I don't like this, but it is my job. Lucifer has crossed a line this time. We know it was his blood used in the attack on Dan and the murder of Lucia. I grab what I need from my desk and slip into the ether finding him in Hell.
I reach out and grab a hold of his wrist before his fingers lay hold of his target. His eyes cut to mine with a flash of anger and in seconds with a simple look I have him on his knees as I snarl at him. "Do not forget who you bargained with false son of the betrayer
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I stand in what was once my refuge, my home. Gone is the vista of white cloud, the soft plushness of the carpet underneath my feet and the peacefulness. All have left to be replaced by iron bars for windows beyond which there is now blackness as far as my eye can see, and nothing but cold stone underfoot.
It has become how I feel. A prison.
I grab the bars and rest my head on their coolness as I glare out into that empty dark space. I think of my next target and my mind rests on the fallen one. With Didymus unable to help me now I must find another way. The fallen one has fell before for love. Love can be his undoing again. Just as it is mine.
I find him at him, but it is not the way I love it. It is his jail apparently. I take a deep breath and move to him, "Lucifer... before you say anything I need you to know I love you. I accepted you for who and what you were many, many years ago."
Stepping closer I place my hand on his shoulder, "Please, no more. I will have to fight you for something I want as well. It breaks my heart, just as it does yours."
I briefly close my eyes at the feel of his hand on my shoulder but then I open them and see where I still am.
I cut my eyes to his. "Then as you have stated we are going to fight." I lift my head from the bars and bang them with my fists in anger. "If love is not worth fighting for then what is!"
I shrug his hand off me and move away from him. "Concentrate on doing your job Andrew. You made it quite clear it is important to you." I turn and glare at him. "Be gone and let me do mine."
"If you wish to banish me then why continue with this?? If you know I will fight then why?!"
He is not the only one hurt and angered! I move to him and holler, "If I could take the darkness from you I would, gladly! What you do in Hell goes against my very nature, but I love you!"
I growl at him and gesture to what surrounds us. "You would have me live in this for eternity! To be tortured and punished." I stalk away from him in anger. "You are free Andrew, you do not know what it is like!"
I round on him. "You walk his earth at will. I cannot! His darkness pulls me back down! What else am I supposed to do but what my heart tells me!"
I stride back to him and growl in his face. "If you can love me through all this then you will love me when I do what I need to be free."
I sneer at him. "I am Lucifer. They cannot prosecute me for I am not the one doing the deed. I cannot commit the sin."
I smile. "I put the play in motion, the rest is free will Andrew. I just bring out what is within. What they are capable of. That is my job. One he gave to me. Let him bask in the glory of how well I perform!"
I think about what he says. He is right... he would be - free. I look at him and for a moment I let myself think about what it would be like... my heart soars and I breath in a stuttered breath.
Reaching up I caress his face my eyes giving away my thoughts I am sure. I lean into him placing my head on his shoulder and close my eyes needing to feel his arms around me - to take it all away if only for a moment and let me dream.
I see it in his eyes, the corruption, that is my doing. To see that from his eyes makes my heart ache. He needs to stay pure of this.
I bring my arms around him and hold him tight savouring the last I will feel of him for a while. "I love you Andrew." I close my eyes and breath in his smell as I rest my head down on his.
Then I move my hands and take his shoulders pushing him away from me. "I banish you." I shove him through the darkness away from me back to his world and close mine to him, locking him out."
I stumble back into my office at the Order. No, no please NO! "LUCIFER!"
I try to sense him, I enter the ether, but he isn't there... he has locked me out! "LUCIFER PLEASE!"
Nothing, nothing. I fall from the ether onto the floor in my office sobbing, begging him not to banish me. After all this time I waited for him, he finally loved me now... I would have him the way he is now instead of not at all!
Sobbing I lie my head to the floor knowing until he finishes someone I will not have him. I have to fight against him now - I can't, I can not.
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It has become how I feel. A prison.
I grab the bars and rest my head on their coolness as I glare out into that empty dark space. I think of my next target and my mind rests on the fallen one. With Didymus unable to help me now I must find another way. The fallen one has fell before for love. Love can be his undoing again. Just as it is mine.
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Stepping closer I place my hand on his shoulder, "Please, no more. I will have to fight you for something I want as well. It breaks my heart, just as it does yours."
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I cut my eyes to his. "Then as you have stated we are going to fight." I lift my head from the bars and bang them with my fists in anger. "If love is not worth fighting for then what is!"
I shrug his hand off me and move away from him. "Concentrate on doing your job Andrew. You made it quite clear it is important to you." I turn and glare at him. "Be gone and let me do mine."
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He is not the only one hurt and angered! I move to him and holler, "If I could take the darkness from you I would, gladly! What you do in Hell goes against my very nature, but I love you!"
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I round on him. "You walk his earth at will. I cannot! His darkness pulls me back down! What else am I supposed to do but what my heart tells me!"
I stride back to him and growl in his face. "If you can love me through all this then you will love me when I do what I need to be free."
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I understand what he wants, and God help me, I want it too! But we know it can not be, not this way!
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I smile. "I put the play in motion, the rest is free will Andrew. I just bring out what is within. What they are capable of. That is my job. One he gave to me. Let him bask in the glory of how well I perform!"
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Reaching up I caress his face my eyes giving away my thoughts I am sure. I lean into him placing my head on his shoulder and close my eyes needing to feel his arms around me - to take it all away if only for a moment and let me dream.
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I bring my arms around him and hold him tight savouring the last I will feel of him for a while. "I love you Andrew." I close my eyes and breath in his smell as I rest my head down on his.
Then I move my hands and take his shoulders pushing him away from me. "I banish you." I shove him through the darkness away from me back to his world and close mine to him, locking him out."
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I stumble back into my office at the Order. No, no please NO! "LUCIFER!"
I try to sense him, I enter the ether, but he isn't there... he has locked me out! "LUCIFER PLEASE!"
Nothing, nothing. I fall from the ether onto the floor in my office sobbing, begging him not to banish me. After all this time I waited for him, he finally loved me now... I would have him the way he is now instead of not at all!
Sobbing I lie my head to the floor knowing until he finishes someone I will not have him. I have to fight against him now - I can't, I can not.
"Lucifer, please... I love you, I need you..."
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