Comments | losers_day: Waiting softly for someone to believe.

losers_day

Waiting softly for someone to believe.

Jul 13, 2008 01:33

Hm. I've never done this meme, but I think tonight is a good night for it. ♥

Tell me something. Post it anonymously.

A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love: anything you want.
Something about you, something about me, anything at all.

Be sure to post honestly. Post as many times as you want.

Also:

THE POKEMON MEME!

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Comments 17

anonymous July 13 2008, 05:42:00 UTC

I want to be a rebound.

losers_day July 13 2008, 05:49:50 UTC

I've wanted that before too, in a few different senses of the word. Did something happen?

anonymous July 13 2008, 09:41:03 UTC

I want her to be my rebound.

anonymous July 13 2008, 06:10:51 UTC

I set myself up for disappointment so much, when my wishes are honestly fulfilled I don't know how to react.

I should be happy.

losers_day July 13 2008, 06:22:17 UTC

I've been there. Setting yourself up for disappointment makes it hard to appreciate things that would truly make you happy. It's hard, and sometimes near impossible to overcome.

All I can offer for advice is to try not to set yourself up for that in the first place. I'm not going to sit here and tell you it's easy though. I believe very much in what I call "the power of positive thinking", the principle of which is this: If you think something can go wrong, it probably will. But if you think things will go well, they probably will. It hurts, of course, when things don't go as planned, but...I think it's better to have that hope, even with the disappointment it can bring.

A-Ah, but that probably sounds foolishly optimistic, right? I'm so bad with things like this. ;;;

anonymous July 13 2008, 07:11:39 UTC

No, I'm too negative. It's why I don't try. But I tried this time--the opportunity arose and I had to take it in that instant before the excited high wore off--and the moment after I just lost it. I'm as bad now as I thought I wasn't anymore, emotionally speaking (meaning I'm just a wreck).

I keep crying even though I try to be happy. I thought about what I was supposed to be looking forward to today, and I smiled. A second later, I realized I had faked it. It's gone from something exciting, something I've always wanted, to something that just is and is a point in my life that is and is nothing else.

Pretty obvious who this is by now. I'm always dumping stuff on you guys.

losers_day July 13 2008, 14:57:58 UTC

Don't worry about it. If I minded you dumping things on me, then you wouldn't be my friend in the first place. It's okay, to talk about your problems and say how you feel, even if it's not all smiles and sunshine. I don't mind listening to you. And I'd really rather you say something than not talk about it at all. That's when I worry.

I firmly believe that there is no such thing as a sadness that lasts forever. It...probably sounds meaningless or superficial, but this too shall pass, you know? You have good friends who care about you, friends you can rely on, who try to make you smile, and there will be a day when you can look at yourself and say "You know...I'm pretty happy." It might not be today or tomorrow, but I believe it will come!

....orz I'm so sappy. But I think you know what I mean, right?

anonymous July 13 2008, 06:18:52 UTC

I had a crush on a teacher when i was in high school. Im glad I didn't do anything about it.

losers_day July 13 2008, 06:25:08 UTC

It's probably for the best that you didn't. But I know what you mean! I still get crushes on teachers, but I never really make a move to do anything about it. I like teacher/student things in fandom sometimes though.

anonymous July 13 2008, 06:35:22 UTC

I have an irrational fear of abandonment. And because of that, I feel as though I don't always put the full faith in my friends I should anymore, even if they have done nothing to deserve the doubt. But I'm convinced that people only stay around until they eventually bore of me, since that's the way it has always been until now. I'm afraid that if I trust or rely on them too much, it's going to lead to another big disappointment.

Hand-in-hand with that, I fear part of the reason I'm too attached to someone that I really shouldn't be, is because they have yet to ditch me after many, many years.

losers_day July 13 2008, 06:48:43 UTC

I don't think that's such an irrational fear. Everyone needs people in their lives, and so fearing abandonment is natural. There aren't many people who want to be totally alone ( ... )

anonymous July 13 2008, 07:13:21 UTC

I'm really not as immature as I appear.

Unfortunately, everyone takes that false immaturity and uses it against me.

losers_day July 13 2008, 15:01:00 UTC

That's a shame. If it's someone from chat, I'm sure no one probably means anything bad by it. We all tease the hell out of each other! But if something ever goes too far, you should say something! Just be like "HEY FAGS, CUT IT OUT." or something. We'll listen.

If it's irl or somewhere else...you know what? The same thing applies. Tell them if it bothers you. If they're worth their salt, they'll listen to you.