Oh My God, OH MY GOD, GIRL!! Where do I even begin?? You kill me SO COMPLETELY DEAD WITH THIS.
First I should tell you, the only thing giving me any kind of hope whatsoever and stopping me from going on and slitting my wrists right now is that I'm pretty sure there's more to this story and this God-awful summer WILL come to an end. If I were just reading this willy-nilly and thought this might be one of those series that just never got finished, or worse yet, this was *the end*... yeah. Wouldn't be pretty.
NOW. Oh my, I have to go back and start at part 1. It's amazing to me now, because I think I'm more aware, or maybe I just didn't realize how much I noticed before? but it's awesome how much I can read through Sam's thoughts, and I can *see* what's in front of Sam but see how the Sam-filter colors every thing he thinks and feels. Some of it is correct and spot-on, but some of it is fueled by Sam's fear or his attitude or his self-doubt. This, for instance, which is the first inkling I got of it this time:
Ahhhhhhhh. Now that's what makes it all worth while, a response like this. Thank you SO much!
And yes, there's more to come, and perhaps the summer will never end (I'm sure Sam thinks so) and perhaps it will (which is what Dean is not looking forward to.) And LOOK! No beating? Aren't I nice? Actually I'm not because that means that the next time...well. We have to keep things balanced, don't we? Mwaaa haaaa haaa!
Hot yeah. I like to write stories where characters are hot. Don't ask me why, because I still don't know. I sure as heck don't write as much about characters who are cold.
Listen you stay warm, okay? And look out for all those idiots on the road when you are driving.
because seriously? with the word limits...charmedstrange1January 31 2010, 05:01:23 UTC
SO, this time my villain is Dean. And again, it's not entirely his fault because Dean is who he is and is just trying to step-to and have everything running smoothly, and he can't for the life of him understand why it can't, and why Sam won't let it, but for Pete's sake. He sure is taking big-brother-is-license-to-be-an-asshole to heart. Of course he's doing it because (to my way of thinking) his pride is hurt, being first of all *shown up* by his little brother, but then add to that the insult of his little brother trying to protect him from that? Keeping in mind that Dean himself is only 16 here, (babies!!) and 16-year-olds can be their own brand of asshole to begin with, much less with the issues Dean has thrown in. WHEW
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Re: because seriously? with the word limits...lovesrain44January 31 2010, 05:14:06 UTC
Dean is the villain, interesting, I think that's a very apt way of looking at him in this piece He certainly is pissed off because this is his golden moment and Sam's screwing it up left and right, in spite of trying not to every minute of every day. So it hurts Sam more than a beating, having Dean give him the cold shoulder. He is only 16, like you say, just at the stage when everything Sam does irritates him anyway, so it's a short leap to telling Sam he sucks
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Re: because seriously? with the word limits...charmedstrange1January 31 2010, 05:55:08 UTC
Yes, I was afraid a beating might be on its way after the tripping, because Sam was so freaked out he just *could not function*-- (which is, I think, what is so horrifying to me that the times when Sam royally screws up he really just isn't in complete control of himself, it's not like he *intends* to say all the wrong things)-- but you're right. A beating will hurt us all a lot more if there's a deceptive calm for a while.
*blinks* WHY AM I HELPING?
Then, ... this is his golden moment and Sam's screwing it up left and right, in spite of trying not to every minute of every day.
This also kills me dead about Sammy and his predicament. He's trying so fucking hard and nobody can see what a huge effort almost *everything* is for him, on the inside. They both just see a sulky, mouthy, (lazy?) kid. UGH! Puberty!!
And see? SEE? Sam is afraid John's gonna beat him over the blister, when that's not John's bag (much) at all. I contend that it would depend on Sam's attitude while doing it. :P HOWEVER, even though Sam is not
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Hey thank you! I seriously hope it was better because I fixed the beginning part to be in "real time" rather than "passing time." Uh, I showed it instead of telling it. : D
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First I should tell you, the only thing giving me any kind of hope whatsoever and stopping me from going on and slitting my wrists right now is that I'm pretty sure there's more to this story and this God-awful summer WILL come to an end. If I were just reading this willy-nilly and thought this might be one of those series that just never got finished, or worse yet, this was *the end*... yeah. Wouldn't be pretty.
NOW. Oh my, I have to go back and start at part 1. It's amazing to me now, because I think I'm more aware, or maybe I just didn't realize how much I noticed before? but it's awesome how much I can read through Sam's thoughts, and I can *see* what's in front of Sam but see how the Sam-filter colors every thing he thinks and feels. Some of it is correct and spot-on, but some of it is fueled by Sam's fear or his attitude or his self-doubt. This, for instance, which is the first inkling I got of it this time:
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And yes, there's more to come, and perhaps the summer will never end (I'm sure Sam thinks so) and perhaps it will (which is what Dean is not looking forward to.) And LOOK! No beating? Aren't I nice? Actually I'm not because that means that the next time...well. We have to keep things balanced, don't we? Mwaaa haaaa haaa!
Hot yeah. I like to write stories where characters are hot. Don't ask me why, because I still don't know. I sure as heck don't write as much about characters who are cold.
Listen you stay warm, okay? And look out for all those idiots on the road when you are driving.
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*blinks* WHY AM I HELPING?
Then, ... this is his golden moment and Sam's screwing it up left and right, in spite of trying not to every minute of every day.
This also kills me dead about Sammy and his predicament. He's trying so fucking hard and nobody can see what a huge effort almost *everything* is for him, on the inside. They both just see a sulky, mouthy, (lazy?) kid. UGH! Puberty!!
And see? SEE? Sam is afraid John's gonna beat him over the blister, when that's not John's bag (much) at all. I contend that it would depend on Sam's attitude while doing it. :P HOWEVER, even though Sam is not ( ... )
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