Shape of My Heart

[lotusk]

Title: Shape of My Heart
Author: lattelotus
Betas: daestruct, exollent
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Jongin / Kyungsoo
Length: 40k
Summary: Jongin is an assassin who leads a quiet, isolated life until his terrified neighbor Kyungsoo forces his way into his apartment and into his desolate heart.
Genre: Romance, mild angst, action
Warnings: [spoiler]guns, mild violence, blood, bullet

Comments

[teakopp]

Gasp, no comments?! But this was soo good!!! Srs thanks for sharing!!

[lotusk]

You're most welcome! And yeah no comments here - thank you for being the first! I guess most people commented on AO3.

[teakopp]

Haha any time, just hope you're getting some recognition! :)

[whiskerd]

This was a heartwarming fic to read and funny from Kyungsoo's spunk, I loved it.

I don't think I've read a fic before that characterised ksoo like this, but it was nice as. His character was hot and boyish yess. I'm pretty sure this ksoo is on top of the most addictingly honest characters I've read so far. I liked the development of finding out about Jongin and the way you wrote his thoughts/actions towards ksoo. Their zing together was just ❤ ❤ .

The pace of this story was just so right, and the dialogue the characters had between each other was nice, I could feel the hints of the chemistry each relationship had.

YOU EVEN PUT THE SONG TRIPLETS IN THERE, NICE ONE.

[lotusk]

I'm so glad you enjoyed spunky kyungsoo! He was so much fun to write. He's usually so controlled in fics so wanted to try something different LOL.

Thanks so much for reading and commenting and for noticing the Song triplets LOL. I put that in for my friend who is a Chanyeol Stan who's mad abt the song triplets! Bless you for making it thru that 40k!

[zeroseven_]

okay i admit that at first it was really hard for me to see how why where when kyungsoo and jongin fell for each other - the whole only knowing each other for two days was repeated a few times and it really jarred me because, honestly. he's an assassin. he's a kid. two days. HOW but then it's like. kyungsoo would have seen jongin walk in and out of his apartment and the building multiple times over the three months. he would have seen a guy, pretty attractive, tall, tanned, slim, built, and he would have been intimidating, if not for the fact that he would always be trying to do the opposite - trying to blend in, blend out totally, never looking up, never looking around, never making eye contact. honestly, if jongin weren't attractive, kyungsoo would prolly thought he had a psycho on his hands but that's not important, the important thing is that if i were kyungsoo, i would be intrigued too. because with beautiful people, they're meant to stand out, be out there, be, you know, attracting attention - but then there's this hella

[zeroseven_]

and i lied about the dumb tattoos of course i did bloody hell brought a fucking tear to my eye what a brat that asshole kyungsoo HOW COULD YOU make your parents slog out designing and painting the mural then making them paint over it in teal a mere two years later TEAL ISNT EVEN AN APPROPRIATE COLOR FOR A WALL okay no that isn't true either teal is a great color BUT I AM TRYING TO MAKE A POINT HERE and that is that baby kyungsoo was an asshole but i'm glad that he at least /knows/ he was a spoilt little brat and made the brave and poignant decision to get it tattooed on him. it's like the mural that could have been IF YOU DIDNT CHANGE YOUR MIND YOU SPOILT LITTLE BOY i sound angry but i'm not angry i'm just upset because he could've had it all /sobs

idk what i'm saying anymore so that's a good sign to stop saying things now.

thank you for writing and sharing this!!!

[lotusk]

Thank you so much for your wonderful comment ;;;; it really means so much to me you have no idea. As for Kaisoo and the short amount of time they had to fall for each other--it wasn't actually all that sudden. They'd been having short exchanges for months and seeing each other a few times a week. And even though Jongin tried to freeze kyungsoo out the whole time, kyungsoo persistently interacted with him. Jongin, in his own way was also falling for kyungsoo in the sense that he broke away from his usual pattern. He was overdue to move out of his apartment because he couldn't bear to give up kyungsoo. And when they actually had to spent time confined with each other, it's a well recorded fact that fear and anxiety and having a shared traumatic experience can accelerate two people's attraction for and attachment to each other. I'm rambling but I hope this makes sense lol.

Thanks again for reading and for sharing your thoughts!!

[zeroseven_]

it makes sense!

anyways the main reason I came back was bc I totally had more to say but obviously my brain wasn't working too well last night but I wanted to say that my favorite scene! was the bit where kyungsoo scampers off to a corner to gather mathilde & her remaining soil into a bowl LIKE!!!!!!! (man I'm typing this on my iPad and autocorrect is messing with my /flow/ man) kyungsoo knew how precious mathilde was to jongin, even though jongin never made a big deal out of it but kyungsoo knew it was a big part of jongin, so even though it didn't really matter, it wasn't life or death, but kyungsoo crawled over there to do what little he could. and like, just that image was devastatingly beautiful. it was like kyungsoo was trying to keep jongin together, keep his memories together, keep his past together because that's what makes jongin jongin, y'know?

but yes! that's all I came back to say lol (that was nervous laughter ha)

[thesockmonster]

Such a wonderful bed time story. ;-; Now I'm going to go dream of these two being sappy and gross.

[lotusk]

Are you serious?! You read this from start to finish in one sitting? You crazy person LOL

[thesockmonster]

Read? Nah. More like DEVOURED.

[lotusk]

OMG ILYSM /sobs all over you

[ext_3342442]

I couldn't put this down! I started yesterday and I just ate it all up!!! This will definitely be a story worth re-reading. Outstanding.
Also, I'd like to say that the back story about the compass tattoo was incredible. Like I wanted to slap and hug Kyungsoo at the same time. 1) for being a teenage brat and having his parents cover up their master piece and 2) he felt so much regret after the fact he all he wanted as comfort.
But seriously, thank you for such a good read Adele.

[lotusk]

You're most welcome! And thank you for taking the time to read this. I know how long it is and just ... Thank you!