just when i thought my day couldnt possibly get worse.
it does.

so long summer.

im done.
im taking things for what they are and see where that takes me.
thank you to everyone whos made a difference in my life. and whos been there for me not only during the happy times, but the roughest of times as well, brings out the true character of each of you.

goodnight.

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I honestly havent written in here for forever.
I miss it in a way..  
to let out all these emotions and feelings that have been rushing through my head.
haha that reminds me of that one song.. that i hate 
"can you feeeeeel it can you feeeeeel it rushing through your head rushing through your head"
ew, now its gonna be stuck in my head.

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btw...

happy barrington fireworks. marks style.
http://www.clubphoto.com/_cgi-bin/app.pl/albums/large_image_view?id=4535153&link_code=sa01_17

something just hit me.
and wow.

and i realize i dont like people preaching to me about whats best for me.

I'm so sick of everyday life being such a soap opera.
who did this, who did that.
why the hell does it matter.
im so sick of everything its not even funny. 
the fact alone that i find someone who i can confide in and talk to and people get upset about it.
i'm emotional mess as it is.

i cant handle this.

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I'm beyond numb right now.
I cant put anything together.
2 hrs. in bed helpless and alone and broken.
I cant even begin to speak.
A river doesnt even begin to explain.

Jen thank you for being there, when I couldnt breathe on my own..
for always being there, regardless of anything and everything around us.
I love you.

too much slacking in here when I do have a million and one things I could say to the world.
for one im in awe of so much beauty in the world.
like honestly, i could never take the beauty of anything for granted.
it just leaves me in amazement, because it is surrounding us all.
in more ways than one could ever think of.
its in the way people look at you.
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i honestly cant stop crying right now.

i miss my dad, more than anyone could ever come close to imagining.

and ashley.

among so many others in my life.

wow im so f-in emotional right now.. i like cant breathe.