Comments | lostscore: meme Catchup.

lostscore

meme Catchup.

Sep 23, 2010 11:49

First, let's continue that music meme.

( The Last Song in your Mp3 Folder )

youtube videos, meme, me me me, me too, music

Comments 14

jantra September 23 2010, 15:53:27 UTC

You are an amazing person who I wish I got to hang out with more.

You coming to Nekocon?

lostscore September 23 2010, 16:13:10 UTC

Don't I wish. No, I'm headed home to Scotland and my financial efforts are tied up in rent and food these days. Tuition as well.

jantra September 23 2010, 16:20:18 UTC

; ; Scotland's so far though.

lostscore September 23 2010, 17:50:16 UTC

But it's home now.

...I wouldn't mind having a few more friends stop by the flat however...

teal_deer September 23 2010, 16:07:01 UTC

Impostor syndrome

Oh.

So that's what this nagging, crushing anxiety/fear is whenever one of my fellow MFAs goes on about how OH YEAH I'VE PUBLISHED LIKE SIX ESSAYS THIS YEAR AND I WRITE FOR THREE HOURS STRAIGHT EVERY DAY WHAT ABOUT YOU :D

and I go

"I write... stuff... when it occurs to me. Or I like... have a deadline..."

and then I want to crawl into a hole and die...?

lostscore September 23 2010, 16:09:37 UTC

Yeah that's it. Definitely it.

I wish I had some fucking awesome advice for you?

I don't.

teal_deer September 23 2010, 16:15:05 UTC

oh bugger

:(

at least I know what it is and that it's not JUST ME here

lostscore September 23 2010, 16:31:12 UTC

It's worth it to talk to a psychologist. Because they're doctors too and they suffer it too.

See, I did a fasttrack Masters Prog. It took me 8 months and it was hell on earth, I don't reccomend it to anyone, and yet I'm glad I did it too. So I never did a thesis defense. Now it scares the SHIT out of me - and I don't even have to do it for another 2 years.

My therapist and I talk about this stuff, and she relates her own experiences which is great. Hell even my advisors can relate stories about how they said 'yes I read that' in response to someone asking if they'd read the 'latest paper by someone they'd never heard of'.

It doesn't make it go away, but it does...feel a little better.

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yukie1013 September 24 2010, 00:27:48 UTC

Impostor syndrome needs to fall out window and down into a hole filled with ants while on fire. And then explode. With the ants.

Also whenever you talk about food I get hungry because your cooking is awesome. And I wish I could deathmetal growl, but I cannot. Lol choirboy voice!