finish this before you get done with your homework.”
Kevin pouted before moving away from the elder to go back to his books. “You know, Hyung I’m going to miss this.”
“Miss what?” Xander asked curious to what was going on.
‘Should I tell him?’ Kevin thought to himself. He shook his head.
“Kevin?”
“I’m going to miss all of us being together.”
“Why would you say that?” Xander asked not sure what to say to it all. “We will be together for a long time.”
Kevin shook his head. “If you only knew what the managers had planned for you” Kevin mumbled as he grabbed his books and moved out of the kitchen to get some studying done.
“I should have just told him then. Maybe things would have been different now.” Kevin hiccupped into Kibum’s chest. “I could have saved him.”
“Kevin, Kevin, KEVIN!” He was being shaken. “Kevin come on get up. Your having a nightmare and beating up Xander hyung.”
Kevin rolled onto his side and stared into the eyes he had missed. “Xander?” the younger male cried out pouncing on the elder. “I missed you so much and, wait nightmare?”
Xander frowned at the younger on top of him. “Kevin I love you to but will ya please get off of my stomach. It’s had enough beating for one night.”
Kevin reluctantly moved off the elder and gave him a tight hug. “I don’t want this to change.”
Xander smiled and took the younger into a tight hug whispering, “If you ever tell me to erase you from my memories I will beat you up like you did me.”
Kevin pulled back and stared at the elder. “Wait did I talk in my sleep?”
“No you screamed.” Kibum spoke up.
They all laughed about it and moved onto getting ready for the days schedule. Kevin stayed by Xander’s side all day not moving or thinking about letting the elder out of his sight.
“Xander I don’t want this to change what so ever.” Kevin smiled up at the elder as they got ice cream with the other five members who were complaining about being hungry.
A/N: I’m sorry if the last part is confusing but if you don’t get the whole plot lemme know and I’ll see if I can straighten it out for ya. Thanks for reading and I hope to post more soon ^_^