hi - i tried to PM this to you but your privacy settings don't allow that, don't know if you know that ... anyway ... brenden banned me today, for "personal attacks" presumably for telling that person to fuck off yesterday. (aka the person who told me i was partially responsible for my rape) and it's my birthday too. i'm fucking pissed. i'm telling you this just bc you've always been so sweet and supportive to me, so i wanted you to know why i dropped off the face of the planet/ontd. <3
hey, bb. i tried messaging you, but your privacy thingy is off so i'm just leaving my message here. I hope that's okay.
someone actually suggested i use lj has an actual journal which is a really good idea. i never even thought of it because i'm really only on here for comms. maybe it would help you as well? the only person i really trust irl is my therapist, so meeting people online who don't know anything about me other than my name is really helpful. i can tell them anything and they won't tell anyone else. i mean lol who are they going to tell? "oh hey i met this girl online and she told me she's really depressed and wants to khs." you know? i'm just really paranoid (ty online stalkers!). aw ty. i really like your comments on ontd. ty for messaging me. i hope you're doing better now. pls message me if you ever need anyone to talk to. i'm here for you. i'm going to friend you, is that okay?
it's fine! i don't know why my privacy thing is like that, i've tried editing it a million times.
i highly suggest that, or carrying around a notebook or something familiar! sometimes, i just couldn't talk to people because i couldn't find the words to express what or why i was feeling like this and i felt so stupid so writing helped me a lot. it's good that you have a therapist and hopefully you can trust them enough to just talk about everything without being worried (i was sent to a psych ward twice so sometimes i tiptoe around the subject of suicide because of an inherent fear) lol regardless, if i knew you irl, i wouldn't tell anyone. i feel like i've met so few good people that i just want to try to be a good person, even if i'm asshole like 90% of the time on ontd. that's fine, i'm going to do the same and just send me a message if you ever want to talk about anything, good or bad. i really hope you start feeling better because you have a life worth living :(
i''m sorry you were forced into a psych ward. i understand why you're scared especially because you didn't really have a good experience not to mention the people who just don't understand mental illness (like in suicide posts on ontd rme) and they're like you're selfish. like lol sis pls. aww, ty, bb. i might actually take you up on that soon. you're such a sweetheart. <3
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someone actually suggested i use lj has an actual journal which is a really good idea. i never even thought of it because i'm really only on here for comms. maybe it would help you as well? the only person i really trust irl is my therapist, so meeting people online who don't know anything about me other than my name is really helpful. i can tell them anything and they won't tell anyone else. i mean lol who are they going to tell? "oh hey i met this girl online and she told me she's really depressed and wants to khs." you know? i'm just really paranoid (ty online stalkers!). aw ty. i really like your comments on ontd. ty for messaging me. i hope you're doing better now. pls message me if you ever need anyone to talk to. i'm here for you. i'm going to friend you, is that okay?
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i highly suggest that, or carrying around a notebook or something familiar! sometimes, i just couldn't talk to people because i couldn't find the words to express what or why i was feeling like this and i felt so stupid so writing helped me a lot. it's good that you have a therapist and hopefully you can trust them enough to just talk about everything without being worried (i was sent to a psych ward twice so sometimes i tiptoe around the subject of suicide because of an inherent fear) lol regardless, if i knew you irl, i wouldn't tell anyone. i feel like i've met so few good people that i just want to try to be a good person, even if i'm asshole like 90% of the time on ontd. that's fine, i'm going to do the same and just send me a message if you ever want to talk about anything, good or bad. i really hope you start feeling better because you have a life worth living :(
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