Well, I'm leaving in about 45 minutes. I am horrified. Terrified.This is heartwrenching, and I hope I don't lose. There are so many things that could go wrong, this is like riding a roller coaster. By quitting in the first place, I stepped on to the thing, they locked down the little bar, and we're under way. So much can go wrong, and it's all in ( Read more... )

Well, the time has come. I'm leaving for Oklahoma on Monday. To...uhh...turn myself in. More on that after monday.
me.

Wow. I feel terrible about taking my cat to get spayed. I mean...I feel awful.
me.

There once was a painting ( Read more... )

If you've never felt it I'm sure you can imagine it. The feeling you'd get as you slid off of something smooth with an increasing grade, and you try so hard to dig your fingers into the surface of it, but you just feel the subtle give and softness of your fleshy fingertips as they drag fruitlessly across the cool, unbroken surface ( Read more... )

DO THIS
01. Comment with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie reminds me of you.
03. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
04. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
05. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
06. Put this in your

on second thought, I'll think of a different way of speaking out.
me.

often after writing something, I become simply too relieved of the subject's weight that I forget about it. It is absolutely imperative that I retain the weight of this writing's words. If I forget again, if I do not know again, I have simply become that which angers me most of all. Beleaguered by the sheer impracticalities of my desires, some ( Read more... )

Why do I fuck things up in the most inordinate and shitty ways? I feel like I'm subconciously attempting to depreciate the quality of my life. It's not like I intend to do the things I do. I'm just absentminded.
AGH!
me.

It's strange, how something like an emotion can live in your head, in hiding, for years, and never show it's face. Then, one day, you experience what spurred that feeling in the first place. It seems like I should know what lives in my head a little better than that. I shouldn't be so surprised and taken off my guard like that when things happen ( Read more... )